Last day of methadone is tommorow

[trish]

Just here to ask if anyone can say a prayer for me. Tommorow will be my last dose of methadone. Hope I can do this with these kids running around me.
Oh well........guess I will soon no what hell REALLY is.

[IF ME GAL]

You will be my thoughts and prayers. I quit drinking when my youngest son was one year and my oldest was 4yrs. I don't know about narcotics but it was a struggle but those sober years with my children were the best years of my life. Focus on there laughter, on there spontaneity, on there embrace of the joy of the universe. They teach us wonderful lessons on living lifeand experiencing joy.
Praying for you,
Roseann

[trish]

Thanks so much for the kind words. I will keep what you said in mind. Have a great day.

[2stop]

Sending {{HUGS}} and {{PRAYERS}} your way!!!!!!!!!!!!
You can do this, Trish, I believe in you.

Many hugs and hope too,
Tammie

[Paulie]

Ditto to what Tammie said ...and more (((hugs))).

We are here if you need us.

[IF ME GAL]

It is 8pm I thought about you today at work and remembered you in words of prayer. i hope your day wasn't too hard and that you sleep well tonight,
God BlessYou and your little gifts from God.
RoseAnn

[myles1]

I stopped drinking and using when my son was 4 years old. Best thing I've ever done. You'll appreciate your kids so much more.

Ngaire

[margo]

Trish - sending a special prayer your way. Have faith in believe in yourself. You CAN do it!

Love and hugs.

[IF ME GAL]

It is a beautiful day today Sun, Blue Skies, Flowers blooming. I will pray for you today and Hope that you can see God all around you and that supports through these hard times. Hugs and Love,
Roseann

[2stop]

Hey Trish, I am still praying for you hon. Just remember we're here for you--holding your hand the whole way!!! We love ya girl!

Many hugs and hope too,
Tammie

[Paulie]

(((Trish)))

[trish]

Thank-you so much for thinking about me. It makes a person feel wanted. Today was actually my last dose...so I don't have to worry about the problems till tommorow. Although I haven't been able to sleep for a week because I know that this day was coming all too soon.
I Closed up all issues that were pending except for some minor ones that I can deal with. All kids went to the doctor/dental for checkups to make sure everything is alright with them. I also am following up with my physician because I have a infection that I cannot kick because of my immune system being low at this time. Saw school counselors, teachers and had evaluations for some of the kids who needed it. Bought alot of outdoor toys to keep these guys somewhat busy while I am held up with the withdrawal.
My clinic ended up giving me several bottles to take home with me just in case I cannot handle this detox. Week-ends are not a good time at the methadone clinics because of limited staff. So they cared enough to try and help me as best as they could.
If I don't need them....I just bring them back the day I see my counselor as an out-patient. Which is 4 sessions over one month.
I am confident I don't need to drink them. I am going to do this if it kills me.
My kids get out of school in 12 days from now and my time is running out. I just hope my system can take the jolt.
Anyway thanks again.

[trish]

Thank-you all so much for your ongoing support. The best thing I did is to stumble upon this site. You guys are great.

[Paulie]

You did not stumble here my friend....it was not an accident

[trish]

Your right. Things don't ever happen for no reason. This is a way to help guide me through this damn illness.

[Paulie]

How are you doing this morning Trish???

I was thinking about you

[2stop]

Where are ya Trish? Been looking for ya! I am praying for you hon! Just grab hold of all our hands and we'll walk with ya' girlfriend, I know you are must be feeling a bit rough by now and scared and I just wanted to check in with ya and let you know I believe in you and I care for your pain, if you ever need me I am here!! Maybe get someone to watch the kiddo's awhile and go soak in the tub, or listen to some relaxing music and do some deep breathing, just anything that relaxes you---give yourself lots of TLC, and I will check on you tomorrow!!


