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**nandm** · 01-14-2008, 01:49 PM

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If nothing ever changed, there'd be no butterflies. - Source Unknown

Before I found recovery I was much like the caterpiller, limited to crawling around, my vision blocked by the weeds, grass, and trees of life. Feeling like I had walked 1000 miles but in reality only moving few feet.

Today, I have wings. I can see the world from so many different perspectives. The sky, to the ground and everything in between is all within my grasp. When I feel like I have gone 1000 miles I have actually moved more than a few feet.

I am grateful for change as it has given me a new life I was unable to even concieve prior to finding sobriety.

lovingseren · 01-14-2008, 04:57 PM

Awesome Post, Thank You

Prior to sobriety my life was a half a life, in the shadows, hiding out in my home, drinking, not answering the phone, passing out before 7pm each night.

Since I got sober I found that I could have a rich and fulfilling sobriety, a new life where I could grow, emotionally and spiritually, and begin to become the woman I was meant to be.

I too found my wings, they were a bit sticky at first, lol. I have learned to not only fly, but to soar to greater heights than I could have imagined in my drinking years.

This is the recovery I want, I choose it, I nurture, I nourish it and I am so very grateful for it, and to those who went before me and shared what worked for them.

Seren

Digginit · 01-14-2008, 05:29 PM

Maaan. That's a good post. My feelings about it are...well, I'm not really sure. In the years before sobriety-this-time-around, I've never flown so freely. I LOVED my life. It was good. Then I relapsed...a horrendous year. (Of course the first time I quit coke, I quit because I recognized it was a problem, but it had not messed up my life yet.)

Then got clean....sort of....and then relapsed again. I'm having fun now. I wasn't depressed this winter (which is HUGE for me). Life is good. But I really believe I felt much more free in the years before that first nasty relapse. I beat myself up over the fact that I let this happen to me again. I'm pretty disgusted at having gone down a path that I KNEW was bad for me, and then going down that path led to some pretty unacceptable behavior. I honestly don't think I'll ever be as good as I was then...before. But maybe....

~dig

***indigo*** · 01-15-2008, 07:03 AM

Great post J.

01-14-2008, 05:29 PM	#3 (permalink)
Digginit Member Join Date: Jan 2006 Location: usa Posts: 447	Maaan. That's a good post. My feelings about it are...well, I'm not really sure. In the years before sobriety-this-time-around, I've never flown so freely. I LOVED my life. It was good. Then I relapsed...a horrendous year. (Of course the first time I quit coke, I quit because I recognized it was a problem, but it had not messed up my life yet.) Then got clean....sort of....and then relapsed again. I'm having fun now. I wasn't depressed this winter (which is HUGE for me). Life is good. But I really believe I felt much more free in the years before that first nasty relapse. I beat myself up over the fact that I let this happen to me again. I'm pretty disgusted at having gone down a path that I KNEW was bad for me, and then going down that path led to some pretty unacceptable behavior. I honestly don't think I'll ever be as good as I was then...before. But maybe.... ~dig __________________ -- There is no such thing as a problem without a gift for you in its hands. We seek problems because we need their gifts.

01-15-2008, 07:03 AM	#4 (permalink)
*indigo* Community Greeter Join Date: Nov 2003 Location: Mid-Life Express Posts: 9,146	Great post J. __________________ When you judge others, you do not define them, you define yourself." Namasté

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01-14-2008, 04:57 PM	#2 (permalink)
lovingseren Member Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: Vancouver BC Posts: 379	Awesome Post, Thank You Prior to sobriety my life was a half a life, in the shadows, hiding out in my home, drinking, not answering the phone, passing out before 7pm each night. Since I got sober I found that I could have a rich and fulfilling sobriety, a new life where I could grow, emotionally and spiritually, and begin to become the woman I was meant to be. I too found my wings, they were a bit sticky at first, lol. I have learned to not only fly, but to soar to greater heights than I could have imagined in my drinking years. This is the recovery I want, I choose it, I nurture, I nourish it and I am so very grateful for it, and to those who went before me and shared what worked for them. Seren

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