Newly Back In and Struggling

[Island Woman]

Hi. I'm newly back in to the fold after a 6 month stint of thinking I could control my addictions and use occassionally (you know the rest of the story I am sure). I had been sober for 2 years.

I live on a small island in the Caribbean with no support or meetings (or folk in recovery at all for that matter), so have reached out online!

I look forward to getting to know you as I start taking baby steps again!

[Justme57]

Hey ! island Woman! welcome back

So glad you made it back , it shows great courage , and determination.

My name is Lee, alcoholic, and I live in Australia . i only have 6 months sobriety , so am new myself .

I am sure you will rekindle friendships , and gain huge support here , I look forward to getting to know you

HUGX
lee

[Island Woman]

thanks for the support, and congrats on 6 months sober! And I do look forward to making new friends here.

[Dan]

Welcome! Sure could use some island sushine today! Looking forward to knowing you as well. So glad you found us.

Dan

[51anna]

Uh Dan, are you peeking into the ladies room again!!?? Ann and Morning Glory will chase you out so fast if they find you here!!

Island Woman,

A big welcome to you and I'm glad you found us. We are a great group of friends here and we all lean on each other and support each other. It really is a good placed to hang around. Hope you get to know us.

Love, Anna

[Iamanaddict]

It takes courage to come back after a relapse, I commend you for your courage.
I also am beginning again. After 10 months recovery, today I am back to Day 1, Step 1.
I am glad I am alive, I am glad my overdose didn't kill me.
My disease wants me dead. By the grace of God I am still alive.

[indigo]

Welcome back we still here and look forward to getting to know you.
Indigo

[Island Woman]

lol....first I saw the post from Dan and was wondering what kind of woman's name is Dan and then I saw the next post....

I appreciate all the support, and am sending island sunshine and warmth, and some sand to put between your toes with this post.

I really am struggling with the "why can't I be normal" thing.....it seems the first time I got sober, it was easy for me -- I got the steps, firmly believe in a higher power and was comfortable being in recovery.

This relapse thing is horrible -- the demons in my mind are as bad as they ever were......

[Justme57]

Hi there Island girl I just dropped by to say good night , hang tight , will catch up in the am ( my time lol)

HUGX
Lee

[Paulie]

Hi and welcome -

I am so glad you found your way here. There is a great deal of friendship and support here.

take it slow, don't dwell on the relapse. I believe that as long as you are still alive there is hope for recovery, and you are still alive.

I look forward to getting to know you better.

[bubblze30]

Welcome to SR. There are many women and men in this site that wil gladly walk along with you through this thing called life and recovery. I have met some really solid people in here that are always willing to lend a hand to help me up when I fall or an ear to listen. So please make yourself at home. You are welcome here. It must be hard when many people go to the islland to drink and party but it is possible to stay clean and sober. You must want it. So post away and read what you may but stick around and you will make some great friend.

P.S. I too had a few years and went back out and am coming up on 3 again so hang in there it works if you work it.

[Island Woman]

Thanks everyone -- still hanging in there....found a great online meeting, and am grateful beyond words for the support.

[bubblze30]

Hi again island Glad to hear you have found a meeting online they could be very helpful. They have them in this site as well. If you scroll down the front page it will show you times and days. Its good to see ya again. Hang in there and keep coming.

[Justme57]

Hi Island woman
How are things with you today ?

Hope you are doing well

HUGX
Lee

[wishIsedNO]

Hey island women...I want you to know we are here to support you...I too struggle with why cant i just forget about this thing..How can this powder control me so much...shouldnt i be more powerful...I played many mind games..thinking if i move or if i go to school or if i just get a job and so on and so on..that i would be ok...And sometimes it worked for awhile, but i always fell apart in the end..I had to come to the realization nothing is gonna work as long as i continue to use...And im not saying it was easy...it was hard as hell and continues to be a struggle sometimes..Hey its so easy to run and use...but in the end running becomes tiring and very lonely..
I wish you the best...and im here if you need any advice or just someone to lisiten to you...Im also curious what island your from..Im half dominican...and i go there yearly but i havent been there since i been in my methadone program..But im hopefully will be able to get to go soon...I love the caribbean..the soft white sand..and that blue water that feels like your in your own bath tub...Gosh i miss it..Your a lucky girl...go sit on the beach..go dancing..see how life is without drugs..its so much better..cause your actually really experiencing it..When your using its so easy to miss the small things and sometimes those are the most important...Jackie

[Lompocian]

Welcome Back Island Girl.

Yes, I definitely know the story... I tried to find an easier and softer way myself, it doesn't work, does it? I finally realized I needed to follow the suggestions that were told to me in the rooms of my fellowships. And I've never followed a suggestion that didn't work. LOL

I couldn't imagine staying clean and sober with out any support, thank goodness for these boards, huh? Look forward to sharing each other's ES&H.

Your friend in recovery,

Carol

[dotcom]

hi island! and welcome! theres a lot of support and encouragement here! stick around!

hugs,

dot

[zingabear]

Hello Island Woman: Lots of prayers for strength and perserverance. It is hard to be isolated with temptation all around you. Thank goodness for these SR people.

Have you looked into a place in Antigua called Crossroads Centre? My son just returned from there and I attended the family program. The place was orginally started by Eric Clapton for people of the Caribbean. They have "scholarships" available to attend; it might help you to go and reinforce some principals you have learned. Check out their website at http://crossroadsantigua.org.

Good luck in your recovery.

(((from Ginger)))

[Rowan]

Hello Island Woman and welcome back! I'm glad you're here.
I'm Rowan, and I'm an alcoholic. At 2 years sober, I relapsed too.
I was devastated but today - at 10 months sober - I'm in better shape
than I was after achieving the 2 years. Some people just don't get it the first time around - and that's ok - what's important is that you came back.
Have you ever considered starting an AA or NA group on the island? It's just a thought. It only needs to start with one. In the meantime, yes, this board is terrific! The people are so supportive as you have seen.
Keep Coming Back!