So I am drunk - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

whatnow555 · 10-21-2008, 02:07 PM

So I posted for the first time this morning and I want to change yet I went and got booze on lunch and now I sit here drunk. I don't know what to do. My husband is still drunk at home and keeps texting me mean messages. I want to change I do... I think I am hitting rock bottom ladies. Seriously. I knew it was coming for a while but I am drunk at work and my husband is telling me not to come home (he is drunk and being horrible). What am I supposed to do?

ananda · 10-21-2008, 02:17 PM

When it was all falling apart around me, I called some women from AA and asked them to come take me to treatment...called the treatment center and got a bed.

I'm sorry things are so bad right now for you :ghug

***Freedom1990*** · 10-21-2008, 02:18 PM

First thing I had to do was put the bottle down. Second thing I did was went to inpatient rehab, 30 days. Third thing I did upon release was attend AA on a regular basis and work the program like my life depended on it because it did.

***Anna*** · 10-21-2008, 02:25 PM

So, you can do it!

Dump out the booze and don't buy anymore.

Have you talked to your dr?

beingjenagain · 10-21-2008, 02:40 PM

Do you have any knowledge of AA? The first step is admitting that you are powerless over alcohol and that your life is unmanagable. Is it?

whatnow555 · 10-21-2008, 03:09 PM

Thanks for the comments. I just had my mother in low call and yell at me because of her son. Tonight will be hell and I feel like my only friend is the bottle. I want to run away but I can't. I am sitting here in toture. Thanks for your support... tomorrow is a new day!!! Hopoefully it;s the one I have the strength to make the change!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TTOSBT · 10-21-2008, 03:11 PM

If you don't mind me suggesting, I would say call AA and ask where there is a meeting you can go to tonight. If you go home to a drunk, angry husband, you will get caught up in the insanity and alcohol will be the answer once again. Can you get to a meeting tonight?
May I ask if the 5 kids live with you two?

Paulie · 10-21-2008, 06:17 PM

Put down the bottle, you can not make any clear decisions while drinking.

indigo · 10-22-2008, 07:31 AM

All the above!!!

mle-sober · 10-22-2008, 10:48 AM

Yes! Like Indigo said. All of the above.

Step off the path of destruction and mayhem. Stop drinking and find an AA meeting. Stop interacting with your husband while you are both drunk. That leads only to more destruction.

And, I'm worried for your children.

kj3880 · 10-22-2008, 01:51 PM

It doesn't sound like you have a environment that is supportive to any sort of recovery at this point. Are there any changes you can make to try to stay somewhere safe for you?
KJ

veruca211 · 10-22-2008, 02:30 PM

You never have to live the same day twice! It may be such a crappy day right now, but it is a matter of hours until it is over and you have the ability to start fresh tomorrow and make it a good day! stop drinking for today, find a safe place/friend you can turn to, and just know you have the ability to turn things around and start with a clean slate tomorrow.

Paulie · 10-22-2008, 02:50 PM

Quote:

You never have to live the same day twice!

So simple, yet so profound!

rbyslpr · 10-23-2008, 11:30 AM

Hi I am new to this site but, I have been sober since 1992. I am sitting at home alone today with sinusis infection. That makes me feel half nuts. I don't know why it does that but, it does. I am glad I found this site. I don't feel like even getting out of my pajamas.

In the first step it talks about us becoming powerless over alcohol; and our lives became unmanagable- The unmanagable part is what got me. I just couldn't take it- I had to actually get mad at the alcohol for traping me. As, you say 555, in the office with H calling in- afraid to do anything because you have been drinking. That kind of thing just makes me mad. So, freedom came in the form of step 3. Thanks for being here and letting me share.

***nandm*** · 10-23-2008, 12:22 PM

Welcome to SR and our womens forum, rbyslpr!

**CarolD** · 10-23-2008, 01:49 PM

rbyslpr...

Welcome!

**CarolD** · 10-23-2008, 02:01 PM

whatnow555....

Blessings to you and your family

10-21-2008, 02:07 PM	#1 (permalink)
whatnow555 Member Join Date: Oct 2008 Location: CO Posts: 5	So I am drunk So I posted for the first time this morning and I want to change yet I went and got booze on lunch and now I sit here drunk. I don't know what to do. My husband is still drunk at home and keeps texting me mean messages. I want to change I do... I think I am hitting rock bottom ladies. Seriously. I knew it was coming for a while but I am drunk at work and my husband is telling me not to come home (he is drunk and being horrible). What am I supposed to do?

