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I see, from your last post, that you have...but relapse isn't part of recovery. Relapse is returning to active using. Recovery begins by not using, continues when you're willing to do the work to keep from using. What are you doing to try to stay clean? Most of us found we couldn't do it alone. Peace & Love, Sugah
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Because others told me knew I could choose to go back out and try it some more. However, I knew from the moment the fog cleared, I did not have another come back--so I chose to remain. Came within a hair's width of not making it through the doors. Tried doing it on my own and the only thing that happened was I hit a harder deeper bottom. Matter of fact --I crashed through the bottom. I find it really is true--it is much harder to remain sober than it is to get sober and I chose to accept the challenge. this program is easy but it certainly isn't for wimps. No offense implied--Stated with love and from my own experience, strength, and hope. Today my problem is living sober.
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Thanks for the post it's an interesting topic I too relapsed at first but I didn't give up and started over like you are doing. indigo
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I have relapsed, but not on booze...on chocolate, sugar, people, and rotten "death spiral" thinking. What has helped to bring me back from being a Walking Wounded to the land of the living was remembering some of those early days in sobriety and recovery, and remembering the prayers, the feelings, the gratitude (even when I was only faking it to make it kind of gratitude)...and giving myself "one more try." What hurt the most about the relapse was realizing that even after (X) time in recovery (a shame-based statement, I now realize) I still have all these character defects, waiting to creep out when I let down my guard. That's a hard reality pill (for me) to swallow.
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Plaese do not shoot the messenger but I have bad news [after it is walked thru--it can be ALL GOOD]. It is also possible to relapse emotionally. Thatis to say--no drink, no pills or other analgesics, but the emotional head of the "Three Headed Dragon" can rear it's FUGLY head. Been there/am there/arriving on the other side--Hell of a trip--However hanging in there and picking up the kit of Spiritual Tools, I have come out conciderably stronger. After this last bout, what frieghtens me sh___less is the possibility of not coming out the other side becasue of my circumstances. Will try to post more of that latedr. For now suffice it to say..It is essential to remain alert, do all that is suggested to the best of your ability, remain connected to both your HP and to your support system.
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