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Digginit · 01-20-2008, 02:33 PM

It's a long weekend. I don't want to get out of the house....or maybe it's that I don't want to be around other people. My dad came by earlier (twice). Didn't much like it. I asked him if he has any newspaper, so that I could wrap up some of my Christmas decorations. He said, "no." But, he went on and told me that my grandmother does. Said I should give her a call. Go get it from her house. The thought is just too adverse today. I want to GO somewhere and see another person (even my grandmother) even less than I want to see him again. He'll be bringing my son home soon, and I'm sure he'll ask. I think I'll tell him a lie...it'll be easier that way...that I found a box full of newspaper in my storage room. Ugh. I think he worries about me and my avoidant behaviors.... (I got 'em from him...lol).

~dig

***Anna*** · 01-20-2008, 07:14 PM

Hi Dig,

Your Dad probably is worried about you.

Just stay focused on your recovery and you'll be okay. I think isolating can be okay, in small doses, but it's not a good habit. I found, that a big part of my recovery, was (reluctantly) opening myself up, so that wonderful people could come into my life. This was not a natural, normal thing for me to do, but somehow I knew that I had to.

I hope you feel better tomorrow.

**CarolD** · 01-20-2008, 11:36 PM

If you are re-charging your spirit
then solitude is necessary.

I think it depends on your motives
wheter or not it's healthy.

Digginit · 01-21-2008, 01:25 PM

Nah. Haven't been recharging. I think I'm seeing pretty clearly what I need to do.

I found, that a big part of my recovery, was (reluctantly) opening myself up, so that wonderful people could come into my life.

There's that...and just turning around some other avoidant behaviors that are just compounding. The longer you avoid some things, the more there is to avoid....or to do to undo what you've done by avoiding....lol. Does that make sense???

I start tomorrow. <snicker>

~dig

WLDKATZ · 01-21-2008, 01:46 PM

lol dont you just breathe easier when everyone leaves?

Digginit · 01-21-2008, 01:49 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by WLDKATZ

lol dont you just breathe easier when everyone leaves?

yes.

***Anna*** · 01-21-2008, 02:01 PM

Hey Dig, it's a tough journey sometimes, but you're doing great. You recognize that you have to push your comfort zone in order to move forward. Change is always hard and I know I always tend to resist change of any kind. Just do one small thing and that will lead to more.

WLDKATZ · 01-21-2008, 02:12 PM

you know I am sort of in the same situation right??? Now I dont have as many physical limitations as before and I can "start getting out", I am really scared.........my sister and her husband came over last night.......I couldnt wait for them to leave.........I need my silence, Baby Girl gets mad some times and starts howling it is as if she needs to break the silence in the house.....I just want the hole......the solitude..........maybe it is my head and heart trying to heal or what ever mumbo crap ppl are trying to tell me I dont know all I know is I love being by myself, if I had a way for getting baby girl to my mom I would just for that peace..........it is ok you will be ready when you are........just be good and true to you!!!!
Pamm

Digginit · 01-21-2008, 06:57 PM

How old is the little girl? Children need so much from us. Sometimes it can be really hard to set our needs aside--especially when it's silence that you need, and your child is the person not letting you have it. I hope you're finding a way to give her the nurturing that she needs while you're going through such a hard time yourself.

WLDKATZ · 01-21-2008, 07:18 PM

Sis Baby Girl is a dog..........lol but even she has gotten me good as of recently, she does remind me that I need to Be alive in order to stay alive....ie I eat when she eats ( she eats what I do) I go to the bathroom when she does ect.....

Digginit · 01-21-2008, 07:24 PM

HAHAHAHA!!! Ugh. I was scared for a minute. Whew!!!!!

WLDKATZ · 01-22-2008, 01:37 AM

me and my momma were laughing our butts off about it she was like honey it is gonna be ok just put her outside .............uerm no
lol
Yeah my baby girl is special needs just ask Amy........lol she loves popcicles and chicken ramen noodles ( wont eat any of the other ones that I know of) absolutely loves the snow, cant stand spidars and loves her sister a garfield looking cat that baby "found" on one of her outtings to the park ( dead serious she has had this kitten since it was a few days old they act like sisters and quite funny) named spitfire....Baby talks she can say I love you ( especially when she doesnt get her way and it about kills me) and I am trying to teach her how to say Momma......she loves to "dance" I put my knees on eaither side of her back hips ( she has pins in hers as well as me) and we rock back and fourth dont know who it helps me or her more.....but for all it is worth she is my daughter.........

Hugs and Prayers,
Pamm
And Baby Girl and spitz too.........lol

**CatsPajamas** · 01-22-2008, 06:41 AM

((( Pamm ))) ((( Digg )))

Just for Today... One Day at a Time... that's all you have to do is take this one day at a time. Otherwise life can be pretty overwhelming sometimes!

Big hugs and love
Cats

Digginit · 01-22-2008, 10:08 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by CarolD

If you are re-charging your spirit
then solitude is necessary.

