I don't know what's WRONG?

[ButterflyChaser]

I'm just feeling really bummed out, I started feeling like this yesterday, just feel down, sad, (not depressed) just really really sad, like there's an empty spot somewhere in my life (or body) & I can't seem to pinpoint what exactly it is that's making me sad, and that's really irritating me.
I just feel like weak, tired confused for the most part. I don't take to any of my old friends, cuz it was always drug related, so I just stick to my self. I'm a real beig peopl person, & I think for me to not take to a single person, is probably depressing me. I NEED people around, and that's why I probably kept my ex around before, just so I wasn't alone, i guess you can say I kinda settled. Ya know?

Maybe God wants me to be alone right now, maybe to get to know myself, I don't know. But I've nevewr been this alone before, with no one to talk to, or my phone not ringing, it's weird. Oh well....I'll be ok, just felt like whinning a bit! lol
Do ya'll ever have a day where you feel "outta touch"
with everything? I feel liek that too. Just gotta wait for it to pass I guess.
thanks for letting me vent!
Hope all is well with everyone else!

[51anna]

Maybe you're right Amy that you do need time to be alone. I know for me that was really important for me to figure out things about myself. Have you thought of doing something to meet people - taking a course, something like that? Just try to go with it and keep open to meeting new people. They'll come along.

Love, Anna

[clancy]

Yep, i have days like that, think everyone does. I liken to having a mental cold or something and if its bad i take a day off work . a mental health day! suggest you do the same. snuggle up with a great book and block the world out!

much strength

clancy xx

[ButterflyChaser]

Clancy that's a good idea...cuz I love to read.

Anna, I'm not Amy lol I'm Denise lol

[Justme57]

I am feeling the same these last couple of days , too, Denise, I am sad , not depressed, and I can feel the old " fear of rejection' rearing its ugly head . I think it is God , saying , spend some time alone for a while, and sort out some stuff. it must be, cos I have prayed for a solution, and maybe this is it ?

Just wanted to share that, cos it is very unsettling, I cannot even bring myself to ring anyone, ( I have nevr been good at that ) especially when I dont have any particularly good news, and mostly need to whinge !

My sponser, who knows how i am regarding this, is tied up at the moment , with her father terminally ill in hospital, and I dont want to bother her just now, she has enough on her plate

thanks for listening

HUGX
lee

[Paulie]

(((Butterfly))) take the day for YOU. Pray, write in a journal, read. It is okay, I have days like to. Nothing really wrong, just not right, I get it completely.

[Juls]

Yesterday, when I picked my 7 y/o daughter from school, we were in the car, and she told me "mommy, I feel sad. I feel like I have an empty space inside of me." This broke my heart to hear my daughter say this, she is usually so happy, but I told her "baby, we all have days like that. It will pass and you will feel better." I was just so surprised to hear someone so young have those feelings.

I know I have those days, and then I try to do something to lift my spirits, or I muck around in it for a bit till I'm tired of it. For me I think alot of it is hormonal because those kinds of feelings have gotten alot worse for me the past year, and I've started have peri-menopause stuff. Or it would be part of pms.

Also there are phases in life, sometimes when my phone would never ring, and then it would ring so much I would wish people would just go away. LOL

So your right Butterfly, it will pass, you will feel better, and when you make some new non-using friends your phone will be ringing once again.

Juls

[Paulie]

Juls - Oh that just made my heart sad. You have a real mature little girl there!! I hope she is happy when you pick her up today.

[boop64132]

Denise,
Hope you get to feeling better soon.I understand as I have days like that all the time.

((((Lee)))) hope you feel better soon also.
Hope it isnt something in the air......or I will catch it for sure.LOL

SMILE!!!! Im sending you all hugs and prayers!

[Justme57]

Thanks Betty ! I dont know, just feel so sad , and rejected , but dont want to start a pity party , was just hoping to share a bit , but not to be , never mind .

I will pull myself up shortly, have to go to work in a tic anyway .

LUV
Lee

[2stop]

My heart aches for you guys, I would take every bit of your pain so you could be happy. I don't know why life gets so crazy sometimes, but know I love you all, and keep you in my thoughts and prayers.......***Warm Hugs***

Hang in there, everyone, we can make it!!!

