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labelleenfant77 · 04-20-2008, 12:14 AM

I am completely addicted to Vicodin. In the past is has been many other things but right now the Vicodin is the problem. It is destroying my marriage and I have no one to turn to. I wish I had some friends. So yea, I am addicted and I am pregnant. How horrible of a person am I? I have hurt my baby boy. My husband hates me for this. I would like to pray that he is going to be healthy when he is born but I am scared. I have no one to talk to. I want to stop talking the vicodin and anything else that may be hurting him. I need help. I need to find a friend.

Sorry if it seems I am rambling a lot - I have so much on my mind and am crying while I write this.

I don't want to lose my husband and I don't want to hurt my son anymore - I want to stop!!

CarolD · 04-20-2008, 01:47 AM

Prayers for the 3 of you coming your way.
Welcome to our Womens Forum.

Others will be long later..do keep in touch
check back when you can.

indigo · 04-20-2008, 05:20 AM

Welcome to our women's forum, I hope you'll keep posting because there is a lot of love and support going on here.I'll be keeping you in my thoughts and heart.

barb dwyer · 04-20-2008, 05:25 AM

Hi and welcome -
in recovery, we've a saying I'll give you -

We're not bad people trying to be good -
we're sick people... trying to get well.

I don't know about vicodin ...
I'm an alcoholic for the greater part ...
but you're not alone!

***nandm*** · 04-20-2008, 10:28 AM

Welcome to SR

Please speak with your doctor. Although you may feel scared, ashamed, and frightened right now please keep in mind that there is hope for things to get better. Your doctor can help you get through the withdrawals and monitor the baby closer with the additional knowledge of the vicodin issue. That is one thing you can do that would be a positive step towards helping yourself, your child, and your husband. You can get better. There are many here who have walked in your shoes. Hang in their, go see your doctor, talk with your husband tell him your plan.

Keep us posted.

FearlesslyHappy · 04-20-2008, 10:45 AM

Hello,

I don't mind if you send me a message; I understand needing a friend - someone to listen and support you. I'm so sorry you're in such a bind right now. Quitting is so hard, and the stress that life throws at us doesn't make it any easier. I'm working on dealing with stress in a positive way rather than smoking and using, and it sucks a lot of the time, but I feel better knowing that I am a good person who doesn't hurt myself. It can be rough ... sometimes we feel so frustrated that hurting ourselves seems like the only option ... pushing people away and being cruel, and being cruel to ourselves, too.

I hope you find the help you need ... I'm not sure what your financial situation is, but therapy helped me a lot, years ago (believe it or not - HAHA). Laughter also helps immeasurably. I haven't had a lot of that lately, but if you can find a comedian or TV show or book or person who can bring a smile to your face, then I recommend being around that as much as possible.

Good luck!

1963comet · 04-20-2008, 11:15 AM

Hey, I can be a friend for you. Keep posting and you will find so many caring people here. I understand.

***Anna*** · 04-20-2008, 06:50 PM

I am sorry that you feel so alone. I do remember that awful empty place. But, there is lots of support here and I know that you can get through this.

tanyapmc · 04-20-2008, 08:07 PM

Hi and welcome to SR. Please talk to your doctor. There are many options. I hope you continue posting here and let us get to know you.

Lily · 04-20-2008, 08:57 PM

I prayed for you. I will be your friend too! Call the nearest recovery home! they will bump you up the list and let you right in cuz you are PG! You can do this!

blessings, Sheila

indigo · 04-21-2008, 05:04 AM

How are tthings with you today? are you going to go and see your doctor? I wish you a happy peaceful day.

Cathy31 · 04-21-2008, 05:55 AM

Welcome, keep reading and posting, you will find lots of support here...
Cathy31
x

kj3880 · 04-22-2008, 09:21 AM

Definitely see a doctor. Opiate withdrawal without Dr's supervision can even be more dangerous than the opiate use. This is not trying to give you an excuse to keep just using, but to get you to see a doctor pronto, like today! You have to have your symtoms kept in check, and the doc will be able to do that, and increase your chances of successful recovery, for both you and the baby. I know you can do it. I initially stopped using for my kids. Even though they are much older (one is in college), I felt like all my energy was concentrated on pills, and I wanted to be present in their lives. So I quit percs and oxy with the help of suboxone. I feel healthier now. I'm in my 18th day, hang in there. Keep coming back to talk at any time. Send me a pm if you like.
KJ

WendyS · 04-22-2008, 12:00 PM

We are all here for you. Reaching out for help is a big step, now you need to get your feet moving. To the Dr as has been suggested is the first step. I had to set my pride aside and ask for help with what I could not do on my own. You can do this!!!

04-20-2008, 12:14 AM	#1 (permalink)
labelleenfant77 Member Join Date: Apr 2008 Posts: 3	I could really use some support... I am completely addicted to Vicodin. In the past is has been many other things but right now the Vicodin is the problem. It is destroying my marriage and I have no one to turn to. I wish I had some friends. So yea, I am addicted and I am pregnant. How horrible of a person am I? I have hurt my baby boy. My husband hates me for this. I would like to pray that he is going to be healthy when he is born but I am scared. I have no one to talk to. I want to stop talking the vicodin and anything else that may be hurting him. I need help. I need to find a friend. Sorry if it seems I am rambling a lot - I have so much on my mind and am crying while I write this. I don't want to lose my husband and I don't want to hurt my son anymore - I want to stop!!

04-20-2008, 01:47 AM	#2 (permalink)
CarolD Forward we go...side by side Join Date: Jun 2002 Location: Serene In Dixie Posts: 37,601	Prayers for the 3 of you coming your way. Welcome to our Womens Forum. Others will be long later..do keep in touch check back when you can. __________________ Each Day Sober Is A Victory!! Joy In AA Recovery!

