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rightroad4me · 02-23-2007, 09:01 AM

Hi,

I am on my first day of recovery. I stay at home with my kids. I do not drink around my kids. my problem was that I would go out at night after the kids went to bed(my husband would be here of course) and go to the bars looking...for what I have no idea?? But I always hate myself in the morning and I know that for me..I cant drink even one. Thanks for listening. It helps to get all that stuff out!!

**51anna** · 02-23-2007, 09:13 AM

Hi and I'm glad you found us.

I spent a lot of time searching too, not in bars, but always searching. When I stopped drinking, I realized that what I was searching for was me, my soul. This is a great place to come for support and I hope you keep posting.

rightroad4me · 02-23-2007, 09:26 AM

My husband is not too impressed with me right now and I dont blame him. I dont cheat and never have or would, but he gets nervous that I drive while drinking. I dont even like the bars, it seems like I just go w/out thinking it thro. I am so sick of it and I really want to make a clean break today!! My dad is an alcoholic and has been all his life, but he quit cold turkey about 3yrs ago and I want to do that to. I can tell my drinking is starting to put a strain on the marriage and my kids are young but I dont want to be THAT mom. I want to be there for them if I can in every way. Thank s for listening to me vent. I have a feeling I will be doing a lot of that.

NYCGirl · 02-23-2007, 10:58 AM

Hi Right,

Welcome, you have come to a good place, read around, check out the "excerpts from Under the influence thread", there is some good stuff there.

Stop on by the "Any Moms out there" thread in the new comers forum and join in.... see ya around

rightroad4me · 02-23-2007, 11:10 AM

Thanks for the info. I gotta tell you that I feel alot less alone.

Hivemind · 02-23-2007, 11:27 AM

How long/much have you been drinking? You might want to consider a detox, or at least a Dr.'s blessing.

You are not alone, we are all here for you

rightroad4me · 02-23-2007, 12:05 PM

I have been drinking since I was 16 and I am now 26 years old. my brain will tell me after about a week that i want a drink. I am going to have a physical soon with my doctor, so I will be able to talk to her about it. I am already on anti-depressants and I have a HUGE support system of family and friends. Now I also have this forum, I am glad to be able to talk to people that can relate.

Hivemind · 02-23-2007, 12:08 PM

Sounds good, and you can never have too many Friends

**Cynay** · 02-23-2007, 12:15 PM

I just wanted to add my welcome to the others.

It is a brave step you have taken to admitt this is an issue and even more brave that you want to correct it.

I look forward to getting to know you, if you feel yourself slipping come on down to friends and family and get a view of the other side hon.... and dont worry... We love it when we can share.

rightroad4me · 02-23-2007, 12:23 PM

I am afraid to trip up. Its a long long time to say forever and I cant avoid all situations with alcohol. Did any of you lose friends when you stopped drinking? I am so happy that I found this website.
This is off the question....how do you get the picture under your name?

rightroad4me · 02-24-2007, 01:21 PM

Well its my 2nd day sober and I am already stuggling with, what should I do now? It seems like when ever I get bored or stressed or its a weekend, I want a drink. There has got to be something I could do take my mind off this. Does anyone feel this way? Does it ever go away?
Thanks in adbvance to advice.
Malissa

TryingisDying · 02-24-2007, 01:40 PM

Well my mom always says and she has been sober for 26 yrs....get on your hands and knees and humbley (SP) as God to help you!!

rightroad4me · 02-24-2007, 01:46 PM

Makes perfect sense, my dad and mom say the same thing. Thank you for reminding me. Guess i will be doing a lot of that.

TryingisDying · 02-24-2007, 01:49 PM

I think I do it 20 times a day lol...I also have an Ipod that i download alot of recovery things into..so when I am folding laundry or after the kids go to bed I focus on that...i also journal and read recovery things after they are in bed.

rightroad4me · 02-24-2007, 03:49 PM

Why am I shaking. I feel so stressed.