I think it depends on your motives
wheter or not it's healthy.

Ya know what? The weekend ended up being a good thing after all. I think it DOES qualifiy as a re-charging of the spirit.

~dig

WLDKATZ · 01-23-2008, 01:05 PM

It really does I am waiting for my shrink to make a house call so I can get back on my meds, maybe soon I will be right again.....btw how is your week going Dig?

Hugs and Prayers,
Pamm

Digginit · 01-23-2008, 06:46 PM

My week is great. But the WEEK is usually good...I'm working. I do great as long as I'm staying busy, being productive. But give me a little down time and I can sink so fast. And there I had T H R E E W H O L E D A Y S off because of MLK day! I bet I'm not the only one for whom time off is not really a good thing. Think I got pushed into a little progress though. Sometimes ya' gotta have a little nudge, imho.

Peace~
dig

WLDKATZ · 01-23-2008, 07:11 PM

I hear ya, he is comming to pick me up for my DBT therapy and physically taking me, he said he may even take me to a meeting or two................... this is so cool this was the week God answered my prayers!

Hugs and Prayers,
Pamm

01-20-2008, 02:33 PM	#1 (permalink)
Digginit Member Join Date: Jan 2006 Location: usa Posts: 452	Holed up It's a long weekend. I don't want to get out of the house....or maybe it's that I don't want to be around other people. My dad came by earlier (twice). Didn't much like it. I asked him if he has any newspaper, so that I could wrap up some of my Christmas decorations. He said, "no." But, he went on and told me that my grandmother does. Said I should give her a call. Go get it from her house. The thought is just too adverse today. I want to GO somewhere and see another person (even my grandmother) even less than I want to see him again. He'll be bringing my son home soon, and I'm sure he'll ask. I think I'll tell him a lie...it'll be easier that way...that I found a box full of newspaper in my storage room. Ugh. I think he worries about me and my avoidant behaviors.... (I got 'em from him...lol). ~dig __________________ -- There is no such thing as a problem without a gift for you in its hands. We seek problems because we need their gifts.

01-20-2008, 07:14 PM	#2 (permalink)
*Anna* Administrator Join Date: Aug 2003 Location: Dancing in the Light Posts: 22,810	Hi Dig, Your Dad probably is worried about you. Just stay focused on your recovery and you'll be okay. I think isolating can be okay, in small doses, but it's not a good habit. I found, that a big part of my recovery, was (reluctantly) opening myself up, so that wonderful people could come into my life. This was not a natural, normal thing for me to do, but somehow I knew that I had to. I hope you feel better tomorrow. __________________ And I dont know what the future is holding in store I dont know where Im going, Im not sure where I've been There's a spirit that guides me, a light that shines for me My life is worth the living, I dont need to see the end. John Denver

01-20-2008, 11:36 PM	#3 (permalink)
CarolD Forum Leader Join Date: Jun 2002 Location: Serene In Dixie Posts: 34,835	If you are re-charging your spirit then solitude is necessary. I think it depends on your motives wheter or not it's healthy. __________________ Each Day Sober Is A Victory!! Joy In AA Recovery!

01-21-2008, 01:25 PM	#4 (permalink)
Digginit Member Join Date: Jan 2006 Location: usa Posts: 452	Nah. Haven't been recharging. I think I'm seeing pretty clearly what I need to do. I found, that a big part of my recovery, was (reluctantly) opening myself up, so that wonderful people could come into my life. There's that...and just turning around some other avoidant behaviors that are just compounding. The longer you avoid some things, the more there is to avoid....or to do to undo what you've done by avoiding....lol. Does that make sense??? I start tomorrow. <snicker> ~dig __________________ -- There is no such thing as a problem without a gift for you in its hands. We seek problems because we need their gifts.

01-21-2008, 01:46 PM	#5 (permalink)
WLDKATZ Hell on Wheels Join Date: Sep 2007 Location: Flint MI Posts: 4,455	lol dont you just breathe easier when everyone leaves? __________________ Good Better best never let it rest until you kick the dog shi! out of the looser!!!!!!!!!

01-21-2008, 02:01 PM	#7 (permalink)
*Anna* Administrator Join Date: Aug 2003 Location: Dancing in the Light Posts: 22,810	Hey Dig, it's a tough journey sometimes, but you're doing great. You recognize that you have to push your comfort zone in order to move forward. Change is always hard and I know I always tend to resist change of any kind. Just do one small thing and that will lead to more. __________________ And I dont know what the future is holding in store I dont know where Im going, Im not sure where I've been There's a spirit that guides me, a light that shines for me My life is worth the living, I dont need to see the end. John Denver

01-21-2008, 02:12 PM	#8 (permalink)
WLDKATZ Hell on Wheels Join Date: Sep 2007 Location: Flint MI Posts: 4,455	you know I am sort of in the same situation right??? Now I dont have as many physical limitations as before and I can "start getting out", I am really scared.........my sister and her husband came over last night.......I couldnt wait for them to leave.........I need my silence, Baby Girl gets mad some times and starts howling it is as if she needs to break the silence in the house.....I just want the hole......the solitude..........maybe it is my head and heart trying to heal or what ever mumbo crap ppl are trying to tell me I dont know all I know is I love being by myself, if I had a way for getting baby girl to my mom I would just for that peace..........it is ok you will be ready when you are........just be good and true to you!!!! Pamm __________________ Good Better best never let it rest until you kick the dog shi! out of the looser!!!!!!!!!

