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[tangerine13]

I woke up today in horrid pain! I feel like I have aged 20 years. I start physical therapy tommorow, pretty much for my whole body. Im excited, but nervous because I have had NO exercise of any kind for almost 2 years. The last couple weeks I have went on bike rides , went for walks, played some tennis. The biggest part of recovery for fibromyalgia is exercise and I know that, but I was unable to do anything because of the high morphine doses.

I found out that my insurance will pay for the social worker at pt, so I am happy that I get to talk to someone, Im feeling a little embarrased. I used to be so active, the one thing I thought would help, (the meds) crippled me more! Im afraid I am going to break down at my appt. I feel like a peice of garbabe today.

tangerine

[Freedom1990]

I'm sorry you're hurting so bad today

I deal with chronic pain from degenerative disc disease, and I too have those days where the pain just stinks!

[CarolD]

If you do break down....it's not the end of the world.

Prayers for healing and peace coming your way.

[BUTTERFLY-7]

First of all God doesn't create junk, or Garbage, and no you are not going to break, just do what is that you are doing, Listen do you know "How Bless you are" to just bee able to have Medical coverage, and all the Help you are getting think?about those that Medical coverage is and unheard privilege,I'll be for those areas that your body aches but come to think about it you are Bless there are those who that can't walk or ever experience what it is to have therapy,Bless&B-Bless.

[51anna]

Tangerine,

If you cry, it's okay.

I am so glad to hear you're dealing with your fibromyalgia. I truly did find that exercise was the very best thing for my fibro. My biggest problem was with my back, shoulders and neck. I began to do search for solutions because I was desperate. And, I read that exercise and lifting weights would help because it would strengthen the muscles. I was skeptical, but it worked for me. Check with your dr and try to find something that works for you.

[indigo]

I hope you get the relief you so need and will be keeping you in my thoughts. I too suffer from chronic pain and I know how disabling and depressing it can be, it doesn't matter if you cry or breakdown, you're entitled to. Good luck and I hope you're soon feling better from the treatment.

[tangerine13]

Thank You everyone, I was on the pity pot again yesterday. I know I am blessed, Im very grateful to have the insurance I have. I was in line at the pharmacy the other day and an elderly woman in front of me had 3 prescriptions that cost 350 bucks, my heart sank, I thought to myself, how does this woman even eat, or pay her bills?

Yes fibro is very painful, but I have other issues, that is why I am on such heavy narcotics. I was in a rollover car accident in 03, Im lucky to be alive, I surely had an angel with me that night. I have multiple herniated and bulging discs in my back and neck, degenerative disc disease, deteriorating si joint ( that needs to be fused), need a pin in my right ankle, and horrible arthritis. I feel like a hypochondriac sometimes with all these issues at my age,,,,I havent learned to deal with any of these ailments without drugs, but Its time I start, for myself, and my family!

Thanks everone for your thoughts and prayers!
tangerine13

[Digginit]

No fibromyalgia here, but a lot of musculoskeletal pain from overuse.

Opiates....ugh....they make ya' hurt so much worse in the long run. Addiction is difficult enough all on its own. Sounds like you're doing what you need to, though, to work through this. Adequate rest, exercise, healthy diet....those are important. Massage....that's a good choice too, imho. Some folks benefit from acupuncture, I understand. I've seen Lyrica work well as far as non-narcotic meds go. I understand there are also some promising new medical procedures in the works. It'll be interesting to see how those play out.

Either way, I wish you well. It's a difficult time, I'm sure. My only comparison, from coming off cocaine, is a horrendous depression. I'm thinking that the distress, regardless of whether it's physical or mental pain, is probably comparable. It hurts to even think about it, and I feel for where you are. I'm grateful that I was most recently able to maintain some sort of focus that allowed me to gradually emerge from it. Too many folks don't. I pray to be able to keep myself clean over the days and years. The alternative is just too devastating. I hope for the same for you.

Peace~
dig

[tangerine13]

Hey Digg, I tried lyrica about 3 years ago, I gained 45 lbs. I was on it for 6 months, and didnt seem to be working anyhow. My biggest problem is the injuries from the car accident.

Im 34, and feel like I have aged 20 years! I was like this before the 2 year prescription of morphine sulfate. Is my disease taking over?
I know I have to live with this debilitating pain the rest of my life, can I do it without drugs....theres more to the story,,,,,I put up a reply in the substance abuse forum under "I slipped tonight...like 10 minutes ago.....please read anyone if You have a chance, and tell me what you think...give it to me honest, I know you dont know my pain levels and everyone is different, but the advice would make me feel better!

thanks,
tangerine13