**Rowan** · 02-24-2007, 08:04 PM

Hi Missy,

Just thought I would check in to see how you are doing - I know it's hard, but you can do this. Keep posting here and let us know - there is a lot of support to be found here, and I'm glad you found us.

Rowan

**CarolD** · 02-24-2007, 08:25 PM

Hi and Welcome!

Quote:

Why am I shaking. I feel so stressed.

You are having symptoms of alcohol withdrawal.

It's always a wise move to have an honest talk
with your doctor before quitting.
De toxing is a medical situation.

Sorry you are uncomfortable
Drink water and use hard candy for shakes.
Call your doctor or 911 if you need to.
Be safe

rightroad4me · 02-25-2007, 07:22 AM

I just kept busy..very busy ariound the house. I found that having a can of diet soda in my hand was very helpful..Thank you for writing to me. Will the w/drawels stop eventually?

TryingisDying · 02-25-2007, 10:50 AM

Im not sure how much you drank on a daily basis....Alcohol is the only drug that you can die from in detox. But yes they will go away...Hang in there!

rightroad4me · 02-25-2007, 01:02 PM

I didnt drink on a daily basis. I drank about a 12 pack at a time once a week. I am more of a binge drinker and my urge comes from stress and boredom.. I am very much into watching live bands and I have friends in bands and they always play at bars. I get very social when I drink. I feel the urge to be around people. I stay at home with my kids so this was my release. But now I need to find a new realease. I think my liver is still ok. Hopefully it will repair itself in time. Maybe the urges will go away.

**Rowan** · 02-25-2007, 01:50 PM

I was a binge drinker, too. The compulsion to drink eventually goes away, but for me, I had to find something to replace it - that's where AA came in for me. There I found people who understood me, and who helped me understand that I was an alcoholic. Today, I can't imagine going back to that life. Alcohol was a way for me to 'numb out', or not feel. Now I've got more feelings than I know what to do with, but I know that they won't kill me (it just feels that way sometimes).
Glad you're taking it one day at a time, Missy. SO glad that you are here.

Rowan

rightroad4me · 02-25-2007, 03:34 PM

Where I live there is a lot of people who do the same thing and a lot of them are my friends so, I have to figure a way to deal with that. I dont feel my relationship will last with some of them and I accept that tho its hard changing your whole life style. I used to aquate alcohol to fun.

**Rowan** · 02-25-2007, 04:37 PM

Me too! But, for me, eventually it wasn't fun anymore and they didn't want me around much. I became depressed and teary when I drank, or I would be really manic - felt bulletproof, and took terrible risks - with my life, and others' too (drinking and driving etc).
You may have to stop hanging with your drinking friends for now, but if they are real friends, they will respect your decision to make this important change in your life.

Fluttering · 02-26-2007, 12:00 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by rightroad4me

Where I live there is a lot of people who do the same thing and a lot of them are my friends so, I have to figure a way to deal with that. I dont feel my relationship will last with some of them and I accept that tho its hard changing your whole life style. I used to aquate alcohol to fun.

Hi Missy

It really is a One Day at a Time program and there are going to be some days that are harder than others and on those days it is one moment at a time. You are on the right track with admission of your disease and the need to make changes. Reaching out to us is another very positive move for which took courage and I applaud you for that.

You mentioned you thought your liver was fine--How long did you drink.? I was told by my sponsor to get a physical to be sure. This way you know better how to care for the scared little child you are right now. There will be al kinds of different feelings come and go. Let them. Feelings cannot hurt you --it is how you react o the feelings that is important. And know you are not alone. We are all on this road to Happy Destiy and we help each other along the way. Start readuing in the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous. The first 164 pagesa will give you a great start. Know that there is a difference between reading and studying. Jot down any questions you have or anything you have troub,e understanding--and ask ne of us--We will be glad to help. We do for others what was so freely done for us. Each one of us has been where youa re right now and we know just what you are feeling. So please do not be afraid to ask.
Thank You for joining us.

