After 21 years

[Praise7]

I am triggered. Nothing has tempted me to drink since I got sober May 10, 1996.

However, I just found out that my husband, who I thought got sober about the same time as me, has been drinking vanilla extract.

I knew he would have periods of acting strange. I thought I smelled it on his breath but he laughed at me.

We are having a very rough time now with a very sick baby. He says it was that but I truly think it started long ago.

Now I want to drink. I want to drink more than anything. My sobriety date rolles around every year and no one even knows so who would care if I took a drink to ease the pain right now?

I am turmoil. I am angry at him. I am angry at me.

[Rowan]

Welcome.

Thank goodness that you posted, and didn't drink.

I'd be mad too, but just because he blew his sobriety, doesn't mean you need to join him. I suggest you step up your recovery, and stay on track.

I'm sorry that you have a sick baby as well, and hope that it isn't serious.

Do you go to meetings?

Please keep posting, and vent here all you like. Other women will be along shortly to welcome you. Hang on to your precious sobriety, 21 years is a miracle

Rowan

[CarolD]

Hello and Welcome!

Congratulations on your sober years!

I am sorry to see this situation and
do hope you stay in sobriety during
this painful time.

You know your sick baby needs you to
havve a clear mind....and that is your
first priority.

(+) (+) (+)
Mega Hugs and Prayers coming your way

[indigo]

Welcome and congratulations on all your clean time, I agree with the others, don't let it entice you in, you are worth more than that and as you say you have a sick baby. Take care of you and the baby...that's what matters.

hugs indigo

[namommy]

Praise,

Welcome to SR. Remember, YOU would know if you drank, and you are the only one who has to lay your head down on your pillow at night and try to go to sleep with a clear concience.

Your baby needs you, and you can set the example for your husband.

Keep posting and stay sober.

[Paulie]

I was going to say exactly what NAMommy said. YOU would know and your HIGHER POWER would know (that is what my sponsor always says to me)

Just keep in the front of your mine that today you have a choice....and choose not to drink.

[Fluttering]

Originally Posted by Praise7

I am triggered. Nothing has tempted me to drink since I got sober May 10, 1996.

However, I just found out that my husband, who I thought got sober about the Now I want to drink. I want to drink more than anything. My sobriety date rolles around every year and no one even knows so who would care if I took a drink to ease the pain right now?

I am turmoil. I am angry at him. I am angry at me.

his recovery has nothing to do with yours.. that sounds kind a strange but it really is true...think about it...Didn't you do this deal for yourself? If it was for the marriage...yuo might want to reconcider and renew your commitment.
He is not worth drinking over...The time and work you put into your recovery is not worth chucking it for him

be angry...that's ok...but do not chuck it all over him. Stick AROUND AND SHOW WHO IS THE STRONGER SEX...I DARE YOU
you are worth it to fight for your recovery and your sobriety