i feel like drinking again

[juliwuli]

i havent drank for a month , but a terrible thing happened today some-one stole £500.00 off me, its a long story so wont bother with reciting it, anyway im absolutely gutted i so needed that money , i wanted to buy my kids birthday presents with it, my eldest is 21 soon and i wanted to get him something special, now i cant, im so low i feel like drinking again to make myself feel better temporarily, why does life have to be like this?

[51anna]

Hi Juli,

I'm sorry that happened. Is there anything that the police can do?

Sometimes it seems like we are being tested, but I guess we're supposed to learn something from all of these experiences. And, you know that drinking won't help.

[juliwuli]

i know deep down it wont help. but im being tested to the absolute limit, i cannot remember in my whole life ever feeling this bad, i'm trying to think of other people in this world who have absolutely nothing, but at the moment its not working
the police havent been informed yet, it was £500 worth of vouchers to be exact, i won them, they were sent i didnt get them, i contacted the mailing people, they said some-one else had intercepted them its a long story, i know its not theft in the usual sense but im so disappointed,

[bugsworth]

Hey Juli...hang in there, don't allow what someone else did lead you to harming yourself. Drinking will not help...you know it! Your son will understand, he is not a child, and I am sure the biggest gift you can give him will be showing him you are strong enough to not let this derail you! Life is always going to throw us curve balls...stay strong!

[indigo]

I'm very sorry about the money, can you explain to your children that you'll need to buy smaller gifts and tell them what happened. Please don't pick up, you are doing so well and it will serve no purpose and cost you money you don't have. Is there nothing that can be done at all by the mail or the police?
hugs indigo

[justjo]

Maybe look at it this way. It is unfortunate that this horrible thing has happened to you but it is now out of your control. It happened and theres not much you can do about it. I use to fret over the smallest thing that happened to me. Even things like when my son smashed his car up and it was going cost thousands. I basically felt sick but when I kept thinking, OK, whats done is done, I cant turn the clock, and how are we going to process this. It turned out ok, we lost money, but my son was safe that was the main thing. Try to move forward because if you let things get to you, life can be pretty miserable.
Love to you.
Jo

[BUTTERFLY-7]

I feel like Drinking every day of my existing life
But I just don't I know it sucks when the inedible happens
to us, But that's just the hall point I guess we get tested to see
how bad we really want our sobriety,how serious we are committed to our sobriety,Listen one Door closes, the other one will open.

[juliwuli]

thank you for your replies every-one, i look at it like this-perhaps i am paying off a debt from a past life, if i dont get them back well, i 'll survive, my 4 kids are well, my grandsons well. i have a thousand things to be grateful for, some people suffer every day of their lives, why am i moaning? it was a bad thing to happen but hey, i can think of worse,its a material thing at the end of the day, even though i didn't want it for myself, i've just got to accept it,

[BUTTERFLY-7]

that right there--is "The Attitude of Gratitude"
God Bless you child.

[beingjenagain]

Your sobriety is a present to everyone! Some quality time with your son and your whole family maybe worth more than any bought gift.

[least]

Jen is right on! I don't have the money I'd like to have, or even as much as I need for bills and such, but I'm sober and a better mother for it.

I can't give my daughter(s) everything they want, but I can give them a better sober mother, and that's really important.

[ImJulie]

The best birthday gift you can give your kid, is the one money wont buy.
Stay sober.
Tell your kid what happened...tell him what your plans were.
By that age, kids dont care so much about the material stuff...they hunger for a relationship with us.


Maybe in some kinda strange and weird way, your money being stolen was just a path being paved for some higher learning.

Peace and love to you.

[juliwuli]

i succumbed to the demon drink now im really depressesd, i used to have lots of hobbies but havent done any of them for ages, i used to exercise but havent done that either for weeks, and ive no appetite at all, i feel really weak too, i know i should go to the doctors but im scared to death of everything,

[51anna]

Your depression may lift after you are in recovery for awhile. Alcohol is a depressant and when it's no longer there, you may feel better. If not, you can talk to your dr about antidepressants.

I know how scary it is to go to the dr, but it might be a good idea.

[CarolD]

Yes....my depression did leave rather soon after I quit drinking.
Hope you too will find that true.

AA meetings are where I found a way to
live sober and enjoy recovery.