A first in many, many years

[liveweyerd]

I had a joyous Thanksgiving! This is a very hard anniversary to me...but my sis put together 4 generations of our family in Orlando, and the grandson I am so attached to but so far away, well we sort of renewed our bond, and I got to chat with my niece and nephew about my deceased son, Eric, with funny memories etc.....first time I have been able to do that with my family. But as children they grew up close together.

There were some bumps in the road, but I was more able to detach and just observe the dynamics.I listen to alot of criticism and jibes about my supposed illness. But I just kept in mind, that I knew my truth whether they understood it or not.

I got to see for the first time the new 4 month old grandson.

My mother raised her hand as if to backhand the 6 yr old while I was in a c-store.
When I came out he was crying and told me what happened and I was able to say to him that I would be scared and not like that either, that no we don't do that.
Something I have never been able to say on my own behalf, but in this case I was able to say those kinds of things and also model a loving approach. Then the kicker, I heard about later from nephew....mom made a negative comment based on someone coming out of the store based on their hair color and my lil Noah piped up, "Don't judge"

In the end there was a whole lot of dynamic and a big switch....instead of me and us feeling super uncomfortable, there was the group of us next generations, and she felt uncomfortable. She became so anxious, they changed the travel plans to get her home earlier. She has medications to help, but won't take them.

However, my sis went out of her way to make mom queen of the day as her anniversary was also over the holiday weekend. My niece who is training to do "Hollywood" make up gave her a makeover making her look younger and sis had a royal dress (costume) with a crown. I got to tell my Mom how pretty she looked.

My Dr's words of wisdom today....LOL If you have to eat a frog, don't stare at him too long. And if you have to eat two frogs, eat the ugliest one first.
This was applicable as we were discussing my procrastination. I laughed myself silly.

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:rof Hi Live

I need that chuckel today... Thank you!! LOL

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