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[Tiredofdrugs]

Today is my 3rd day of clean time from Hydrocodone 10, AGAIN. Is anyone else out there with this time period from medication addiction to talk to? I've been thru this before on my on, cold turkey, several times. But it helps to talk to someone while I'm enduring the misery of it all. I might even be able to help someone else with their problem since I've done this before.

[Anna]

Hi and Welcome,

I am sorry you're going through this.

I went through alcohol withdrawl and it was pretty bad, and I don't ever want to do it again.

I hope you have talked to your dr, and please know there is always someone around here to talk to.

[Sugah]

Maybe the thing to focus on right now is getting help for yourself first -- so that you can stay clean and don't have to do this again.

I know what you're feeling. It's been awhile, but I can assure you, I have not forgotten. So I don't have to tell you it doesn't last forever and you're not dying, even if it might feel that way. Stay hydrated, take hot baths, Tylenol or Motrin and move around if you're up to it.

Mind sharing what you have done in the past to try to stay off once you're clean?

Peace & Love,
Sugah

[Tiredofdrugs]

As of Wednesday. I once again! am starting to go off the pain meds I've been on since this past June. I've been on Hydocodone 10 mil. I've been on and off these things so many times in the past two years it's scary. The next two weeks aren't going to be pleasant. I had been off of them for two years then injured my uterus and ovaries. So I was back on them for a year. I had my hysterectomy. Then I got off of them for three months. Then the pain clinic gave me a shot in my back on May 7, 2009. This started a whole new round of pain. Two days ago, I said I didn't like the person I've become on these things, AGAIN, and told my husband I was going off of them. My body just shuts down on strength. It's like being in slow motion mode for the first week. But I also have to endure the detox effect. Which really sucks!!!!

I have restless legs and the detoxing sets my legs into over drive. I do have a prescription I took the last time I went off these things that really works great for this problem. It's called Carbidopa 10/Levodopa 100MG. But of course my body is screaming for the pain meds and my mind is saying no. And I still have the back pain. I'm just hoping I can deal with the back pain w/o the pain meds. I use to take Replenex thru the Melaleuca Company. I've reorderd some to see if it will help with my back pain. I took it before for my knees. The other problem with going off the pain meds is my sniffer. I have a good since of smell and when I'm going off these pain meds my nose is like a blood hounds. I can't hardly stand the smell of anything because it's so strong. It does get back to normal, but it takes a while.

When I'm on these pain meds I become a person that just doesn't give a damn about anything. My house goes untouched. The bills sit unpaid until they threaten to shut them off. My chickens suffer more than they should. They get taken care of, but not like they do when I'm on these pills. I don't care to go anywhere or do anything, except sit around in a daze. I look around the house and yard and think to myself, I'm so tired of looking at this mess, but I have no desire to do anything about it. I have several friends that I'm no longer in contact with because of their drug use. I know what they are going thru and they have no desire to get off of the meds/drugs. I on the other hand, have a great relationship with my husband and I want the old relationship back. The pain meds make my body numb to everything. So of course any sexual desire is out the door. And my emotions are pretty much mute to boot.

I hate it every time I've had to go on and then have to come off this damn
poison. It's a victory in itself to get off these meds and to stay off them. My husband has been thru this with me before. He understands the agony I go thru, but knows the victory for the both of us at the end of it. I told him Tuesday he better get prepared to take over around here for a couple of weeks, because that's how long it will take me to get back to some normalcy.

I'll get thru this just like I have before. With each passing day, my energy will increase and I'll get back to getting things done around here. The worst of it is my mind gets clearer and I'm ready to jump into action but my body takes longer to catch up. This is a good time to do this. My husband is home 24/7 right now so he can take care of everything and give me the much needed time to heal w/o having to try and take care of the chickens while he's at work.

I'll be fifty years old 29 (28) Feb 2010. I've spent enough time on being on pain meds. I miss the happy carefree person I am when I'm not on these meds. So does my husband and I'm sure my family does too. Considering I have a very strong will power I'll get thru this. I've done it so many other times I know how to do it.

I'm so glad I found this site.

Pamela

[Sugah]

What I'm getting is that you're taking these drugs primarily for legitimate physical pain -- but sometimes take them longer than needed. When you stop, do you suffer cravings or obsession to go back to using, or is it physical issues that lead you back? Also, when you take them, are you taking more than prescribed (abuse)?

I ask because continued use from fear of detox may be the result of physical dependence, not addiction. We often use one term when we mean another. Although an addict may (or may not) become physically dependent, one who is physically dependent might not be an addict. If the drug-seeking thoughts and behavior go on after the physical dependence is broken -- because for most addicts, being clean is harder (psychologically) than using -- then you might require more than abstinence to find recovery. And willpower isn't very useful to most addicts, not in terms of staying away from the drug.

So...what's it like after the withdrawals are over for you? Do you continue to think about using?

Peace & Love,
Sugah

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