It's not supposed to be like this! - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

RayRayRay · 06-21-2008, 02:02 PM

I want to drink so badly that I don't trust myself to go out of the house. I have no groceries, but because I live in a small town and the liquor store is inside the only grocery store I can get to, I won't go buy food. Today, I'm hungry and craving - BAD COMBINATION.
I'm far enough into recovery that I shouldn't be feeling like this. This is almost as bad as the withdrawal I fought way back when.....
I'm keeping busy. I'm trying to use the tools. But, my work has been very hard (a few nights this week I've left in tears), my relationship is sinking, my elderly cat is sick and will likely die in the next couple of weeks...I just want to drink it all away.
I'm not looking for advice. But if you'd like to send me food, that would be much appreciated

suki44883 · 06-21-2008, 02:08 PM

Aww, rae. (((HUGS))) I'm so sorry you're feeling like this. Do you have any places that deliver food? Pizza or anything at all? Any fast food places you could go to that aren't near the alcohol store? Prayers and strength going out to you, sweetie! :praying

***Anna*** · 06-21-2008, 02:40 PM

Oh Ray, I'm sorry.

But, I don't think you should go without food. Is there someone who can go to the grocery store for you or with you? There were times when I used to close my eyes going by the wine aisle in the supermarket, but I wouldn't go without food.

I hope you feel better.

RayRayRay · 06-21-2008, 02:59 PM

You're right Anna - I can't go without food. That'll only make things worse.
Suki, what a good idea! I will order in! There's only a pizza place that'll deliver this far out in the sticks, and it'll cost me. But why shouldn't I treat myself on a saturday night after the week I've had.
I'm going to eat and there's NO way I'll get sidetracked! I feel better already!

Lily · 06-21-2008, 04:54 PM

Rayrayray,

I am glad that solved it for ya! Perhaps next time you could let us know you have to go to the store, then you can tell us when you get back w/out any alcohol. Or even have someone go with you?

Stay clean and sober, just for today!

Sheila

butterfly19 · 06-21-2008, 06:18 PM

Rae,

Bless your heart sweetie! You'll be okay. Sounds like it's been one of those horrible weeks that happen now and again, sometimes more often than we would like!

You must eat though! That pizza sounds delish, btw! Just a little pointer, here, going without food could just make you more depressed and more likely to succumb to those cravings! So make sure you get plenty of nourishment!

As far as cravings go, they seem to stick around long after withdrawal. Been having them quite a bit myself lately, so I feel for you. They usually do pop up in times of stress which sounds like you've had plenty of lately! Try to stay busy with things that bring you enjoyment. It will help those awful cravings to subside.

So sorry about your dear old kitty! I have a special place in my heart for animals of all kinds, but kitties mean the most to me. I had to say goodbye to my 17 y/o siamese last year, and I swear I miss her like a sister still yet. Here are some flowers for you and a candle I will light for your dear kitty!

May you feel much better tomorrow!

Love,

butterfly19

beingjenagain · 06-21-2008, 07:17 PM

See if they can bring you some dark chocolate too!!

indigo · 06-22-2008, 09:40 AM

((((rae)))

Serenity2008 · 06-24-2008, 07:09 AM

Are you feeling any better Rae

serenityqueen · 06-24-2008, 12:40 PM

There's nothing quite like chocolate to make one's life complete!

Seriously, Try to find someone to go to the store with you once a week or every few weeks. Make an afternoon of it on a Sat. Afterwards, cook dinner for them, doesn't have to be anything fancy. Burgers on the grill are always fun and then maybe rent a movie together while you're out.

Don't forget H.A.L.T. Hungry, Angry, Lonley and Tired.

These are four no no's to avoid if at all possible in Recovery.

Remember that we're here for you. . . always.

Hugs and Prayers,
Judy

Misslja · 06-24-2008, 07:50 PM

Rae,

I know life gets tough sometimes. But you can do it! You can do Hard! But you need to eat. You've not had a drink for a long time and you don't want to go down that road again.....you know that. Those little voices come and say "come on, just one more time for old times sake. It won't hurt, you can stop again."

Say NO! Stop those thoughts. You are in charge, you really are.

But EATTTTTTT!

I quit drinking over 20 years ago and boy did I have a problem. I can't even remember my life drinking anymore. I have the memories but my life is so different now that there is NO way I would ever consider drinking again. This is a challenge but you can overcome it. Prove it to yourself and you'll get a kick out of yourself....

Linda Joy Allan
Author of "I Quit! Cigarettes, Candy Bars & Booze"

DrugFreeUMfan · 06-25-2008, 05:05 PM

i'm so sorry you are going through this. It must be really tough.
you could try getting your groceries delivered through peapod.com.

TTOSBT · 06-25-2008, 05:07 PM

or Vons.com?
A lot of places deliver now and if you sign up for them online they will usually give you free delivery with the first order.
Hope you are feeling better after you eat!