01-21-2008, 06:57 PM	#9 (permalink)
Digginit Member Join Date: Jan 2006 Location: usa Posts: 452	How old is the little girl? Children need so much from us. Sometimes it can be really hard to set our needs aside--especially when it's silence that you need, and your child is the person not letting you have it. I hope you're finding a way to give her the nurturing that she needs while you're going through such a hard time yourself. __________________ -- There is no such thing as a problem without a gift for you in its hands. We seek problems because we need their gifts.

01-21-2008, 07:18 PM	#10 (permalink)
WLDKATZ Hell on Wheels Join Date: Sep 2007 Location: Flint MI Posts: 4,455	Sis Baby Girl is a dog..........lol but even she has gotten me good as of recently, she does remind me that I need to Be alive in order to stay alive....ie I eat when she eats ( she eats what I do) I go to the bathroom when she does ect..... __________________ Good Better best never let it rest until you kick the dog shi! out of the looser!!!!!!!!!

01-21-2008, 07:24 PM	#11 (permalink)
Digginit Member Join Date: Jan 2006 Location: usa Posts: 452	HAHAHAHA!!! Ugh. I was scared for a minute. Whew!!!!! __________________ -- There is no such thing as a problem without a gift for you in its hands. We seek problems because we need their gifts.

01-22-2008, 01:37 AM	#12 (permalink)
WLDKATZ Hell on Wheels Join Date: Sep 2007 Location: Flint MI Posts: 4,455	me and my momma were laughing our butts off about it she was like honey it is gonna be ok just put her outside .............uerm no lol Yeah my baby girl is special needs just ask Amy........lol she loves popcicles and chicken ramen noodles ( wont eat any of the other ones that I know of) absolutely loves the snow, cant stand spidars and loves her sister a garfield looking cat that baby "found" on one of her outtings to the park ( dead serious she has had this kitten since it was a few days old they act like sisters and quite funny) named spitfire....Baby talks she can say I love you ( especially when she doesnt get her way and it about kills me) and I am trying to teach her how to say Momma......she loves to "dance" I put my knees on eaither side of her back hips ( she has pins in hers as well as me) and we rock back and fourth dont know who it helps me or her more.....but for all it is worth she is my daughter......... Hugs and Prayers, Pamm And Baby Girl and spitz too.........lol __________________ Good Better best never let it rest until you kick the dog shi! out of the looser!!!!!!!!!

01-22-2008, 06:41 AM	#13 (permalink)
CatsPajamas Forum Leader Join Date: Aug 2002 Location: In my little piece of heaven Posts: 2,980	((( Pamm ))) ((( Digg ))) Just for Today... One Day at a Time... that's all you have to do is take this one day at a time. Otherwise life can be pretty overwhelming sometimes! Big hugs and love Cats __________________ What other people think of me is really none of my business!

01-23-2008, 01:05 PM	#15 (permalink)
WLDKATZ Hell on Wheels Join Date: Sep 2007 Location: Flint MI Posts: 4,455	It really does I am waiting for my shrink to make a house call so I can get back on my meds, maybe soon I will be right again.....btw how is your week going Dig? Hugs and Prayers, Pamm __________________ Good Better best never let it rest until you kick the dog shi! out of the looser!!!!!!!!!

01-23-2008, 06:46 PM	#16 (permalink)
Digginit Member Join Date: Jan 2006 Location: usa Posts: 452	My week is great. But the WEEK is usually good...I'm working. I do great as long as I'm staying busy, being productive. But give me a little down time and I can sink so fast. And there I had T H R E E W H O L E D A Y S off because of MLK day! I bet I'm not the only one for whom time off is not really a good thing. Think I got pushed into a little progress though. Sometimes ya' gotta have a little nudge, imho. Peace~ dig __________________ -- There is no such thing as a problem without a gift for you in its hands. We seek problems because we need their gifts.

01-23-2008, 07:11 PM	#17 (permalink)
WLDKATZ Hell on Wheels Join Date: Sep 2007 Location: Flint MI Posts: 4,455	I hear ya, he is comming to pick me up for my DBT therapy and physically taking me, he said he may even take me to a meeting or two................... this is so cool this was the week God answered my prayers! Hugs and Prayers, Pamm __________________ Good Better best never let it rest until you kick the dog shi! out of the looser!!!!!!!!!

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