To all of my newfound friends.... - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

ultrapped7 · 01-13-2004, 08:11 AM

I just logged this morning and was overwhelmed by all of your words of encouragement, shared stories. I feel somehow more empowered and comforted. It's like you all have just wrapped a warm blanket around me. You all know that I'm still sick, but that you want to try and help make me better. I'm sending good thoughts to all of you out there who share this "bond".
I have a bit of good news, sort of. I used to take ultram with my coffee first thing in the morning. Like, I felt in order to function-I had to first pop that pill. For the past 3 days I haven't had any ultram at all during the day. It's a strange sort of dejavu feeling. It has brought back a vague recollection of ultram-free days. Me, going about my day-trudging through, just like everybody else. Not on a cloud, but on solid ground. I must say-when you take pain killers, it's supposed to numb the pain. But, in fact-it numbs your whole being-including your soul. I took a walk yesterday and smelled the glorious fresh snow. It's so crisp and clean. So mind clearing. It gave me this burst of, I guess you could call it-energy!
I accomplished more yesterday than I have in about a month. But, today is today. And I haven't taken any ultram so far. That's about the only thing I'm sure of. These are real baby steps here, I know-but steps forward at least. I think I'm going to go out and smell the snow again,right now-while I still have the urge. I haven't noticed things like the weather in so long, it all feels new to me. I'm sending you all good thoughts, you are all heros.

boop64132 · 01-13-2004, 10:41 AM

Hello Ultrapped,
Sounds like you are doing great today!That is wonderful and Im so happy for you.
I could almost feel you smiling when you were typing your thread!

Good for you!!
hugs

2stop · 01-13-2004, 11:55 AM

(((Ultrapped)))) Hang in there, okay? You are doing good, we know how hard it is though, so keep posting, we will support and help in any way we can.....***Hugs***

ButterflyChaser · 01-13-2004, 01:01 PM

sounds like you are doing so much better...that's great!

:p

***Anna*** · 01-13-2004, 01:24 PM

Ultrapped, I had the deja vu moments you were talking about. When I stopped drinking, I felt my body remembering how things were before. It was very helpful. And, you're right about numbing the soul. I began drinking as self-medication and shocked at how quickly I lost myself to alcohol. Hang in there and keep going.

Hugs and love,
Anna

Paulie · 01-13-2004, 02:00 PM

Numbing our soul, that is a great way to put it.

I am so happy for you and so glad that you have joined us here. We are all on the same recovery journey together.

01-13-2004, 08:11 AM	#1 (permalink)
ultrapped7 Paused Join Date: Jan 2004 Location: cleveland ohio Posts: 11	To all of my newfound friends.... I just logged this morning and was overwhelmed by all of your words of encouragement, shared stories. I feel somehow more empowered and comforted. It's like you all have just wrapped a warm blanket around me. You all know that I'm still sick, but that you want to try and help make me better. I'm sending good thoughts to all of you out there who share this "bond". I have a bit of good news, sort of. I used to take ultram with my coffee first thing in the morning. Like, I felt in order to function-I had to first pop that pill. For the past 3 days I haven't had any ultram at all during the day. It's a strange sort of dejavu feeling. It has brought back a vague recollection of ultram-free days. Me, going about my day-trudging through, just like everybody else. Not on a cloud, but on solid ground. I must say-when you take pain killers, it's supposed to numb the pain. But, in fact-it numbs your whole being-including your soul. I took a walk yesterday and smelled the glorious fresh snow. It's so crisp and clean. So mind clearing. It gave me this burst of, I guess you could call it-energy! I accomplished more yesterday than I have in about a month. But, today is today. And I haven't taken any ultram so far. That's about the only thing I'm sure of. These are real baby steps here, I know-but steps forward at least. I think I'm going to go out and smell the snow again,right now-while I still have the urge. I haven't noticed things like the weather in so long, it all feels new to me. I'm sending you all good thoughts, you are all heros.

01-13-2004, 11:55 AM	#3 (permalink)
2stop ~Author of My Life~ Join Date: May 2003 Location: Doing what I thought I couldn't.... Posts: 4,794	(((Ultrapped)))) Hang in there, okay? You are doing good, we know how hard it is though, so keep posting, we will support and help in any way we can.....*Hugs* __________________ Many Hugs and Hope too, Tammie "Think of all the beauty still left around you and BE HAPPY." ~Anne Frank~ "Things do not change, WE change." ~Henry David Thoreau~

01-13-2004, 01:01 PM	#4 (permalink)
ButterflyChaser Meow! Join Date: Mar 2003 Location: Somewhere Over the Rainbow Posts: 1,019	sounds like you are doing so much better...that's great! :p __________________ "If a Child feels Safe, Wanted & Loved, You are a Successful Parent!" ~~"A relationship is like sand in your hand. If held loosely in the palm of your hand it stays there, but as soon as you close your hand tightly it slips through your fingers!!~~

01-13-2004, 01:24 PM	#5 (permalink)
*Anna* Administrator Join Date: Aug 2003 Location: Dancing in the Light Posts: 27,787	Ultrapped, I had the deja vu moments you were talking about. When I stopped drinking, I felt my body remembering how things were before. It was very helpful. And, you're right about numbing the soul. I began drinking as self-medication and shocked at how quickly I lost myself to alcohol. Hang in there and keep going. Hugs and love, Anna __________________ Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. Marianne Willianson

01-13-2004, 02:00 PM	#6 (permalink)
Paulie It is what it is!!! Join Date: Feb 2002 Location: Sobriety Posts: 5,785	Numbing our soul, that is a great way to put it. I am so happy for you and so glad that you have joined us here. We are all on the same recovery journey together. __________________ I know more about how to live than I did yesterday, but not as much as I'll know tomorrow. Today, Ill learn something new~JFT, 1/27/06 The difference between a good day and a bad day, is about 2 days~Ann of SR

01-13-2004, 10:41 AM	#2 (permalink)
boop64132 Member Join Date: Oct 2003 Location: Kansas City,Mo Posts: 478	Hello Ultrapped, Sounds like you are doing great today!That is wonderful and Im so happy for you. I could almost feel you smiling when you were typing your thread! Good for you!! hugs

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