Just wanted to introduce myself - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

notdrunk · 08-09-2008, 02:48 PM

I havent had a drink since Monday Morning probably about 3 in the morning. I drink until I blackout and then I do really stupid, totally insane things. I really went the farthest I have ever gone last time I drank. I am finding it hard to fill the time. I have not tried AA Im just not sure I can do that. I have tried it before. I dont know. Im kind of going through mood swings too. One minute Im a bitch the next minut Im crying. I think its more stress and anxiety over what I have done drinking and normally I would just drink and that problem would go away and didnt seem as bad as it did. I usually drank one nite then of course I was too hung over Id take the next nite off then back to it. Sometimes I'd skip 2 nites. Anyways I just thought Id say hello.

lizw · 08-09-2008, 02:59 PM

Welcome to SR.
I look forward to reading more of your posts.
Take it easy.

:ghug2

JigOvLife · 08-09-2008, 03:44 PM

Hello and welcome, excellent work with your 4 days sobriety.
I identify with what you say so much. The Mood Swings are not the best ride in the early sobriety playground.
It does get easier,the emotional rollercoaster is something most recovering folk go through.
Exercise helps brilliantly.Getting those endorphins flowing can be an excellent substitute for the (increasingly rare) euphoric effects of drink.
Good food too. There's a lot of talk about B vitamin complex, I scoff loads of Marmite, a sludgey yeast extract which I think is peculiarly English, these can aid restoring the brain's chemical balance after alcohol depletion.

***Anna*** · 08-09-2008, 03:59 PM

Hi and Welcome,

I think it's 'normal' to be very emotional in early sobriety. And, I know how hard it is to face all the messes. But, you can do it. This is a great place to visit and I hope you keep posting.

notdrunk · 08-09-2008, 04:27 PM

excellent work with your 4 days sobriety
Here I was thinking I was on day 6! I guesse after 3 tomorrow morning it will be six days. LOL - it seems alot longer then 4 days

Lily · 08-09-2008, 04:28 PM

Welcome and congrats on your not drinking! I look forward to more of your posts. Stick around and you will gain a lot of insight on here. And yes, today is day 5 for you and tomorrow morning (early) will be day 6!! way to go!

blessings, Sheila

notdrunk · 08-09-2008, 04:34 PM

Thank you all for the welcome. I do plan on sticking around I really do understand that phrase one day at a time now because I have to focus on today. Im already worried about my vacation and that is 2 weeks away.

deezaldog · 08-09-2008, 06:13 PM

Welcome! I have been where you are, AA is the basis of my recovery. There are women only meetings that are amazing with support and advice. Only you can stop the cycle.
Hope you find the strength to get to an AA mtg. If not, keep posting here, the people on this site have a lot of knowledge and advice. Keep posting. Hope to hear from you again-soon. LOL

bostonluv · 08-09-2008, 06:24 PM

Just wanted to say Hi and welcome!

spudida · 08-09-2008, 06:44 PM

Notdrunk. I'm new also. Hi there.

CarolD · 08-09-2008, 06:50 PM

spudida....

Welcome to our recovery community!

Bluberry · 08-09-2008, 07:26 PM

Yes, welcome both spudida and NotDrunk. I'm not quite new, but I just started posting again after 2 years of not posting.

NotDrunk-
Girly, I hear ya on trying to fill the time. I MUST keep busy doing something. I think I may have been in my final stage of alcoholism...? I was trying to kill myself alot... (and I'd do real risky things like hanging off the side of buildings, like 2 or 3 stories up, hitchhiking, etc.) I'd black out a lot too. And if possible, I'd drink from the momment I woke up until the momment I passed out. I'm not sure what qualifies a person to be in their final stage but either way, I don't have a chance if I go back. The last time I drank wasn't the worst, but I did hit rock bottom, again. I ended up in a jail cell, then the hospital and finally the psych ward, and having to get STD tests done because... well, you can guess. I'm pretty ashamed of myself.

But my point was is that drinking was my life. I guess not just cuz I was an alcoholic but I am also a recovering drug addict too. So I must keep busy, or atleast my mind occupied.

AA and NA meetings - sigh. I'll admit. If I had things my way, I wouldn't have to go. But the fact is, I NEED to go. Like I said in a previous post, I'm currently unable to until I replace my driver's ID, but when I am able, I'm making myself go back to meetings. I just know that for MY recovery it is a necessity.

Which brings me to my final point. This site has not only kept me busy when I'm not, but it has for the time being, fullfilled my need to go to meetings, while I haven't been able to. So, coming from a fellow recently, sober person (today is day 11 I think), please keep coming back!

