Feelin low again... - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

clancy · 11-19-2003, 03:37 AM

Hi guys...

Boy am i down right now.I just cant seem to cheer myself up or enjoy anything at the moment.
Im tortured by cravings for drugs,I hate my job at the moment(i have taken this week off sick,i hate it so much) I worry about getting older and having nothing to show for my life,about never having kids (my partner had the snip before he met me) and about my relationship in general which has about as much spice as blancmange. (not sure about that spelling!)

To make matters worse i have to leave the house in 5 mins to have my second pap smear and im already shaking like a leaf.

Please cheer me up girls, i feel really tragic!

love from a miserable Clancy xx

boop64132 · 11-19-2003, 04:59 AM

CLANCY,
FIRST OFF((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))
IM SO SORRY YOU ARE HAVING A BAD WEEK.
I HOPE EVRYTHING TURNS OUT OK WITH THE PAP.
JUST REMEMBER WE ARE ALL HERE FOR YOU!!!!!
SMILE SMILE SMILE!!!!!!
THINGS WILL BE OK!!
BETTY

Juls · 11-19-2003, 05:11 AM

Hey Clancy,

Keep in mind that "this too shall pass." Also, I know for me things usually seem worse when I'm down than what they really are. Those cravings are a btch though. I used to get out my NA book and read, come here, anything to distract myself from them. They do go away. You know you can do this.

Let us know how your test comes out. I'm sending prayers and hugs your way.

Juls

zoomer · 11-19-2003, 05:16 AM

Hi Clancy, do let us know how the pap went! LOL, I'm going through PMS right now and everything sucks! What does wonders is a good night's sleep to make things pass!

2stop · 11-19-2003, 05:35 AM

{{{Clancy}}} Wish I knew some magic cure for ya girl, really I do. Just keep puting one foot in front of the other...and it sounds like there are big decisions looming for you, feeling stuck is the worst, boy do I know..Keep posting, keep venting, maybe write down some options you have regarding work..plan a day to really just have fun.....but hang in there, okay? I know you will find a way through all this, and we're right here to help you. Sending big big hugs across the ocean to ya...and please do let us know how the test goes ya hear? Love ya girl.......((((((((Hugs)))))))))

:bluerose :redrose :yellowros

clancy · 11-19-2003, 07:33 AM

Thanx for love n'hugs girls....it cheers me up to read your messages.

This sober life isn't easy is it? I keep meeting people who squark on about the joys of sobriety, but they have yet to reveal them selves to me. Ive been sober nearly two months now, thought it would get easier by now!

Its so dark and cold here in england right now...the days are really short and seem to rush by.

Ho hum. I had the second pap this morning,boy do i hate those things! the indignity!

love to you all....

Clancy xxx

**margo** · 11-19-2003, 08:50 AM

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Originally posted by clancy
I keep meeting people who squark on about the joys of sobriety, but they have yet to reveal them selves to me.

((((((Clancy)))))) I can so relate to this part of your post. I've been clean for 3 1/2 months now, and until recently I was feeling the exact same way as you. I felt resentful, angry, weepy, tired, and a whole host of other negative emotions. Cravings on top of that was doing nothing for my state of mind. And then I would hear people referring to "gifts" and "joy" and I would get so frustrated sometimes that all I wanted to do was smash them over the head. There didn't seem to be any "pink cloud" for me and wanted it so badly! Just like everything else in my life, I wanted instant gratification and it wasn't happening. I was told to keep the faith and that those good feelings would start to come in time, and that's exactly what's started to happen now. Don't get me wrong - I don't go around in a state of peace and joy every minute of every day, and I still think about getting loaded and have to deal with those cravings, but there have been times lately when I am SO grateful to be clean that it brings tears to my eyes and it feels pretty damn good. So hang in there, Clancy - things don't always happen in the time that we want them to, but know that it will happen for you. Just keep the faith and believe.

Love and hugs to you!

MaryE.I. · 11-19-2003, 09:30 AM

Clancy, Wow were you reading my mind this morning? Maybe it's the position of the moon or something. I am 2 months, 1 day, 9 hours, 25 minuts clean.......and I still want to use really bad! I am dealing with life on lifes terms and it just sucks! However this community is a great place to come when we get in this spot. I am here because of the some situation, I am feeling really low. Just reading the responces you have gotten has cheered me up. Hang in there it will get better.....at least thats what everyone says. And today I am acting "as if" I beleave it. As they say at the meetings "keep coming back"!

Justme57 · 11-19-2003, 11:16 AM

Hi there Clancy !

Oh! how I relate to the PAP experience ! I am very sure it was definitely invented by a man, when he was having a very bad day!lol

You know , your comment re the weather , hiyt home for me , I do not cope with winter at all well, ( even drunk! lol) I believe it is a recognised syndrome called called SAD, very appropriate in my case . I live in melbourne, and this city is renowned here for its gloomy winters , wind rain and cold , and dark!

If I was you , i would light a fire , snuggle on the couch with a good book, a box of choccies , and the cat , if youhave one !

Hang in there girl!, and do let usknow how the PAP goes

HUGX
Lee

SkyIsFalling42 · 11-19-2003, 12:48 PM

(((Clancy)))

Hugs of comfort to you, sister. When I get this way, if at all possible I just take off walking as fast as I can go. By the time I get back home, I feel so very much better.

