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SkyIsFalling42 · 06-10-2003, 11:35 AM

This situation with my grandkids is so hard for me to accept. It is like someone told me I have to swallow my car and the only way I wouldnt have to swallow my car is if I can turn into a toad. I cant do either one, I feel so helpless. I keep reminding myself to turn it over to God..but then I think..what if this is God's will?
Ive been having dreams almost every night that wake me up and linger on for a while, they are upsetting. I dreamed the DHS called, I ran downstairs and listened to the message-it said that if I wanted to see my grandkids I needed to call them back before 8:00 am, I looked at the clock and it was almost 10 after 8. It was too late to call back. I dream that the phone is ringing through the night or someone is pounding on my door..I think the pounding on the door is my fear for my daughter..we were woke up many times in the night when I was young..the police for my brother. I am struglling so hard to get through this.

Love in spirit
Sky

2stop · 06-10-2003, 12:12 PM

{{SKY}}

I am praying for you, girl. Know you're in my thoughts today.

Hugz,
Tammie

bikerprincess · 06-10-2003, 12:43 PM

You sometimes cannot see the big picture through the pain, but it will all work out. My prayers are with you sister.

Anne

Paulie · 06-10-2003, 12:53 PM

(((Sky)))

Acceptance is so hard sometimes. Have faith that they will be taken care of.

You and your family are in my prayers also!!!

SkyIsFalling42 · 06-10-2003, 06:06 PM

Thanks so much for the support all my sisters...I just feel like im screeming inside sometimes...its like this is a terrible, terrible nightmare, I see their little faces in my mind, it seems so unreal to me that their mom and dad GAVE them away!!!!!! How do you give away your kids???? Its not a house, a car, a thing, it is your kids!!! My god, I cant believe it, still, I cant believe it. I can understand giving away your child at birth, if it is best for your child...I cant understand giving away your kids when you have known them, have memories with them. I love them so much...God im feeling like the paoin of this is going to kill me again..ive been trying so hard to think positive,,today the pain is so painful. I would die for my kids, if I needed to, I love them..I cant believe and understand this...what it will do to my grandkids to know that they were given away by people that they loved and knew???
Im sorry to be so negative today ladies..my feelings are overwhelming me about this.

Love in spirit
Sky <~~~~crying, tears rolling, broken heart

2stop · 06-10-2003, 06:14 PM

{{{{{HUGS}}}}} for you Sky, I am praying for you.

Hugz,
Tammie

06-10-2003, 11:35 AM	#1 (permalink)
SkyIsFalling42 Big kitty nose hugs Join Date: May 2003 Location: Center of The World Posts: 1,261	Accept the unacceptable... This situation with my grandkids is so hard for me to accept. It is like someone told me I have to swallow my car and the only way I wouldnt have to swallow my car is if I can turn into a toad. I cant do either one, I feel so helpless. I keep reminding myself to turn it over to God..but then I think..what if this is God's will? Ive been having dreams almost every night that wake me up and linger on for a while, they are upsetting. I dreamed the DHS called, I ran downstairs and listened to the message-it said that if I wanted to see my grandkids I needed to call them back before 8:00 am, I looked at the clock and it was almost 10 after 8. It was too late to call back. I dream that the phone is ringing through the night or someone is pounding on my door..I think the pounding on the door is my fear for my daughter..we were woke up many times in the night when I was young..the police for my brother. I am struglling so hard to get through this. Love in spirit Sky __________________ Love In Spirit, Sky Where my heart is....... http://Writing.Com/authors/skyisfalling02 "Never Give In, Never Give In, Never Give In, Never, Never, Never." ~~Sir Winston Churchill~~

06-10-2003, 12:43 PM	#3 (permalink)
bikerprincess Member Join Date: Oct 2002 Location: St Louis, MO Posts: 189	Hang in there Sky You sometimes cannot see the big picture through the pain, but it will all work out. My prayers are with you sister. Anne

06-10-2003, 12:53 PM	#4 (permalink)
Paulie It is what it is!!! Join Date: Feb 2002 Location: Sobriety Posts: 5,785	(((Sky))) Acceptance is so hard sometimes. Have faith that they will be taken care of. You and your family are in my prayers also!!! __________________ I know more about how to live than I did yesterday, but not as much as I'll know tomorrow. Today, Ill learn something new~JFT, 1/27/06 The difference between a good day and a bad day, is about 2 days~Ann of SR

06-10-2003, 06:06 PM	#5 (permalink)
SkyIsFalling42 Big kitty nose hugs Join Date: May 2003 Location: Center of The World Posts: 1,261	Thanks so much for the support all my sisters...I just feel like im screeming inside sometimes...its like this is a terrible, terrible nightmare, I see their little faces in my mind, it seems so unreal to me that their mom and dad GAVE them away!!!!!! How do you give away your kids???? Its not a house, a car, a thing, it is your kids!!! My god, I cant believe it, still, I cant believe it. I can understand giving away your child at birth, if it is best for your child...I cant understand giving away your kids when you have known them, have memories with them. I love them so much...God im feeling like the paoin of this is going to kill me again..ive been trying so hard to think positive,,today the pain is so painful. I would die for my kids, if I needed to, I love them..I cant believe and understand this...what it will do to my grandkids to know that they were given away by people that they loved and knew??? Im sorry to be so negative today ladies..my feelings are overwhelming me about this. Love in spirit Sky <~~~~crying, tears rolling, broken heart __________________ Love In Spirit, Sky Where my heart is....... http://Writing.Com/authors/skyisfalling02 "Never Give In, Never Give In, Never Give In, Never, Never, Never." ~~Sir Winston Churchill~~

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06-10-2003, 12:12 PM	#2 (permalink)
2stop ~Author of My Life~ Join Date: May 2003 Location: Doing what I thought I couldn't.... Posts: 4,794	{{SKY}} I am praying for you, girl. Know you're in my thoughts today. Hugz, Tammie

06-10-2003, 06:14 PM	#6 (permalink)
2stop ~Author of My Life~ Join Date: May 2003 Location: Doing what I thought I couldn't.... Posts: 4,794	{{{{{HUGS}}}}} for you Sky, I am praying for you. Hugz, Tammie

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