04-20-2008, 05:20 AM	#3 (permalink)
indigo Community Greeter Join Date: Nov 2003 Location: Mid-Life Express Posts: 9,928	Welcome to our women's forum, I hope you'll keep posting because there is a lot of love and support going on here.I'll be keeping you in my thoughts and heart. __________________ When you judge others, you do not define them, you define yourself." Namasté

04-20-2008, 05:25 AM	#4 (permalink)
barb dwyer same planet...different world Join Date: Sep 2006 Location: butte mt Posts: 10,942 Blog Entries: 7	Hi and welcome - in recovery, we've a saying I'll give you - We're not bad people trying to be good - we're sick people... trying to get well. I don't know about vicodin ... I'm an alcoholic for the greater part ... but you're not alone! __________________ Knowledge is knowing that tomato is a fruit. Wisdom is not putting it in fruit salad.

04-20-2008, 10:28 AM	#5 (permalink)
*nandm* Life the gift of recovery! Join Date: Aug 2007 Location: Home is where the heart is Posts: 6,809	Welcome to SR Please speak with your doctor. Although you may feel scared, ashamed, and frightened right now please keep in mind that there is hope for things to get better. Your doctor can help you get through the withdrawals and monitor the baby closer with the additional knowledge of the vicodin issue. That is one thing you can do that would be a positive step towards helping yourself, your child, and your husband. You can get better. There are many here who have walked in your shoes. Hang in their, go see your doctor, talk with your husband tell him your plan. Keep us posted. __________________ NOTE: All BB quotes are from the 1st Edition of the Big Book Depression is not a sign of weakness. It is a sign of being too strong for too long.

04-20-2008, 10:45 AM	#6 (permalink)
FearlesslyHappy Using Art Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: a happy state of mind Posts: 40 Blog Entries: 5	Hello, I don't mind if you send me a message; I understand needing a friend - someone to listen and support you. I'm so sorry you're in such a bind right now. Quitting is so hard, and the stress that life throws at us doesn't make it any easier. I'm working on dealing with stress in a positive way rather than smoking and using, and it sucks a lot of the time, but I feel better knowing that I am a good person who doesn't hurt myself. It can be rough ... sometimes we feel so frustrated that hurting ourselves seems like the only option ... pushing people away and being cruel, and being cruel to ourselves, too. I hope you find the help you need ... I'm not sure what your financial situation is, but therapy helped me a lot, years ago (believe it or not - HAHA). Laughter also helps immeasurably. I haven't had a lot of that lately, but if you can find a comedian or TV show or book or person who can bring a smile to your face, then I recommend being around that as much as possible. Good luck!

04-20-2008, 11:15 AM	#7 (permalink)
1963comet Member Join Date: Nov 2007 Location: Michigan Posts: 1,381	Hey, I can be a friend for you. Keep posting and you will find so many caring people here. I understand. __________________ Just Maybe... It is true that we do not know what we have until we lose it, But it is also true we do not know what we have been missing until it Arrives.

04-20-2008, 06:50 PM	#8 (permalink)
*Anna* Administrator Join Date: Aug 2003 Location: Dancing in the Light Posts: 28,163	I am sorry that you feel so alone. I do remember that awful empty place. But, there is lots of support here and I know that you can get through this. __________________ Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. Marianne Willianson

04-20-2008, 08:07 PM	#9 (permalink)
tanyapmc Member Join Date: Jun 2007 Location: Nunyabusinessville, Texas Posts: 4,443 Blog Entries: 2	Hi and welcome to SR. Please talk to your doctor. There are many options. I hope you continue posting here and let us get to know you.

04-20-2008, 08:57 PM	#10 (permalink)
Lily Grateful Join Date: Oct 2007 Location: Midwest Posts: 2,504 Blog Entries: 11	I prayed for you. I will be your friend too! Call the nearest recovery home! they will bump you up the list and let you right in cuz you are PG! You can do this! blessings, Sheila

04-21-2008, 05:04 AM	#11 (permalink)
indigo Community Greeter Join Date: Nov 2003 Location: Mid-Life Express Posts: 9,928	How are tthings with you today? are you going to go and see your doctor? I wish you a happy peaceful day. __________________ When you judge others, you do not define them, you define yourself." Namasté

04-21-2008, 05:55 AM	#12 (permalink)
Cathy31 1 bite&all resistance crumbles Join Date: Oct 2004 Location: IRELAND Posts: 2,169	Welcome, keep reading and posting, you will find lots of support here... Cathy31 x __________________ Sober since 22nd March 2006 by the Grace of God and the Programs & Fellowship of AA and NA Life is Beautiful! Fake it til you make it...

04-22-2008, 09:21 AM	#13 (permalink)
kj3880 Member Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: md Posts: 3,007	Definitely see a doctor. Opiate withdrawal without Dr's supervision can even be more dangerous than the opiate use. This is not trying to give you an excuse to keep just using, but to get you to see a doctor pronto, like today! You have to have your symtoms kept in check, and the doc will be able to do that, and increase your chances of successful recovery, for both you and the baby. I know you can do it. I initially stopped using for my kids. Even though they are much older (one is in college), I felt like all my energy was concentrated on pills, and I wanted to be present in their lives. So I quit percs and oxy with the help of suboxone. I feel healthier now. I'm in my 18th day, hang in there. Keep coming back to talk at any time. Send me a pm if you like. KJ

04-22-2008, 12:00 PM	#14 (permalink)
WendyS Member Join Date: Apr 2008 Location: Riverton, Utah Posts: 48	We are all here for you. Reaching out for help is a big step, now you need to get your feet moving. To the Dr as has been suggested is the first step. I had to set my pride aside and ask for help with what I could not do on my own. You can do this!!!

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