Feelings

[nandm]

Thought you might need a hug...and I thought you were worth giving one to although I am not even someone who is comfortable with hugs because of my childhood experiences. I know I do when I start having childhood stuff come up. It is amazing the emotional scars that such leaves on a person that never seem to go completely away. I have found that even though I thought I had come to terms with it, I have not. I truely wish that the molesters and pedophiles could experience the lifelong pain and scars that they create for the people they molest.

You are in my thoughts and prayers during this difficult time. I am truely glad to see you back on the boards. I missed your posts.

Judith

[Fluttering]

Nandm

Thank You so very much. I was needing a hug

I did more writing last night and a couple folks, including my sponosr called last night and I was able to share my writing thoughts with her. I also spent a great deal more time in prayer both last night and agin this morning.

Those scars are sneaky ...I did spend a great deal of time and energy [blood, sweat & tears working on all that stuff and thougth I was ok..Yet there are times they do sneak up and show me there is always work to do. I have grown enough to have forgiven those men...one being my father...and I do believe God will deal with them anc they will have to answer for their actions...That in itself is a tremendous growth sign for me..as my hurt and anger was such I had wanted to make them pay. such a freedom to be free of those horrible negative desires. Today I can love my father and the other men.

The other thing that ocured as a result of what I learned from that work is that I am more able to be there for other young ones that are prey to that sickness. Several months ago I did call CHF for a young gal and she is now in a safer place. Fortunately today the young folks have agencies that do work very hard at ensuring their safety.

Hope everyone has a great day today. Hugs to all