**CarolD** · 06-25-2008, 05:19 PM

Misslja....Congratulations on your sober years
and Welcome to SR!

**CarolD** · 06-25-2008, 05:21 PM

Check in time Ray....

**Impurrfect** · 06-25-2008, 08:05 PM

She posted on the grief forum...had to put her cat, of 21 years, down the other day so I'm sure she is having a rough time.

((((Rae))) - still sending you big hugs and prayers!

Amy

RayRayRay · 06-25-2008, 09:01 PM

i have a lot on my plate right now (pardon the pun).....not online very much lately....

thanks everyone...the food crisis has passed lol...thank you all for your ideas and support....i am well fed and still sober

**Impurrfect** · 06-25-2008, 09:06 PM

Thanks for checking in, sweetie....you've been on my mind.

Remember, you're not alone. Even if we aren't there in person, we're right beside you.

Hugs and prayers!

Amy

06-21-2008, 02:02 PM	#1 (permalink)
RayRayRay The Long Climb Join Date: Apr 2008 Posts: 113 Blog Entries: 15	It's not supposed to be like this! I want to drink so badly that I don't trust myself to go out of the house. I have no groceries, but because I live in a small town and the liquor store is inside the only grocery store I can get to, I won't go buy food. Today, I'm hungry and craving - BAD COMBINATION. I'm far enough into recovery that I shouldn't be feeling like this. This is almost as bad as the withdrawal I fought way back when..... I'm keeping busy. I'm trying to use the tools. But, my work has been very hard (a few nights this week I've left in tears), my relationship is sinking, my elderly cat is sick and will likely die in the next couple of weeks...I just want to drink it all away. I'm not looking for advice. But if you'd like to send me food, that would be much appreciated

06-21-2008, 02:40 PM	#3 (permalink)
*Anna* Administrator Join Date: Aug 2003 Location: Dancing in the Light Posts: 22,832	Oh Ray, I'm sorry. But, I don't think you should go without food. Is there someone who can go to the grocery store for you or with you? There were times when I used to close my eyes going by the wine aisle in the supermarket, but I wouldn't go without food. I hope you feel better. __________________ And I dont know what the future is holding in store I dont know where Im going, Im not sure where I've been There's a spirit that guides me, a light that shines for me My life is worth the living, I dont need to see the end. John Denver

06-21-2008, 06:18 PM	#6 (permalink)
butterfly19 "Welcome To The Future..." Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: WV Posts: 225 Blog Entries: 1	Rae, Bless your heart sweetie! You'll be okay. Sounds like it's been one of those horrible weeks that happen now and again, sometimes more often than we would like! You must eat though! That pizza sounds delish, btw! Just a little pointer, here, going without food could just make you more depressed and more likely to succumb to those cravings! So make sure you get plenty of nourishment! As far as cravings go, they seem to stick around long after withdrawal. Been having them quite a bit myself lately, so I feel for you. They usually do pop up in times of stress which sounds like you've had plenty of lately! Try to stay busy with things that bring you enjoyment. It will help those awful cravings to subside. So sorry about your dear old kitty! I have a special place in my heart for animals of all kinds, but kitties mean the most to me. I had to say goodbye to my 17 y/o siamese last year, and I swear I miss her like a sister still yet. Here are some flowers for you and a candle I will light for your dear kitty! May you feel much better tomorrow! Love, butterfly19 __________________ My Disgrace Is My Saving Grace

06-21-2008, 07:17 PM	#7 (permalink)
beingjenagain ever closer... Join Date: Apr 2008 Location: Greensboro, NC Posts: 362	See if they can bring you some dark chocolate too!! __________________ BeingJenAgain

06-22-2008, 09:40 AM	#8 (permalink)
indigo Community Greeter Join Date: Nov 2003 Location: Mid-Life Express Posts: 9,928	((((rae))) __________________ When you judge others, you do not define them, you define yourself." Namasté

06-21-2008, 02:08 PM	#2 (permalink)
suki44883 Member Join Date: Apr 2008 Location: Somewhere Out There Posts: 9,121	Aww, rae. (((HUGS))) I'm so sorry you're feeling like this. Do you have any places that deliver food? Pizza or anything at all? Any fast food places you could go to that aren't near the alcohol store? Prayers and strength going out to you, sweetie! :praying

06-21-2008, 02:59 PM	#4 (permalink)
RayRayRay The Long Climb Join Date: Apr 2008 Posts: 113 Blog Entries: 15	You're right Anna - I can't go without food. That'll only make things worse. Suki, what a good idea! I will order in! There's only a pizza place that'll deliver this far out in the sticks, and it'll cost me. But why shouldn't I treat myself on a saturday night after the week I've had. I'm going to eat and there's NO way I'll get sidetracked! I feel better already!

