codine withdraw kicking my ass.

[jandy3]

don't know if ya'll remember me or not, but I am here and working hard toward weening off these stupid stupid pills. I wish I never would have started. I go from blaming me for being so stupid to blaming the F'n Dr that prescribed them to me in the 1st place..

I am on day 2 of cutting out 10% of my dose which was 30 mg a day but I was taking more like 50 - 60 mg a day. I was at a point that 30 mg did nothing anymore and then pretty soon neither did 60 mg. I just wanted to forget about the past and forget all the hurt caused by having to deal with A's my entire life.

**At 1st I was the fixer, enabling all the addicts to do their DOC, just making sure they where happy, and then I took my 1st Lortab and flew.
I could be the single mother, work a full time job, have a clean house and finish school...

Anyhow,

now I am the addict, and I am trying to get clean

I am sick with stomach pain and so so blue, crying and having insane thoughts...

I have panic attacks even thinking about being clean, no more happy pills.. no more numbing... scares the crap out of me.

[Sugah]

I don't have much experience with codeine, but I do have plenty of experience with opiates in general. If I take your post to mean you're trying to wean yourself down - this is just my experience - I found it much quicker to go cold turkey. Instead of making yourself miserable over the course of weeks or months, you can be through the worst of the physical withdrawal in about a week.

Keep posting. I'm sure someone else will be along soon.

Peace & Love,
Sugah

[51anna]

Hi Jandy,

I am glad that you're here and that you're seeking help.

It's really hard to accept living life with the cusion of alcohol or drugs. But, it's something that you can do and you will find it so worthwhile.

[mle-sober]

I completely understand the fear of having to face the world -- having to actually be present and accounted for -- without some sort of filter, whether its pills or alcohol.

I call it "being in my body." Cutting out the candy is really, really hard.

Keep up the good work because it truly is worth it on the other side. I feel like I've woken up from a terrible dream.

Hope your detoxing with medical advice/help. That sounds like a lot of codein.

[jandy3]

Thank you all.

Day 3... woke up with a horrible headache, and tummy ache, considered laying in bed and not going to work, but talked myself out of it. I am up and functioning, at a very low level but at least I pulled myself out of bed...


praying for this to get better,.

[indigo]

Welcome it does get better and I hope it better soon for you.

[bostonluv]

Hi Jandy - I just wanted to say welcome and that I hope they physical side effects have lessened a bit. Kudos for going to work and getting through the pain. It's better than mentally battling it out on the couch and watching the time slowly tick by. Hope you keep posting for support.

[mle-sober]

Jandy, How are you doing today?

[jandy3]

I'm okay thanks for asking. Still dont feel 100% and prop. wont for awhile.. bbl

[mle-sober]

I know. Hang in there.... It will get better.

[getr345]

It's right there in our hands to stop, if we choose it.

The pain will not last forever. A brighter day will surely come.