11-19-2003, 03:37 AM	#1 (permalink)
clancy Im Ok - youre OK Join Date: Jan 2002 Location: UK Posts: 251	Feelin low again... Hi guys... Boy am i down right now.I just cant seem to cheer myself up or enjoy anything at the moment. Im tortured by cravings for drugs,I hate my job at the moment(i have taken this week off sick,i hate it so much) I worry about getting older and having nothing to show for my life,about never having kids (my partner had the snip before he met me) and about my relationship in general which has about as much spice as blancmange. (not sure about that spelling!) To make matters worse i have to leave the house in 5 mins to have my second pap smear and im already shaking like a leaf. Please cheer me up girls, i feel really tragic! love from a miserable Clancy xx __________________ 'It riles them to believe that you perceive the web they weave'

11-19-2003, 05:11 AM	#3 (permalink)
Juls Member Join Date: Jul 2001 Location: California, USA Posts: 1,101	Hey Clancy, Keep in mind that "this too shall pass." Also, I know for me things usually seem worse when I'm down than what they really are. Those cravings are a btch though. I used to get out my NA book and read, come here, anything to distract myself from them. They do go away. You know you can do this. Let us know how your test comes out. I'm sending prayers and hugs your way. Juls __________________ Think World Peace

11-19-2003, 05:35 AM	#5 (permalink)
2stop ~Author of My Life~ Join Date: May 2003 Location: Doing what I thought I couldn't.... Posts: 4,666	{{{Clancy}}} Wish I knew some magic cure for ya girl, really I do. Just keep puting one foot in front of the other...and it sounds like there are big decisions looming for you, feeling stuck is the worst, boy do I know..Keep posting, keep venting, maybe write down some options you have regarding work..plan a day to really just have fun.....but hang in there, okay? I know you will find a way through all this, and we're right here to help you. Sending big big hugs across the ocean to ya...and please do let us know how the test goes ya hear? Love ya girl.......((((((((Hugs))))))))) :bluerose :redrose :yellowros __________________ Many Hugs and Hope too, Tammie "Think of all the beauty still left around you and BE HAPPY." ~Anne Frank~ "Things do not change, WE change." ~Henry David Thoreau~

11-19-2003, 07:33 AM	#6 (permalink)
clancy Im Ok - youre OK Join Date: Jan 2002 Location: UK Posts: 251	Thanx for love n'hugs girls....it cheers me up to read your messages. This sober life isn't easy is it? I keep meeting people who squark on about the joys of sobriety, but they have yet to reveal them selves to me. Ive been sober nearly two months now, thought it would get easier by now! Its so dark and cold here in england right now...the days are really short and seem to rush by. Ho hum. I had the second pap this morning,boy do i hate those things! the indignity! love to you all.... Clancy xxx __________________ 'It riles them to believe that you perceive the web they weave'

11-19-2003, 11:16 AM	#9 (permalink)
Justme57 Member Join Date: Oct 2003 Location: Melbourne victoria Posts: 1,980 Blog Entries: 7	Hi there Clancy ! Oh! how I relate to the PAP experience ! I am very sure it was definitely invented by a man, when he was having a very bad day!lol You know , your comment re the weather , hiyt home for me , I do not cope with winter at all well, ( even drunk! lol) I believe it is a recognised syndrome called called SAD, very appropriate in my case . I live in melbourne, and this city is renowned here for its gloomy winters , wind rain and cold , and dark! If I was you , i would light a fire , snuggle on the couch with a good book, a box of choccies , and the cat , if youhave one ! Hang in there girl!, and do let usknow how the PAP goes HUGX Lee __________________

11-19-2003, 04:59 AM	#2 (permalink)
boop64132 Member Join Date: Oct 2003 Location: Kansas City,Mo Posts: 478	CLANCY, FIRST OFF((((((((((HUGS))))))))))) IM SO SORRY YOU ARE HAVING A BAD WEEK. I HOPE EVRYTHING TURNS OUT OK WITH THE PAP. JUST REMEMBER WE ARE ALL HERE FOR YOU!!!!! SMILE SMILE SMILE!!!!!! THINGS WILL BE OK!! BETTY

11-19-2003, 05:16 AM	#4 (permalink)
zoomer Gold Member Join Date: Nov 2002 Location: It's raining again! Posts: 2,353	Hi Clancy, do let us know how the pap went! LOL, I'm going through PMS right now and everything sucks! What does wonders is a good night's sleep to make things pass!

11-19-2003, 09:30 AM	#8 (permalink)
MaryE.I. Member Join Date: Oct 2003 Location: Helena, Mt. Posts: 13	Clancy, Wow were you reading my mind this morning? Maybe it's the position of the moon or something. I am 2 months, 1 day, 9 hours, 25 minuts clean.......and I still want to use really bad! I am dealing with life on lifes terms and it just sucks! However this community is a great place to come when we get in this spot. I am here because of the some situation, I am feeling really low. Just reading the responces you have gotten has cheered me up. Hang in there it will get better.....at least thats what everyone says. And today I am acting "as if" I beleave it. As they say at the meetings "keep coming back"!

11-19-2003, 12:48 PM	#10 (permalink)
SkyIsFalling42 Big kitty nose hugs Join Date: May 2003 Location: Center of The World Posts: 1,261	(((Clancy))) Hugs of comfort to you, sister. When I get this way, if at all possible I just take off walking as fast as I can go. By the time I get back home, I feel so very much better. __________________ Love In Spirit, Sky Where my heart is....... http://Writing.Com/authors/skyisfalling02 "Never Give In, Never Give In, Never Give In, Never, Never, Never." ~~Sir Winston Churchill~~

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