Tears from heaven

[Butterflywoman]

As you know my partner Sandra committed suicide 5 months ago. Call it wishful thinking, but I believe a friend of mine had a dream meant for me. It was Sandra apologizing for killing herself. This is the dream as described by my friend AnnMarie.

I was notified that Sandra had passed away. I arrived at the hospital and was in the room where Sandra lay. She was in a regular hospital bed but was covered with a blanket from head to foot. And at the foot of her bed there were cords that were connected to the bed. With me was a nurse and a doctor. The doctor and nurse then started to plug up the cords that were on the bed and told me as they did this that Sandra might move. As they hooked up the last cord the doctor removed the blanket from Sandra’s face to her waist and I saw her hand move. Then almost instantly I saw her eyes open and start looking around the room. She then saw me and focused in on me and said, “I love you so much.” I responded back to her and said, “I love you too Sandra.” I then went to her bedside and lay my head on her chest, and she said to me “I’m so sorry for the last time we were together.” In the dream I new exactly what she was referring to in my heart and mind and I responded, “Its okay, don’t worry about it.”I then stepped away from her and she had a tear in her eye. Then I awoke.

[51anna]

Butterflywoman,

Sandra would want you to be at peace.

[Butterflywoman]

Thanks Anna! I will try but I am not there yet.

[Butterflywoman]

[lightseeker]

Grief is a process that is organic....I am sorry for your loss and especially for the way that it occurred. To me, dreams are an important way that we communicate - with ourselves and with others. I also believe that the veil between this world and the next is thinner than any of us realize. Ultimately, I believe that we return to our source and that there ultimately is simply love. I, too, believe that Sandra's spirit wishes you peace and comfort.

I can't imagine how you are feeling and what you are going through. I do know that a dream like your friend had would bring me a lot of comfort.

Hugs

[BUTTERFLY-7]

I agree with lightseeker Dreams are our Window to the
Invisible world of the own- known.

My Aunt had pass away now, is way Different then the
connection you had with Sandra, Oh about that name just
the other Days I told my father why the he name me
the name that I got, he reply cause your great grandma
name was Lisa may she rest in peace, so I told him
why didn't you name me Elizabeth, or Lisa Marie
but why the name he gave me, I Don't like it

he then reveal to me that his mother, my Grandma
may she rest in peace, was going to put me Sandra
what a coincidence, huh...

any way my aunt and I was
never close she was the one that trough me out
of the house at the age of 14, she was down right
evil, I blame her for many years for my pain
I wasn't giving no choice unto man I was thrown
out in to the jungle,

in 2004 they diagnose her with a rare disease
that one in a million get it, it was call after a famous
Baseball player is call, the Lou Garret Disease
she still was the same down mean, nasty rude it, evil person
not even that gave her a change of heart,

well around the
ending of last year she was trying to keep in touch with us
do to my father living with us, she will call to talk to him
fine I allow it, she was trying to reach to me but I guess her been
the way she was, she couldn't let her pride down, or admit her
errors, I'm no one to judge either, she told me to pick up my youngest
brother pictures of when he was small, I guess she felt it
in her spirit that she was going soon, I was more stubborn,
and prideful,I guess, or either was my pain that didn't let me
forgive her, she pass through new years until we Got the call
that will change our life's 4'r ever she was in her last days
I still didn't go I tough she will make itwas I wrong

I regret every day of my existing life not Forgiving her in time
wild she was alive cause no matter how bad the person was with you everybody deserves 4'rgiveness please don't judge me

then it was wed my cousin calls and tells me to come
that the doc are saying she is in her mourning stages
and to come and pay our respect, that she wasn't going to make it
I when I met up with my dad and we got there it was too
late she was already gone, But here comes the outer body experience I had and thats why!!!!!I say I agree withlightseeker

when I got closer to her bed she was cold, and pale, and
very stiff, and I felt something brake inside of me then
I star it to feel all these feelings, that allow me to get to
that place of forgiveness, and I star it to cry and put
my head on top of her chest, and this is were I had the outer body
experience, I close my eyes and I finally could feel her
like she was out of her body she was pronounce dead
but I felt her in the room on top of the ceiling of the room, floating
with Angels surrounding her, and when I told her to forgive me
that I Love her, I felt like something may me hold
and free, Forgiveness is Deep, but more Deep,
was experiencing her Spirit still in the room, is like I was the
only one that could sense, and see, feel this energy and this
Invisible phenomena

[chiynita]

I agree with Lightseeker..
I firmly believe dreams are a window.
A place to release from our consciousness.
A place where sprits that have passed can communicate with us without the restraints that the conscious mind holds.
And in this belief.
I can only see a peaceful soul returning to comfort another.
To make amends. So to say. To let you know. She is Ok now.
And that you will be too.
Grief is such a hard thing to go through.
But it is healthy to work through it.
And most definately takes time.
Just find comfort in knowing.
That she came and touched your heart.
In this lifetime and the next.
We are only bound by our bodies.
Thinking of you.

[lizw]

That's lovely, the dream. It's always tough loosing someone aye?

Dunno if anyone else noticed this but the next post down is also by yourself (Butterfly Woman) and it is called 'pity party', and I have to say you should really give yourself a break. It sounds like you've had heaps of stuff going on recently and are being very hard on yourself, way to hard on yourself if you ask me.

Hope you're taking care.

[butterfly19]

butterflywoman,

What an incredible dream to let you know that all is well with Sandra. I, too, believe in what messages dreams bring to us! May you be comforted by this event. It may very well be Sandra's way of telling you that it is okay, she is at peace, and she wants you to feel at peace as well!

Hoping you find peace and love!

Love,

butterfly19

[lovingseren]

Anna is so right.

Sandra would want you to be at peace.

hugs to you

Seren