Best wishes!

hope3 · 08-09-2008, 08:42 PM

Welcome to the Sr womens forum...

It gets easier with time...

Hope3

notdrunk · 08-09-2008, 09:07 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by deezaldog

Welcome! I have been where you are, AA is the basis of my recovery. There are women only meetings that are amazing with support and advice. Only you can stop the cycle.
Hope you find the strength to get to an AA mtg. If not, keep posting here, the people on this site have a lot of knowledge and advice. Keep posting. Hope to hear from you again-soon. LOL

I found the courage I went to an AA meeting tonite. I was scared and it was packed in there but there was this one chair right in a perfect place it was like it was meant to be I heard some really good stuff and I am not drinking tonite.

notdrunk · 08-09-2008, 09:14 PM

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Originally Posted by Bluberry

Yes, welcome both spudida and NotDrunk. I'm not quite new, but I just started posting again after 2 years of not posting.

NotDrunk-
Girly, I hear ya on trying to fill the time. I MUST keep busy doing something. I think I may have been in my final stage of alcoholism...? I was trying to kill myself alot... (and I'd do real risky things like hanging off the side of buildings, like 2 or 3 stories up, hitchhiking, etc.) I'd black out a lot too. And if possible, I'd drink from the momment I woke up until the momment I passed out. I'm not sure what qualifies a person to be in their final stage but either way, I don't have a chance if I go back. The last time I drank wasn't the worst, but I did hit rock bottom, again. I ended up in a jail cell, then the hospital and finally the psych ward, and having to get STD tests done because... well, you can guess. I'm pretty ashamed of myself.

But my point was is that drinking was my life. I guess not just cuz I was an alcoholic but I am also a recovering drug addict too. So I must keep busy, or atleast my mind occupied.

AA and NA meetings - sigh. I'll admit. If I had things my way, I wouldn't have to go. But the fact is, I NEED to go. Like I said in a previous post, I'm currently unable to until I replace my driver's ID, but when I am able, I'm making myself go back to meetings. I just know that for MY recovery it is a necessity.

Which brings me to my final point. This site has not only kept me busy when I'm not, but it has for the time being, fullfilled my need to go to meetings, while I haven't been able to. So, coming from a fellow recently, sober person (today is day 11 I think), please keep coming back!

Best wishes!

Thank you so much for sharing so much. I went to an AA meeting tonite and it took all the courage I had. I was so scared they were going to ask me to talk but thank God they didnt. For the first time since Monday morning I am not beating myself about what I did and I just had 2 pieces of pizza which is good cause I wasnt eating I was running on nerves and caffeine. Good Luck we can do this

notdrunk · 08-09-2008, 09:15 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by spudida

Notdrunk. I'm new also. Hi there.

Im glad you posted. Hi there!

08-09-2008, 02:48 PM	#1 (permalink)
notdrunk Member Join Date: Aug 2008 Location: Vancouver, BC Posts: 23	Just wanted to introduce myself I havent had a drink since Monday Morning probably about 3 in the morning. I drink until I blackout and then I do really stupid, totally insane things. I really went the farthest I have ever gone last time I drank. I am finding it hard to fill the time. I have not tried AA Im just not sure I can do that. I have tried it before. I dont know. Im kind of going through mood swings too. One minute Im a bitch the next minut Im crying. I think its more stress and anxiety over what I have done drinking and normally I would just drink and that problem would go away and didnt seem as bad as it did. I usually drank one nite then of course I was too hung over Id take the next nite off then back to it. Sometimes I'd skip 2 nites. Anyways I just thought Id say hello.

08-09-2008, 02:59 PM	#2 (permalink)
lizw God's Kid Join Date: Jun 2008 Location: New Zealand Posts: 1,565	Welcome to SR. I look forward to reading more of your posts. Take it easy. :ghug2 __________________ ....blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called the children of God.

08-09-2008, 03:59 PM	#4 (permalink)
*Anna* Administrator Join Date: Aug 2003 Location: Dancing in the Light Posts: 27,813	Hi and Welcome, I think it's 'normal' to be very emotional in early sobriety. And, I know how hard it is to face all the messes. But, you can do it. This is a great place to visit and I hope you keep posting. __________________ Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. Marianne Willianson

08-09-2008, 06:24 PM	#9 (permalink)
bostonluv Member Join Date: Aug 2007 Location: Northern CA Posts: 1,724	Just wanted to say Hi and welcome! __________________ Courage is what it takes to stand up and speak; courage is also what it takes to sit down and listen. Winston Churchill

08-09-2008, 06:50 PM	#11 (permalink)
CarolD Forward we go...side by side Join Date: Jun 2002 Location: Serene In Dixie Posts: 37,601	spudida.... Welcome to our recovery community! __________________ Each Day Sober Is A Victory!! Joy In AA Recovery!

