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09-03-2003, 04:02 PM
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| Paused Join Date: Aug 2002 Location: oregon
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|  Hi Ladies
I am really trying to smile about life today even knowing that my sons dad and i might not be able to have a relationship for right now, both of us being active in na in different states and having a child together is really no fun and be a hardship on us. we really try to be supportive of each other and in the month of august he was pretty much there for me the whole month even as i was writing my 4th step out and going thru some very weird moods swings and all. to me when a male and female talk nightly fall asleep on the phone have a child together and are making plans for one of us to move to another state i would call that A WE RELATIONSHIP no our phone bills arent too bad we have the same carrier so we talk as long as we want to unlimited calls for a flat rate thank god then about a week ago he and i are talking for hours again like 6 on the phone and he tells me humm i dont want to hurt u our nothing but we have been getting really close again and i just wanted to tell u that we are not a we i am here for my son ... lets just say i was totally crushed i cried my ass off ladies for days then my tears become anger .....and i did something i swear i wouldnt do to him ...i used our son over his head ..in the meantime that caused him to get a resentment towards me i had to work steps on it and make amends writen and verbal ones ...right now our son is in a special home and we are trying to get custody of him again he is autistic since june i have been running around on a broken ankle and just found out when i rebroke it on the 24th of last month ... and right now i am praying that my higher power speaks to his higher power on what the right thing is for him to do since we both have to be in court i sure hope he finds in his heart to be here for his son. no matter if he is angry or resentful at me i dont take his inventory he told me that he was so he needs to work on those himself im not sure why im posting this just cuz its hard to handle my sponsor had me write him an email its sitting in my to send emails i cant find it in my heart to send it to him yet. i know i can share here about anything cuz i have done it many times in the past yr i just had a few computer crashes and lost my way here but i am glad to have found my way back here again .... its a great day to be clean and living in the solution ...peace in recovery hugs mistee  |
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09-03-2003, 06:07 PM
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| Sharing Our Light  Join Date: Mar 2002 Location: By The Lake
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Mistee I am happy to hear from you and that you are doing okay. I'm sorry for the pain you are going through, but you seem to be well rooted in your recovery, and that will see you through. Hugs Ann
__________________ Somewhere between the gator swamp and the Taj Mahal there is a path, it may be hidden, overgrown or may blend in with the other surroundings, but it is there, it's your path and it is calling you.~Frankly~  |
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09-03-2003, 06:18 PM
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| Paused Join Date: Aug 2002 Location: oregon
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if i didnt have a solid recovery i wouldnt really know where i would be right now and i really try hard not to think of the what if's , im just glad i deal with things one day at a time and not worry about yesterday or tomorrows too much life is too short i need to be able to handle day stuff when it comes up.. i know my higher power has a plan here ... just dont know what yet.. all i can do is take care of things when they come live in the moment and work my own steps soon i am doing my 5th step then 6,7 8,9 but i still live and work all 12 in daily routine today and thats all i can doo hugs mistee |
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09-03-2003, 06:21 PM
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| Sharing Our Light Join Date: Mar 2002 Location: By The Lake
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Don't be a stranger, we love to hear from you. Hugs Ann
__________________ Somewhere between the gator swamp and the Taj Mahal there is a path, it may be hidden, overgrown or may blend in with the other surroundings, but it is there, it's your path and it is calling you.~Frankly~ |
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09-03-2003, 06:36 PM
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| Meow!  Join Date: Mar 2003 Location: Somewhere Over the Rainbow
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(((((((((((((((((mistee)))))))))))))))0 I'm saying prayers that you get your son back...you will won't you?? I know the feeling you felt when your husband said that to you! It's like a slap in the face, right?? I know, I've been trying to tear away from my BF, it's tough!! But I'm looking foward to meeting you & getting to know you! You are in my thoughts & prayers!!
__________________ "If a Child feels Safe, Wanted & Loved, You are a Successful Parent!"  ~~"A relationship is like sand in your hand. If held loosely in the palm of your hand it stays there, but as soon as you close your hand tightly it slips through your fingers!!~~  |
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09-03-2003, 07:29 PM
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| It is what it is!!!  Join Date: Feb 2002 Location: Sobriety
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mistee - I am sorry that you are going through this. But I am so happy that you have the tools of recovery to work through the pain. To read that you are working the steps around your pain is awesome, that is what we learn in NA. And taking life one day at a time and having faith that God has his plan and accepting it is a true gift. Keep coming back, we need you around here.
__________________  I know more about how to live than I did yesterday, but not as much as I'll know tomorrow. Today, Ill learn something new~JFT, 1/27/06 The difference between a good day and a bad day, is about 2 days~Ann of SR |
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09-03-2003, 08:36 PM
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| Member  Join Date: May 2003 Location: El Paso, Tx
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Hi mistee *hugs* I am sorry for your pain right now. It's a blessing that you have your program to fall back on. You bet you can come here and post away. We are here to lend you support and love the best we can. I pray you'll get your son back and give your s/o some time. I know you were crushed, oh I could feel the sting here. But I am a firm believer in if it's meant to be it's meant to be and if it's not God has another plan not yet revealed to you. |
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