Hey Live

[Paulie]

Let us know how the job is going when you have time.

hugs to you!!

[liveweyerd]

Hmmm... it is taking uo my time.
I don't really know what to say about it. Last night I had nightmares. It is wrong and unethical, to me. I have spent the last ten years in the working class. where one works hard for the money one earns; in a wave of the magic wand I am a "professional" and am overpaid and treated with all kinds of respect, and nothing is expected of me. I haven't produced a thing yet and have been paid more in 6 days than I am used to making in more than 6 weeks.
This isn't fair to me..for all the years I have worked so hard, and for all my friends who put in their best efforts to make ends meet.

I guess I am not a very good capitalist.

But don't worry. I am not going to quit.

...they assure me...that I will get more than busy enough. I am sure. Nevertheless, hmmm..that gut instinct about what is expected of one when seen one way rather than another.....

shrug????

live

[Paulie]

Give it time my friend, you are learning...and they must think you are worth what you are being paid, right...right!!!!

I am proud of you. and you should be proud of you to.

Do you enjoy it??? I hope so!!!!

(am waaaaaaaaaay not worth, what I am paid...LOL - we are self employed LOL!and I pay myself what I want)

[myles1]

What are you doing Live?

Ngaire

[liveweyerd]

Myles, Pauline friends,
I got paid for 6 days of nothing but schmoozing...which did not set well with me.

But, after, six days...I still haven't been given anything to do..but I am feeling better about it. I can see that I will get busy and engaged in the process.

I was hired in as a specialized contractor to help do the preliminary paperwork part of putting in a natural gas pipeline. I am my sister's assistant. She is a land titles dept supervisor. I am called a documents specialist. That means I can read tax maps, legal real estate descripions, stuff like that.

I guess I am just feeling the injustice of our system. One day I was worth little more than minimum wage at the bottom of the food chain, and a few days later, voila***people making 12 times more than my previous bosses are worried about what I think, feel and that I am not offended...a whole different social chain.

It is so false. I am the same person I was. I am not worth more or less.
But I sure am treated differently.
I feel badly for the road I traveled without respect and regard and all my very good friends who are working very hard,. are as smart as me, as good as me...often better...and I am being paid 3 or 4 times more and treated so well, doing nothing different than they...indeed less.

This truly is about who you know at the right time.

It doesn't in reality have anything to do with my deserving it more or being worth more.
But reality treats me as if that were the case.

This is an unjust world.

I mus remember, that I also did not deserve many of the bad things that happened in my life.

At least now, I have tools ...not to make a difference in the world, but to help mysef and a few others I know who really do deserve it.

????

live

[Paulie]

I mus remember, that I also did not deserve many of the bad things that happened in my life.

At least now, I have tools ...not to make a difference in the world, but to help mysef and a few others I know who really do deserve it.


Live -
You said that so well!!
but helping yourself and a few others, does make a difference in the world.
God puts us where we need to be when we let him...and you are where? Where you should/need to be.
I was having a conversation with a wise wise woman and she said that I should not feel quilty for all I have accomplished in recovery even though I may have more than someone else (or Not) because God gives me what I deserve when I live a clean respectul life, and I say the same to you my dear friend.

I am so proud of you!!!