Home for the Holidays

[Butterflywoman]

I am isolating. I know this is not good but I call it licking my wounds. I am like an old dog that way. I am dieting now so I can order some barbecue from a restaurant near by. That is not to say I can't go out to an AA meeting. That might be possible. But my family has not gotten together since my mom died. Very dysfunctional family full of depressed people just like my parents were.

What is everyone else doing for the Fourth of July?

[51anna]

Hi Butterflywoman,

Umm, BBQ sounds good!

I'm in Canada, so today and this past weekend is our holiday.

Yesterday, I took a ferry to one of the islands just offshore and had a wonderful time. It's only a short ferry ride, but it's like another world, so far away from the hustle and bustle. I also ate a lot of ice cream these past few days!

[lizw]

As I am in NZ, we don't celebrate the 4th of July.
School holidays of 2 weeks start in 2 days time though.

[Sugah]

How long have you been in AA, Butterflywoman? I'll bet you have a pretty extensive phone list. Why not start making calls and finding out what others in your area are doing for the 4th? I'd be willing to bet that you won't get very far down your list before someone invites you to a bbq or suggest some other sober activity.

One of our regular Friday evening meetings is being moved to a members house, and I'm taking my kids for food & fellowship there.

Peace & Love,
Sugah

[Butterflywoman]

I know it would be good for me to get out because I have been isolating for weeks. Maybe I will make myself go to an AA meeting. The AA fellowship is right next door. My apartment is my comfort zone and my bed is my haven. I know I need to get out. Everybody has told me this. I'll try.

[BUTTERFLY-7]

Good 4'r you ButterflyWoman,

as for me I don't know yet?My husband walk out on us
so, Hurray!!!!! Yes I'm Darm Happy, I never been this happy
since I turn 18 he!!!he, I feel so relief I tough I would cry,
and stuff my face with Ice cream, but Nop that this Warrior.
I'm also Dieting ButterflyWoman, so I could stuff my face

ain't got no were to Go, but I'm planing to go to the Beach
with my son Adam,I just pray my husband Doesn't decide
to move back in, hi still got all his close here but he walk out
on us for the 3,0000000million, and zillions of time,
I'm trough I had allot to think about, and I made up my mind
I want Freeeeeeeeedom!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Butterfly's are meant to Fly Free in to the Open so ......

[cscs]

Butterflywoman. I get that way too - don't want to talk on the phone, go out of my house, or see anyone. I don't know where you live, but one thing that works for me is taking a walk. Just getting moving and fresh air in the lungs and sun on my face. When I am not ready to deal with people, it just helps to get out of the house, as long as all the people I pass are strangers . I don't go to AA, so I don't know how it works, but sounds like that might be a good idea too.

This is only day 4 for me, and my first weekend sober. I have family coming into town and a few minutes ago had the usual thought "call husband to come home early from work so we can get the party started". Will be a tough habit to break, but I am determined.

I also plan to keep checking in and reading posts over the weekend to help with this first major challenge.

Hang in there. The first step out the door is always the hardest for me when I am isolating. But after that, I always feel much better. Good luck!

[Digginit]

Sounds like you're having a really tough time lately. I completely understand isolating--I'm happiest that way, though I know it's not good. But there's that every day isolating just because you like being alone, and there's that can't-get-out-of-bed, no-energy, just-don't-care-no-matter-how-hard-you-want-to isolating. That's when I feel like I gotta grab onto my bootstraps and give myself a HUGE tug up (even then it's hard for me to reach out to friends). It gets a little worrisome, and when I hear other folks sounding like me at those times, well, I worry for them too. You doin' any better? How are ya' today?

~dig