06-21-2008, 04:54 PM	#5 (permalink)
Lily AWOL :) Join Date: Oct 2007 Location: Central WI Posts: 2,016 Blog Entries: 10	Rayrayray, I am glad that solved it for ya! Perhaps next time you could let us know you have to go to the store, then you can tell us when you get back w/out any alcohol. Or even have someone go with you? Stay clean and sober, just for today! Sheila

06-24-2008, 07:09 AM	#9 (permalink)
Serenity2008 Newbie Join Date: May 2008 Location: England, United Kingdom Posts: 14	Are you feeling any better Rae

06-24-2008, 12:40 PM	#10 (permalink)
serenityqueen Attitude of Gratitude Join Date: Sep 2007 Location: Dayton, Ohio Posts: 2,306	There's nothing quite like chocolate to make one's life complete! Seriously, Try to find someone to go to the store with you once a week or every few weeks. Make an afternoon of it on a Sat. Afterwards, cook dinner for them, doesn't have to be anything fancy. Burgers on the grill are always fun and then maybe rent a movie together while you're out. Don't forget H.A.L.T. Hungry, Angry, Lonley and Tired. These are four no no's to avoid if at all possible in Recovery. Remember that we're here for you. . . always. Hugs and Prayers, Judy __________________ Just when the Catterpillar thought her life was over, She became a Butterfly 7/25/05

06-24-2008, 07:50 PM	#11 (permalink)
Misslja Member Join Date: Apr 2008 Posts: 1	Rae, I know life gets tough sometimes. But you can do it! You can do Hard! But you need to eat. You've not had a drink for a long time and you don't want to go down that road again.....you know that. Those little voices come and say "come on, just one more time for old times sake. It won't hurt, you can stop again." Say NO! Stop those thoughts. You are in charge, you really are. But EATTTTTTT! I quit drinking over 20 years ago and boy did I have a problem. I can't even remember my life drinking anymore. I have the memories but my life is so different now that there is NO way I would ever consider drinking again. This is a challenge but you can overcome it. Prove it to yourself and you'll get a kick out of yourself.... Linda Joy Allan Author of "I Quit! Cigarettes, Candy Bars & Booze"

06-25-2008, 05:05 PM	#12 (permalink)
DrugFreeUMfan Music Lover Join Date: May 2008 Location: Chicago, IL Posts: 20	i'm so sorry you are going through this. It must be really tough. you could try getting your groceries delivered through peapod.com.

06-25-2008, 05:07 PM	#13 (permalink)
TTOSBT To Thine Own Self Be True Join Date: Jun 2008 Location: So Cal Posts: 1,948	or Vons.com? A lot of places deliver now and if you sign up for them online they will usually give you free delivery with the first order. Hope you are feeling better after you eat!

06-25-2008, 05:19 PM	#14 (permalink)
CarolD Forum Leader Join Date: Jun 2002 Location: Serene In Dixie Posts: 34,835	Misslja....Congratulations on your sober years and Welcome to SR! __________________ Each Day Sober Is A Victory!! Joy In AA Recovery!

06-25-2008, 05:21 PM	#15 (permalink)
CarolD Forum Leader Join Date: Jun 2002 Location: Serene In Dixie Posts: 34,835	Check in time Ray.... __________________ Each Day Sober Is A Victory!! Joy In AA Recovery!

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06-25-2008, 08:05 PM	#16 (permalink)
Impurrfect Social Network Moderator Join Date: Sep 2007 Location: Atlanta Posts: 18,320	She posted on the grief forum...had to put her cat, of 21 years, down the other day so I'm sure she is having a rough time. ((((Rae))) - still sending you big hugs and prayers! Amy __________________ "I'm not where I want to be, but thank God I'm not where I used to be" - Joyce Meyer "You got what it takes you can win, today is your day to begin. Don't give up here, don't you quit, the moment is now, this is it I know that you can then you will, get to the top of the hill. Part of the fun is the climb, you just gotta make up your mind" - Shania Twain (Tinker, Elvis, Patches and Mots - Mouth Of The South)

06-25-2008, 09:01 PM	#17 (permalink)
RayRayRay The Long Climb Join Date: Apr 2008 Posts: 113 Blog Entries: 15	i have a lot on my plate right now (pardon the pun).....not online very much lately.... thanks everyone...the food crisis has passed lol...thank you all for your ideas and support....i am well fed and still sober

06-25-2008, 09:06 PM	#18 (permalink)
Impurrfect Social Network Moderator Join Date: Sep 2007 Location: Atlanta Posts: 18,320	Thanks for checking in, sweetie....you've been on my mind. Remember, you're not alone. Even if we aren't there in person, we're right beside you. Hugs and prayers! Amy __________________ "I'm not where I want to be, but thank God I'm not where I used to be" - Joyce Meyer "You got what it takes you can win, today is your day to begin. Don't give up here, don't you quit, the moment is now, this is it I know that you can then you will, get to the top of the hill. Part of the fun is the climb, you just gotta make up your mind" - Shania Twain (Tinker, Elvis, Patches and Mots - Mouth Of The South)

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