New avatar...New week

[Paulie]

Hello ladies -

Today is Monday and I spent alot of time this weekend praying for peace within myself. Praying to just let God take care of things. I know it he can do it without my help, really I do, I just forget sometimes.

tony is going to be okay and my cousin was released from jail on Friday night (go figure) but he has not called me, so there you go.

thank you ladies for listening to me whine and for reminding me to just let it. I am turning in my save the world cape and I am not slip sliding all over things so the avatar slider is gone. Check out my beautiful tulips!!! Is is rainy and storming here, very odd for the end of April, but my neighbors tulips are blooming beautifully and they inspired me!

thank you ladies again for giving me a place to whine.

[margo]

Just wanted to send you some hugs, so here ya go - (((((Pauline)))))

The tulips are beautiful, although I'll miss your sliding girl - she was so cute and made me smile every time I saw her.

Love and hugs.

[Paulie]

Thanks Margo, I thought she was cute to...but she really made me feel off balance, and I just didn't want to start my week that way!!! Ya know?

(((Margo)))back to you and Happy Monday!!!!

[EvrWideninHeart]

Hi everyone,

I'm coming and going, not perfectly reliable member yet... just wanted to say "hello"

[Paulie]

Hi EvrwideninHeart -

And Welcome, glad you joined us and we hope to see more of you!

[Juls]

Pauline,

Your tulips are beautiful, as well as your spirit. I think the learning to let go lessons are some of the hardest, yet when I finally do I feel so much better. It's a process that I find is difficult to try and explain to someone how to do. It's an internal process that takes alot of practice.

One technique I used was visualizing the problem, or situation I was trying to let go of inside a balloon, and visualizing myself letting go of the balloon and watching it drift away. I don't know if this makes any sense to anyone else, but I'm big on visualization stuff.

I don't think I've ever hear you whine Pauline, and our forum is a place to come to and talk about the situations in our life, so we can gain insight. So there's no need to apologize for anything. when you talk out situations in your life, it gives me insight into situations that I'm dealing with in my life, so keep venting allright? LOL

Juls

[Paulie]

Thanks Juls (((this is for you))) -

Learning to let go takes on going practice. I was just talking to my sponsor and I told here that there was a few days last week that I put my save the world cape on but everytime I tried to fly I kept hitting the window, finally after a few days of that I said to myself "hello, take the darn cape off and relax" LOL! sounds funny, but I had to go through it you know.

My aunt is going to alanon and she loves it and that is agood thing. My cousin will find his way when he is ready. And my sister, well, we keep praying for her health. She is my best friend and I cherish that.

The visuliazation things is great Juls, I am going to try that! I can think of a few people I would like to put in a balloon and let it go -OOPS LOL!!

[EvrWideninHeart]

I feel like I'm such a taker when I come here and have nothing to offer, but those are some good words about letting go that I definitely need to hear today. *sigh*

I don't know why I always think I can take charge... God laughs I'm sure.

But He loves me anyway, I know that.

[Paulie]

Just posting adds something..believe me. Just understanding and hearing someone elses words of experience helps us all.

We are glad you are here.

[EvrWideninHeart]

I must add that prayer is usually my second or third thought after
"Why is God doing this to me?" And then I pray and ask for help, all the while not believing that God will help me. But I keep praying and the peace comes

when I'm really suffering, a calm heart is often the biggest blessing

[zoomer]

hey you guys I'm posting again in the WRF, iv been off to the AA boards for a little while. I'm at the point right now where i want to go ad be constructive asfar as my mother's care. I'm sick of my heart being on two coasts. I should have flown out many times, but I swear if it's not one thing it's another thing keeping rooted to the East coast. I'm not sure any more if it was my thinking of my husband's non thinking and passive waysthat has kept me away so long from my mother. It's all so mixed up and confusing. I remember being so pissed off because I got pregnant and I love my son so much,but I knew it would cause a conflict between my mother's care. Trust me when I say my husband said "opps, sorry" and I got pregat in 30 seconds. Iv come to accept my life and the responcibilties of my kids,but what about my mother! I can't pray real well, not do I think it will help,but I'll try. My mind tells me to go to my mother and le the chips fall where they may. I feel like I'm stuck in thepostition yet again to chose between peope I love and I hate it. OK, that's where i'm at sort of like Paulines sliding girl. Any suggestions wil b good. My mother is in the hospital and I have yet to talk to her doctor,but she does not have ore than I'm sure 3 to 6 month to live and I'm her only daughter.
Love Zoomer

[Paulie]

Hey zoomer -

It is sad that you feel you have to choose between people that you love, but why do you have to choose. Can't you go see you mom and then come back home? why does it have to be one or the other.

I feel that you can't regain time lost with a loved one. The choice is yours of course, and I offered my unsolicitd opinion.

love and hugs to you zoom.
Pauly

[zoomer]

Hey ya P,that is why I'm so messed up besides my drinking! Iv been made to chose all my life and Ican do it all the people in my life just need to lower their exspectations of me! Thank you for being here for me!
Love Zooms