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InternetJuliett · 01-24-2010, 07:55 PM

hi everyone... i'm Naomi and i'm new to this site but not totally new to recovery - i have almost 8 months clean and sober... i've been doing good up til this weekend when i've had a big relapse of depression hit me (i'm a mental health patient also - dual diagnosis) and i don't know if it's because i'm getting ready to do my 8th and 9th step and that is stressing me out because i'm so not into making amends to my ex-husband because he is still doing stuff to hurt me and i don't feel like he deserves an amends (like i'm worthy of making that decision) or if it's because i'm thinking of going back to work after being on disability for 4 years and that totally freaks me out cuz what if i can't handle it???? UGH - SIGH!!!! so much to process sometimes... i just get really overwhelmed and don't think straight... i've been processing it a lot with my sober friends and writing about it and praying but it's just not getting straight in my head yet - the depression is strong this time... i just have to hang in there.... anyway - it's great to have found this site and i plan on using it a LOT... nice to meet everyone!!!!

**Impurrfect** · 01-24-2010, 10:27 PM

Welcome to SR, and congrats on your clean time!!

Depression can be pretty overwhelming at times. Do you have a sponsor?

As far as going back to work, and wondering if you can handle it, when I get to thinking like that, I have to stop myself and focus on "right now" for a while. I know there are things in life we have to work toward, plan for, etc. but when they get to the point where I'm overwhelmed and can't function, well, I have to stop and get re-grounded.

Hugs and prayers!

Amy

***Anna*** · 01-26-2010, 05:43 PM

Hi and Welcome,

I think you have a great place for support and I'm glad you're doing well.

**CarolD** · 01-26-2010, 06:25 PM

Thanks for joining our recovery community
Welcome.....

Ask your sponsor if she thinks writing an amends
letter to your ex would benefit you?
Not necessarily to mail but it always
makes me feel organized when I write.

Well done on your clean and sober time....

InternetJuliett · 01-26-2010, 07:57 PM

thanks for all the welcomes and the feedback... i think this is going to be a good place for support!!!

i met with my sponsor today and we talked about my praying for my ex over the next couple of weeks even though i don't want to and i'll do that even though i don't want to because i want to get past this...

nice to meet all of you!!!

Evanna · 01-26-2010, 09:49 PM

Welcome Juliet.

Alizerin · 01-26-2010, 09:54 PM

Welcome to the cookoo's nest. :-)

barb dwyer · 01-26-2010, 10:00 PM

hi and welcome!

Tiredofdrugs · 01-30-2010, 08:34 PM

Here's a Hey Ya'll back at ya from AR. Welcome to the site.

01-24-2010, 07:55 PM	#1 (permalink)
InternetJuliett Member Join Date: Jan 2010 Location: Redding Ca Posts: 6	Hey y'all hi everyone... i'm Naomi and i'm new to this site but not totally new to recovery - i have almost 8 months clean and sober... i've been doing good up til this weekend when i've had a big relapse of depression hit me (i'm a mental health patient also - dual diagnosis) and i don't know if it's because i'm getting ready to do my 8th and 9th step and that is stressing me out because i'm so not into making amends to my ex-husband because he is still doing stuff to hurt me and i don't feel like he deserves an amends (like i'm worthy of making that decision) or if it's because i'm thinking of going back to work after being on disability for 4 years and that totally freaks me out cuz what if i can't handle it???? UGH - SIGH!!!! so much to process sometimes... i just get really overwhelmed and don't think straight... i've been processing it a lot with my sober friends and writing about it and praying but it's just not getting straight in my head yet - the depression is strong this time... i just have to hang in there.... anyway - it's great to have found this site and i plan on using it a LOT... nice to meet everyone!!!!

01-24-2010, 10:27 PM	#2 (permalink)
Impurrfect Social Network Moderator Join Date: Sep 2007 Location: Atlanta Posts: 10,884	Welcome to SR, and congrats on your clean time!! Depression can be pretty overwhelming at times. Do you have a sponsor? As far as going back to work, and wondering if you can handle it, when I get to thinking like that, I have to stop myself and focus on "right now" for a while. I know there are things in life we have to work toward, plan for, etc. but when they get to the point where I'm overwhelmed and can't function, well, I have to stop and get re-grounded. Hugs and prayers! Amy __________________ "I'm not where I want to be, but thank God I'm not where I used to be" - Joyce Meyer

01-26-2010, 05:43 PM	#3 (permalink)
*Anna* Administrator Join Date: Aug 2003 Location: Dancing in the Light Posts: 15,916	Hi and Welcome, I think you have a great place for support and I'm glad you're doing well. __________________ Anna And I dont know what the future is holding in store I dont know where Im going, Im not sure where I've been There's a spirit that guides me, a light that shines for me My life is worth the living, I dont need to see the end. John Denver

01-26-2010, 06:25 PM	#4 (permalink)
CarolD Forum Leader Join Date: Jun 2002 Location: Dallas, Ga. USA Posts: 24,080	Thanks for joining our recovery community Welcome..... Ask your sponsor if she thinks writing an amends letter to your ex would benefit you? Not necessarily to mail but it always makes me feel organized when I write. Well done on your clean and sober time.... __________________ Each Day Sober Is A Victory!! Joy In AA Recovery!

01-26-2010, 09:49 PM	#6 (permalink)
Evanna Member Join Date: May 2004 Location: Our house. Posts: 813	Welcome Juliet. __________________ I used to have a handle on life....but it broke off!

01-26-2010, 07:57 PM	#5 (permalink)
InternetJuliett Member Join Date: Jan 2010 Location: Redding Ca Posts: 6	thanks for all the welcomes and the feedback... i think this is going to be a good place for support!!! i met with my sponsor today and we talked about my praying for my ex over the next couple of weeks even though i don't want to and i'll do that even though i don't want to because i want to get past this... nice to meet all of you!!!

01-26-2010, 09:54 PM	#7 (permalink)
Alizerin Go ask the Multivax Join Date: Apr 2008 Location: Maryland Posts: 902 Blog Entries: 6	Welcome to the cookoo's nest. :-) __________________ "The likelihood of our world occurring by accident is the same likelihood of a Boeing 747 aircraft being completely assembled as a result of a tornado striking a junkyard." - Michio Kaku, physicist - 'Parallel worlds' (reinterpretion of Hoyle's concept).

01-26-2010, 10:00 PM	#8 (permalink)
barb dwyer same planet...different world Join Date: Sep 2006 Location: butte mt Posts: 9,143 Blog Entries: 7	hi and welcome! __________________ ~ Zero is never 'nothing'. It is instead the potentiality... of ALL things. ~

01-30-2010, 08:34 PM	#9 (permalink)
Tiredofdrugs Member Join Date: Jan 2010 Location: AR Posts: 121	Here's a Hey Ya'll back at ya from AR. Welcome to the site.

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