The 4th step.....

[Pamsters]

Hey Ladies,

I have finished my 4th step and will be doing my 5th step this Saturday with my sponsor. I let go of a relationship that wasn't working out; short lived but I realized that I have changed and grown up. I want a better life for me and my kids. I want a more stable lifestyle for them which means finding a man that is stable too. I am not ready for a intimate relationship and I have almost 2 years clean. I am o.k. with being patient with myself and my higher power how will guide and protect and bring my someone who is deserving of my love and suppport. Well, back to the 4th step; I finished in 4 days after I let go of the relationship. I realized I was concentrating on his crap and not working on my own. (Sound familiar, anyone!) It is so much easier to look at someone else's stuff then look at our own. I am kind of nervous about letting my past go; but I can do it! I have a great sponsor. She is very supportive and spiritual. Besides, she isn't expecting perfection. I, in the past did. The time of done one of these before I expected a miracle or something. But it didn't turn out like I thought it would so I thought I had failed or something; I relapsed after that. Today, I am confident that I will get to the other side. God is with me and keeping me strong. In the past, I would've used over not feeling loved enough by a man. I know I am growing up and becoming the woman I always wanted to be. Strong and confident. Thanks for listening. Everyone have a great week!!!

[Paulie]

I know I am growing up and becoming the woman I always wanted to be. Strong and confident.

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In my experience that is what it is all about. For me recovery is not just not using or drinking it is about what you just said, learning confidence and strength. It is about learning to live life on lifes terms. My problem was not drugs and drinking, that was a symptom, my problem was living life on lifes terms.

Thanks for sharing that with us. Your 5th will be such a release!!!

(((Pam)))

[Chy]

Yup.. I started growing up the day I entered the rooms.. though a WE program.. I have to concentrate on ME a little more than I used to!

[Tabby]

Sounds like you are making really good progress...remember, progress not perfection. It's a one day at a time process as we rely on our Higher Power for the knowledge of His will and the power to carry it out.

Hugs.

[Pamsters]

Thank you ladies,

I love the forum because I get good positive feedback and support from women who really understand where I am coming from.