08-09-2008, 03:44 PM	#3 (permalink)
JigOvLife Perfectly Flawed Join Date: Jul 2008 Location: Republic of Yorkshire Posts: 481 Blog Entries: 1	Hello and welcome, excellent work with your 4 days sobriety. I identify with what you say so much. The Mood Swings are not the best ride in the early sobriety playground. It does get easier,the emotional rollercoaster is something most recovering folk go through. Exercise helps brilliantly.Getting those endorphins flowing can be an excellent substitute for the (increasingly rare) euphoric effects of drink. Good food too. There's a lot of talk about B vitamin complex, I scoff loads of Marmite, a sludgey yeast extract which I think is peculiarly English, these can aid restoring the brain's chemical balance after alcohol depletion.

08-09-2008, 04:27 PM	#5 (permalink)
notdrunk Member Join Date: Aug 2008 Location: Vancouver, BC Posts: 23	excellent work with your 4 days sobriety Here I was thinking I was on day 6! I guesse after 3 tomorrow morning it will be six days. LOL - it seems alot longer then 4 days

08-09-2008, 04:28 PM	#6 (permalink)
Lily Grateful Join Date: Oct 2007 Location: Midwest Posts: 2,504 Blog Entries: 11	Welcome and congrats on your not drinking! I look forward to more of your posts. Stick around and you will gain a lot of insight on here. And yes, today is day 5 for you and tomorrow morning (early) will be day 6!! way to go! blessings, Sheila

08-09-2008, 04:34 PM	#7 (permalink)
notdrunk Member Join Date: Aug 2008 Location: Vancouver, BC Posts: 23	Thank you all for the welcome. I do plan on sticking around I really do understand that phrase one day at a time now because I have to focus on today. Im already worried about my vacation and that is 2 weeks away.

08-09-2008, 06:13 PM	#8 (permalink)
deezaldog Member Join Date: Jun 2008 Location: Fort Wayne IN Posts: 284	Welcome! I have been where you are, AA is the basis of my recovery. There are women only meetings that are amazing with support and advice. Only you can stop the cycle. Hope you find the strength to get to an AA mtg. If not, keep posting here, the people on this site have a lot of knowledge and advice. Keep posting. Hope to hear from you again-soon. LOL

08-09-2008, 06:44 PM	#10 (permalink)
spudida Member Join Date: Aug 2008 Posts: 135	Notdrunk. I'm new also. Hi there.

08-09-2008, 07:26 PM	#12 (permalink)
Bluberry Member Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: Troy, IL Posts: 28	Yes, welcome both spudida and NotDrunk. I'm not quite new, but I just started posting again after 2 years of not posting. NotDrunk- Girly, I hear ya on trying to fill the time. I MUST keep busy doing something. I think I may have been in my final stage of alcoholism...? I was trying to kill myself alot... (and I'd do real risky things like hanging off the side of buildings, like 2 or 3 stories up, hitchhiking, etc.) I'd black out a lot too. And if possible, I'd drink from the momment I woke up until the momment I passed out. I'm not sure what qualifies a person to be in their final stage but either way, I don't have a chance if I go back. The last time I drank wasn't the worst, but I did hit rock bottom, again. I ended up in a jail cell, then the hospital and finally the psych ward, and having to get STD tests done because... well, you can guess. I'm pretty ashamed of myself. But my point was is that drinking was my life. I guess not just cuz I was an alcoholic but I am also a recovering drug addict too. So I must keep busy, or atleast my mind occupied. AA and NA meetings - sigh. I'll admit. If I had things my way, I wouldn't have to go. But the fact is, I NEED to go. Like I said in a previous post, I'm currently unable to until I replace my driver's ID, but when I am able, I'm making myself go back to meetings. I just know that for MY recovery it is a necessity. Which brings me to my final point. This site has not only kept me busy when I'm not, but it has for the time being, fullfilled my need to go to meetings, while I haven't been able to. So, coming from a fellow recently, sober person (today is day 11 I think), please keep coming back! Best wishes!

08-09-2008, 08:42 PM	#13 (permalink)
hope3 Hope3 Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: Upstate, NY Posts: 2,150	Welcome to the Sr womens forum... It gets easier with time... Hope3 __________________ If I focus on the solutions, the problems won't seem impossible!

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