discontent..

[clancy!]

Oh girls,girls....

Iam so restless! I am lucky really, I have a lovely man and a nice house,and a job but I just want to kick out and explore! Im fed up of doing other peoples bidding...sigh....life seems to be alot of working till im exhausted, then catching up on sleep, doing the cooking and cleaning and then going back to work somemore....I keep getting whiffs of the spring and although i do really adore my partner in almost every way, i keep having fantasies of falling in love with a delicious young man and having a wild love affair. Oh dear! This NOT supposed to happen.being off drugs has caused me to become alot fatter and very lustful....all my appetites have increased like mad! while i was using i was rail thin,and quite composed and calm. Now im all curvy and bouncing with carnal thoughts about every guy in trousers (almost!) help, this is most irregular! Has it happenede to anyone else???

big hugs from Clancy (who has spring in her tail)

[In memory of miracle]

:blink Clancey!!! You bet!! I feel ya! Right down the line! LOL!!!

[indigo]

Oh Yes Clancy,
different variety, but no less intense!!! Enjoy the feeling sis.
Love Indie x

[wastedtime4me]

Clancy
I have this going on quite often!!!
I call it spring fever!!!!LOL
I have also put on weight in the last few months!!!
15lbs masy not sound like alot but i know me and if i let 15lbs creep up on me.I know b4 i know it it will be 25lbs..I have always gone from one extreme to another with my weight!!!
I feel safer when i am heavier cause i know iwouldnt let anyone see me nekkid like this..LOL
Thats my theory.I was told by my counselor that i am a sex addict..I already knew that though..LOLAnyway she said when your DOC is no longer an option my other addictions will eventually grow stronger or my desire to act them out will grow stronger!!!
Either way its a cycle eventually you act out o nt he other addiction then after a while yiou start to feel bad again cause it no longer makes you feel good just controlled by another "somerthing"that really isnt good for you!!!
Its just a cycle only you can make it all stop!!!
I have heard fantasies are ok and perfectly normal..blah blah blah..For me eventually they will get me into BIG BIG trouble..cause iKNOW ME!!!
I am also married with a beautiful family .I have a home for the first time i n my life.we have 2 cars i n the drive.They are old but they get us where we need to go .We have never had all the material things we have now evemn though it still isnt alot.It is to us!!!I would lose it all if my skeletons came outta the closet!! I am very VERY lucky to have what i have in this life!!I am working day by day to stay o n my own side of the fence!! I dont want to repeat the SAME OLE VICIOUS cycle that got me where i am today{in my head i mean}..I just cant take this post lightly.sorry..i hear you loud and clear.a duck knows another duck!!! Just as you make a choice to entertain these thoughts.you can make a choice not to!!I feel it is detremental to my wellbeing to not allow myself to look on the other side..No matter what!!!
I am also a VERY hungry mama..LOL..I have been spending time having fun sober time with my friends and my daughter .i act very silly most days.I do this to keep me laughing on the inside cause as soon as i feel really down and likei am missing out on something.THE SPRING FEVER kiocks in full force!!!The warm weather REALYY messes with my mind too!!!ITS not worth it.do something FOR YOURSELF that is good to make you happy.A GHOT young stud sounds like it would be fun..We both know the REAL:ITY of the outcome though..RIGHT???PLease feel fee to pm me if you need to talk.When i read your post i felt like i could have wrote it myself!!!LOLTake care sorry about the long post.I have a messed up hand ..and neck sorry about all the typos too.loltook too long to type let alone go back and fix stuff..lol

[clancy!]

Hey W.T.4.M

Good to know its not only me, yes i do know that to act on these thoughts would be DISATROUS...I too have a home and family for the first time in my life, and there is no way, practically, i could survive alone as i have zilch,and debts to boot.And I have no earthly reason to stray, my man is wonderful, kind,patient intelligent..but the spark went a little...When i was using, that was my private thing,my me time, just crashing out into velvety oblivion...now my private world is populated by young studs!

my partner is 44 and i am 29, so there is a gap...ive been with him since i was 22...seems a long time. I am suddenly obsessed with YOUNG men.under 25.(but over 18,dont get me wrong..well at LEAST 16 at a push..oh stop it Clanc!) I see them every where and spend many happy hours in fantasy land impaling myself upon them.sigh.I never thought about sex at all when i was using.I guess the urge got squashed. I feel healthy now,despite being plumper (i was 100 pounds odd, now im 120!) but i worry where these feelings will take me next....oh boy...(excuse pun..heehee) xxxx

[bubblze30]

hey i want some. i gained weight and lost my appetite for men. I want some of your lust . LOL It sounds great enjoy.

[clancy!]

Hmm...it would be great if I had some one to release it on!!!!!!! oh take a cold shower clanc...*sigh*

[indigo]

Hey Clanc,
My son is 27 and people says he's nice looking, want a photo? lol
you go girl 'shake your ......'

love Indie