10-21-2008, 02:18 PM	#3 (permalink)
*Freedom1990* Wesley Employee Extraordinaire Join Date: Feb 2008 Location: Kansas Posts: 9,346	First thing I had to do was put the bottle down. Second thing I did was went to inpatient rehab, 30 days. Third thing I did upon release was attend AA on a regular basis and work the program like my life depended on it because it did. __________________ DeVon & the Zoo Crew ‎An error doesn't become a mistake until you refuse to correct it. --Orlando A. Battista

10-21-2008, 02:25 PM	#4 (permalink)
*Anna* Administrator Join Date: Aug 2003 Location: Dancing in the Light Posts: 22,810	So, you can do it! Dump out the booze and don't buy anymore. Have you talked to your dr? __________________ And I dont know what the future is holding in store I dont know where Im going, Im not sure where I've been There's a spirit that guides me, a light that shines for me My life is worth the living, I dont need to see the end. John Denver

10-21-2008, 02:40 PM	#5 (permalink)
beingjenagain ever closer... Join Date: Apr 2008 Location: Greensboro, NC Posts: 362	Do you have any knowledge of AA? The first step is admitting that you are powerless over alcohol and that your life is unmanagable. Is it? __________________ BeingJenAgain

10-21-2008, 06:17 PM	#8 (permalink)
Paulie It is what it is!!! Join Date: Feb 2002 Location: Sobriety Posts: 5,785	Put down the bottle, you can not make any clear decisions while drinking. __________________ I know more about how to live than I did yesterday, but not as much as I'll know tomorrow. Today, Ill learn something new~JFT, 1/27/06 The difference between a good day and a bad day, is about 2 days~Ann of SR

10-21-2008, 02:17 PM	#2 (permalink)
ananda Member Join Date: Nov 2007 Posts: 11,908 Blog Entries: 1	When it was all falling apart around me, I called some women from AA and asked them to come take me to treatment...called the treatment center and got a bed. I'm sorry things are so bad right now for you :ghug

10-21-2008, 03:09 PM	#6 (permalink)
whatnow555 Member Join Date: Oct 2008 Location: CO Posts: 5	Thanks for the comments. I just had my mother in low call and yell at me because of her son. Tonight will be hell and I feel like my only friend is the bottle. I want to run away but I can't. I am sitting here in toture. Thanks for your support... tomorrow is a new day!!! Hopoefully it;s the one I have the strength to make the change!!!!!!!!!!!!!

10-21-2008, 03:11 PM	#7 (permalink)
TTOSBT To Thine Own Self Be True Join Date: Jun 2008 Location: So Cal Posts: 1,948	If you don't mind me suggesting, I would say call AA and ask where there is a meeting you can go to tonight. If you go home to a drunk, angry husband, you will get caught up in the insanity and alcohol will be the answer once again. Can you get to a meeting tonight? May I ask if the 5 kids live with you two?

10-22-2008, 07:31 AM	#9 (permalink)
indigo Community Greeter Join Date: Nov 2003 Location: Mid-Life Express Posts: 9,928	All the above!!! __________________ When you judge others, you do not define them, you define yourself." Namasté

10-22-2008, 10:48 AM	#10 (permalink)
mle-sober mle-sober Join Date: Feb 2008 Location: Golden, CO Posts: 1,243	Yes! Like Indigo said. All of the above. Step off the path of destruction and mayhem. Stop drinking and find an AA meeting. Stop interacting with your husband while you are both drunk. That leads only to more destruction. And, I'm worried for your children.

10-22-2008, 01:51 PM	#11 (permalink)
kj3880 Member Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: md Posts: 3,002	It doesn't sound like you have a environment that is supportive to any sort of recovery at this point. Are there any changes you can make to try to stay somewhere safe for you? KJ

10-22-2008, 02:30 PM	#12 (permalink)
veruca211 Member Join Date: Oct 2008 Location: san diego, california Posts: 29	You never have to live the same day twice! It may be such a crappy day right now, but it is a matter of hours until it is over and you have the ability to start fresh tomorrow and make it a good day! stop drinking for today, find a safe place/friend you can turn to, and just know you have the ability to turn things around and start with a clean slate tomorrow.

10-23-2008, 11:30 AM	#14 (permalink)
rbyslpr Member Join Date: Oct 2008 Posts: 2	Hi I am new to this site but, I have been sober since 1992. I am sitting at home alone today with sinusis infection. That makes me feel half nuts. I don't know why it does that but, it does. I am glad I found this site. I don't feel like even getting out of my pajamas. In the first step it talks about us becoming powerless over alcohol; and our lives became unmanagable- The unmanagable part is what got me. I just couldn't take it- I had to actually get mad at the alcohol for traping me. As, you say 555, in the office with H calling in- afraid to do anything because you have been drinking. That kind of thing just makes me mad. So, freedom came in the form of step 3. Thanks for being here and letting me share.

10-23-2008, 12:22 PM	#15 (permalink)
*nandm* Life the gift of recovery! Join Date: Aug 2007 Location: Home is where the heart is Posts: 6,580	Welcome to SR and our womens forum, rbyslpr! __________________ NOTE: All BB quotes are from the 1st Edition of the Big Book Depression is not a sign of weakness. It is a sign of being too strong for too long.

10-23-2008, 01:49 PM	#16 (permalink)
CarolD Forum Leader Join Date: Jun 2002 Location: Serene In Dixie Posts: 34,835	rbyslpr... Welcome! __________________ Each Day Sober Is A Victory!! Joy In AA Recovery!

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10-23-2008, 02:01 PM	#17 (permalink)
CarolD Forum Leader Join Date: Jun 2002 Location: Serene In Dixie Posts: 34,835	whatnow555.... Blessings to you and your family __________________ Each Day Sober Is A Victory!! Joy In AA Recovery!

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