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FoundAmy11 · 09-19-2007, 12:51 PM

I'm Amy and I'm addict. My life changed after I tried crack for first time 8 years ago. I've got a nice family who don't know about drugs at all until they went through with my crap. Lots of stories to tell. I am really tired of this and I really want to get out. I don't like going to NA meetings because I am Deaf. I just sit there and am not able to understand a thing or share my story. I am hoping this can be my "meetings" and I'm trying to find someone who I could talk when i have urges. I have 3 children and am pregnant with 4th child. My husband doesn't use drugs. I used during 2 past pregnancies and thank God they came out O.K. This pregnancy I really want to be clean. I've tried pulling myself out so often. It's hard. I haven't used crack for a year but i take like 10 ultram every 4 hours. The pattern is still there. I just had relapse two days ago with crack. How does this work? Is there any chat line or meeting online?
Thanks!!

**51anna** · 09-19-2007, 02:46 PM

Hi Amy,

Welcome!

This is a great place to come for support. There is always someone around to talk to. Our chat is down at the moment, so there are no online meetings. But, you can PM me anytime, if you want to talk. I am always around.

Paulie · 09-19-2007, 03:06 PM

Congrats to you for making the decision to get sober. You can do this, you are NOT alone!!!

Great job not using crack. I would suggest that you talk to your dr about stopping the ultram, especially being pregnant. You can do this, support is here you have made the first step by reaching out.

**Rowan** · 09-19-2007, 03:23 PM

Hi Amy,

Welcome. I'm glad you're here. I hope you keep posting, and feel free to PM me anytime, too.

Rowan

***indigo*** · 09-20-2007, 03:51 AM

Welcome to the women's forum and I'm glad to hear that you're getting clean again, I agree with Paulie about seeing a doctor about the ultram. Congratulations on your pregnancy by the way.

TryingisDying · 09-20-2007, 06:44 AM

Welcome ((((HUGS)))))

Fluttering · 09-20-2007, 08:56 AM

Hi found

Welcome...so glad you are here.
A suggestion that may help..A National Organization "The Independent Living Center may help by providing a signer for you for the face to face meetings.
ILC's are designed and managed to aid individuals and provide resources to enhance our lives in the community.
online meetings are fantastic...and thnere is something special about the face to face meetings..It is there we get to learn to look others in the eye and see the hope we desperately seek. Those connections are so importrtant for the support, love and encouragement for the day to day struggles that seem hige, especially in early revoery.

I am so happy you found us and are joining us on this journey. There are only a few meetings I can get to as a result of my disability..So I combine online recovery with the cherished few meetings I am able to attend.

Hugs to you!!!

09-19-2007, 12:51 PM	#1 (permalink)
FoundAmy11 Member Join Date: Sep 2007 Location: Ruther Glen, VA Posts: 1	White flag up I'm Amy and I'm addict. My life changed after I tried crack for first time 8 years ago. I've got a nice family who don't know about drugs at all until they went through with my crap. Lots of stories to tell. I am really tired of this and I really want to get out. I don't like going to NA meetings because I am Deaf. I just sit there and am not able to understand a thing or share my story. I am hoping this can be my "meetings" and I'm trying to find someone who I could talk when i have urges. I have 3 children and am pregnant with 4th child. My husband doesn't use drugs. I used during 2 past pregnancies and thank God they came out O.K. This pregnancy I really want to be clean. I've tried pulling myself out so often. It's hard. I haven't used crack for a year but i take like 10 ultram every 4 hours. The pattern is still there. I just had relapse two days ago with crack. How does this work? Is there any chat line or meeting online? Thanks!!

09-19-2007, 02:46 PM	#2 (permalink)
51anna Forum Leader Join Date: Aug 2003 Location: Dancing in the Light Posts: 11,160	Hi Amy, Welcome! This is a great place to come for support. There is always someone around to talk to. Our chat is down at the moment, so there are no online meetings. But, you can PM me anytime, if you want to talk. I am always around. __________________ Anna "I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel. Maya Angelou

09-19-2007, 03:06 PM	#3 (permalink)
Paulie It is what it is!!! Join Date: Feb 2002 Location: Sobriety Posts: 5,525	Congrats to you for making the decision to get sober. You can do this, you are NOT alone!!! Great job not using crack. I would suggest that you talk to your dr about stopping the ultram, especially being pregnant. You can do this, support is here you have made the first step by reaching out. __________________ I know more about how to live than I did yesterday, but not as much as I'll know tomorrow. Today, Ill learn something new~JFT, 1/27/06 The difference between a good day and a bad day, is about 2 days~Ann of SR

09-19-2007, 03:23 PM	#4 (permalink)
Rowan Lucky Cracka Join Date: Dec 2003 Location: Ontario, Canada Posts: 9,021 Blog Entries: 1	Hi Amy, Welcome. I'm glad you're here. I hope you keep posting, and feel free to PM me anytime, too. Rowan __________________ *Christmas is cancelled.*

09-20-2007, 03:51 AM	#5 (permalink)
*indigo* Community Greeter Join Date: Nov 2003 Location: Mid-Life Express Posts: 9,146	Welcome to the women's forum and I'm glad to hear that you're getting clean again, I agree with Paulie about seeing a doctor about the ultram. Congratulations on your pregnancy by the way. __________________ When you judge others, you do not define them, you define yourself." Namasté

09-20-2007, 06:44 AM	#6 (permalink)
TryingisDying Getting out of my own way! Join Date: Feb 2007 Location: Detroit ... but my heart is in Cali Posts: 209	Welcome ((((HUGS))))) __________________ **************************************** "Nothing changes..Nothing changes" ~Do Daily~ Am I meditating and getting closer to God? Am I eating and exercising correctly? Am I keeping up on my obligations and commitments? What am I doing for my pleasure?

09-20-2007, 08:56 AM	#7 (permalink)
Fluttering Member Join Date: Feb 2007 Location: Fluttering About Posts: 2,710	Hi found Welcome...so glad you are here. A suggestion that may help..A National Organization "The Independent Living Center may help by providing a signer for you for the face to face meetings. ILC's are designed and managed to aid individuals and provide resources to enhance our lives in the community. online meetings are fantastic...and thnere is something special about the face to face meetings..It is there we get to learn to look others in the eye and see the hope we desperately seek. Those connections are so importrtant for the support, love and encouragement for the day to day struggles that seem hige, especially in early revoery. I am so happy you found us and are joining us on this journey. There are only a few meetings I can get to as a result of my disability..So I combine online recovery with the cherished few meetings I am able to attend. Hugs to you!!! __________________

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