[51anna]

Lee,
Sorry you're feeling a bit down, but, I like the idea of spending some time alone. For me, I really need that - I love having a chance to spend some time alone. I think it might help me to listen to myself a bit, because I tend to tune out myself quite well. And, that has led to some difficult roads. Think of me here in the middle of a bitter Canadian winter and go and take a nice long walk with the Spotted one.

Hugs and love,
Anna

[ButterflyChaser]

Juls, it makes my heart sad for your daughter, she's so young to feel like that!!
Man, what it would be like to be young again, i'd make some better decsions! lol
Lee I'm sorry you are feeling that way to, today is a new day, but I still feel kinda crummy. I will take some time for me, when I get the time, or find the time. I wish I didn't have to be here at work, I'd love to be curled up in my bed or on the sofa watching some movies, I am so behind on my movie watching..although I did see Brue Almighty!! Great Movie, i recommend it!

Thanks ya'll for cheering me up, I knew i could count on ya'll

[Juls]

It made me feel sad too, but I remember being seven and feeling sad and lonely sometimes, but I never talked to my mom about it. I'm glad she talks to me about these things. Usually she is such a happy outgoing little girl, but every so often she'll get a sadness episode over something. Like her friend that moved away last summer, or her kitty that died a few years ago. She's pretty sensitive, which is good, but can also keep her vulnerable to things. Sometimes I wonder if my mental illness problems can be passed on the her. I was just like her as a little girl. Very sensitive, easily hurt, worried about poor people and all the bad things in the world. She is the same.

I talk to her alot and encourage her. Last night we went the PTA meeting at her school and a list was handed out that listed 40 things a child should have in order to do well in school and life. They were offering classes on how to make sure your kids got these things. There were things like family support, religious community, involvement in commnity, strong self-esteem, etc. I was surprised that I was able to see that my daughter was being provided with all 40 categories. It made me feel good about how I parent her.

Are you feeling any better today Butterfly? Come on over to our movie discussion thread on the Mental Health forum and share your movies with us.

Juls

[chosen1888]

Hi all, We all feel down sometimes, its part of being human. For me I find something to do or someone to help. I do not want to wallo to long in self pity. That got me drunk. I find when the phone doesn't ring thats telling me to reach out again to talk to others. I love my alone time now but I know I could also feel alone in a crowd. Talk to your Higher Power, He's always there listening and He will never abandon you. God Bless

[dotcom]

hi butterfly

so sorry your having a rough time. youll be in my prayers. how was bruce almighty?

dot

[ButterflyChaser]

Juls you are such a wonderful Mommy! You know that? You really are! I think that mental illness does effect ther kids. I am one of those kids (now an adult) My mom was depressed, she was paroniod, but she never & still never has touched a drink or a drug in her life. She's very catholic, old fashioned women. But I see now, the paronoia in me, even without my drug use, the depression, feeling like the world is against me, thta sort of thing. So yes I beleive mental illness is passed down to our kids. But then again, how would I know! lol

Thanks ya'll for sharing ya'll's experiences, it really helps, even to know that I'm not so alone in this big world! lol
I'm feeling a bit better, well...alot better! Just alittle blue, I guess. I just made such a mess of my life & I'm so overwhelmed by all the "stuff" that I don't even know where to start by fixing it. Ya know sometimes it's easier to just give up, But I won't, cause i know it'll only get better. I'm not giving up! Ü

I will go over to the "Movie Discussion" cause I looooooove to talk about a good ,movie! there's nothing like it! lol

Thanks ya'll for being there for me when I needed a friend the most...ya'll are great!!

[Paulie]

I am glad you are feeling better. but there is something that I want you to think about. You said it is easier to give up, but idont' think that is true. Once we get a taste of sobriety, it is not so easy to give up anymore. What do you think? I mean you were feeling bad but you didn't give up, you came here for support and friendship.

I hope you have a GREAT day.

[ButterflyChaser]

Paulie u are most diffinetly correct! Maybe my words fumbled out, hahahaha, they didn't come out right, I don't know, it was pretty early when I posted that! lol
But you are right, Ü Thanks!