Many hugs and hope too,
Tammie


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[trish]

Your post gave me the chills. Everytime I read them I feel very good inside. Thanks for all of your support.
Well, I am starting to feel slight withdrawals. The sneezing and fatique mostly. I know more is coming. Uh-Oh...! Hold on a minute..."child sleep walking."
Ok, I am back. God that boy scares me. Never remembers waking up!!
Anyhow it's only the second day without the meds. I still have to deal all week long. Not to mention that I have meetings with the board of education regarding the kids.
Trying to get through this....It just sucks not being able to do my everyday things without struggling. You know the deal....cooking, laundry, sweeping, mopping. All that fun stuff.
I am a very active person so this fatique drives me insane.
I gotta run Tammie I will hopefully be online later or tommorow. Thanks again.

[trish]

I am here...Sneezing my a** off, but alive. It's hasn't been anything too powerful yet. But I know better than to tempt fate.
Mornings are going to be the toughest. That's when I was always medicated. I can deal with no sleeping because, I only slept 4 or 5 hours a night prior to the detox. It's rough sleeping with so many people in my house. Doors banging, music going, boys wrestling. My husband has been a bit of help yesterday. I did the housework like always and just had him do more for the boys. I was happy to have made it through the first day. Coming up on the second day in 20 years that I have not been medicated. God that is a long, long time. Half my life Pauline was wasted away on drugs. Now I have to rebuild it. But I am anxious to get my life back.
Something very strange happened to me yesterday....While growing up, I was ambidextrous. When I started using drugs, I completely stopped using my left hand for simple tasks. Now I am favoring that hand again. I found that very strange. I guess you could say the "Old Me" is coming back.
What do you think?? Anyway...I gotta run and change my shirt..it is soaked again.
I am hanging on, just waiting the end of the week to come!!

[2stop]

God bless you girl, I really feel for ya with all the kids and everything, and I know what ya mean by the 20 years always being drugged, stoned or drunk, it's very scary but in a way exciting too, you know? Just take it minute by minute, hour by hour and slowly you will adjust and start to feel so much better!! I'll check on you tomorrow sweetie!

Many hugs and hope too,
Tammie

[Paulie]

Hey Trish -

You are doing great, I know it may not feel like it but you are, just take today real slow and don't over do it, rest, your body needs it.

That thing about favoring your left hand....weird, who knows what we do to the body with the garbage that we put in it. I used drugs for oer 15 years, I understand what you are saying...and I can make you a sober promise right now. You will like you, when all this crap is over, I promise you that!!!!

Take today slow my friend and like I told you before - when you get that feeling of nausea that comes over you....squeeze my hand tight as you can, I will be right there with you! WE all are right there with you!

We are here, check in with us when you can, we are all praying for you!

[IF ME GAL]

Hi, Trish,
You have just brighten my day and helped me to feel stronger in my resolve to stay sober. God Bless you and your family. You are doing GREAT. Sending lots of Love.
Roseann

[trish]

Tammie, Pauline, Roseann...
I really love you guys. With the exception of the kids....I am always alone. Ever since I started browsing these boards I have become a more confident person. Having that shoulder to cry on is a godsend.
The withdrawals have not been too bad yet. That's only because the meds really don't let you have it until the 3rd to 5th day. Then it leaves your body and your like OMG what the hell happened.
I know when that time comes I am going to be in hell!
If I could get rid of this sinisitus problem and "My Friend" I think it would be a bit better. Having several things going on in the body at the same time is troublesome.
Oh well girls, let me run because I have to go get the kids up for school. Wish me luck tonight.....For I will come face to face with the demons.
:devil2:

[2stop]

{{{TRISH}}}

So glad you're hangin in there girl, I know you are scared, boy howdy IT IS SCARY, but YOU ARE GOING TO MAKE IT and you'll never ever have to go through it again! Won't that be cool???!! Never again-one time and it's over, that's what I pump myself up with, I don't know if it helps ya but it kinda encourages me at times. So be extra nice to yourself today, pamper yourself a bit, pray, deep breathing and remember we are here holding your hand the entire time!! Love ya hon keep the faith!!!


Many hugs and hope too,
Tammie