***indigo*** · 02-26-2007, 09:02 AM

Welcome and glad you found us hope I can be of help to you.

indigo

02-23-2007, 09:01 AM	#1 (permalink)
rightroad4me Member Join Date: Feb 2007 Location: Up North Posts: 14	New path for me starts today. Hi, I am on my first day of recovery. I stay at home with my kids. I do not drink around my kids. my problem was that I would go out at night after the kids went to bed(my husband would be here of course) and go to the bars looking...for what I have no idea?? But I always hate myself in the morning and I know that for me..I cant drink even one. Thanks for listening. It helps to get all that stuff out!!

02-23-2007, 09:13 AM	#2 (permalink)
51anna Forum Leader Join Date: Aug 2003 Location: Dancing in the Light Posts: 11,018	Hi and I'm glad you found us. I spent a lot of time searching too, not in bars, but always searching. When I stopped drinking, I realized that what I was searching for was me, my soul. This is a great place to come for support and I hope you keep posting. __________________ Anna "I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel. Maya Angelou

02-23-2007, 11:10 AM	#5 (permalink)
rightroad4me Member Join Date: Feb 2007 Location: Up North Posts: 14	Thanks Thanks for the info. I gotta tell you that I feel alot less alone.

02-23-2007, 12:15 PM	#9 (permalink)
Cynay Forum Leader Join Date: Apr 2005 Location: Phoenix, AZ Posts: 3,696	I just wanted to add my welcome to the others. It is a brave step you have taken to admitt this is an issue and even more brave that you want to correct it. I look forward to getting to know you, if you feel yourself slipping come on down to friends and family and get a view of the other side hon.... and dont worry... We love it when we can share. __________________ Cynay "Never be bullied into silence. Never allow yourself to be made a victim. Accept no one's definition of your life; define yourself." Harvey Fierstein

02-24-2007, 01:21 PM	#11 (permalink)
rightroad4me Member Join Date: Feb 2007 Location: Up North Posts: 14	Second day sober Well its my 2nd day sober and I am already stuggling with, what should I do now? It seems like when ever I get bored or stressed or its a weekend, I want a drink. There has got to be something I could do take my mind off this. Does anyone feel this way? Does it ever go away? Thanks in adbvance to advice. Malissa __________________ Missy Taking one day at a time.

02-23-2007, 09:26 AM	#3 (permalink)
rightroad4me Member Join Date: Feb 2007 Location: Up North Posts: 14	My husband is not too impressed with me right now and I dont blame him. I dont cheat and never have or would, but he gets nervous that I drive while drinking. I dont even like the bars, it seems like I just go w/out thinking it thro. I am so sick of it and I really want to make a clean break today!! My dad is an alcoholic and has been all his life, but he quit cold turkey about 3yrs ago and I want to do that to. I can tell my drinking is starting to put a strain on the marriage and my kids are young but I dont want to be THAT mom. I want to be there for them if I can in every way. Thank s for listening to me vent. I have a feeling I will be doing a lot of that.

02-23-2007, 10:58 AM	#4 (permalink)
NYCGirl Member Join Date: Jun 2006 Location: Finding out what I have been missing! Posts: 1,013	Hi Right, Welcome, you have come to a good place, read around, check out the "excerpts from Under the influence thread", there is some good stuff there. Stop on by the "Any Moms out there" thread in the new comers forum and join in.... see ya around

02-23-2007, 11:27 AM	#6 (permalink)
Hivemind Member Join Date: Feb 2007 Location: AZ Posts: 28	How long/much have you been drinking? You might want to consider a detox, or at least a Dr.'s blessing. You are not alone, we are all here for you

02-23-2007, 12:05 PM	#7 (permalink)
rightroad4me Member Join Date: Feb 2007 Location: Up North Posts: 14	I have been drinking since I was 16 and I am now 26 years old. my brain will tell me after about a week that i want a drink. I am going to have a physical soon with my doctor, so I will be able to talk to her about it. I am already on anti-depressants and I have a HUGE support system of family and friends. Now I also have this forum, I am glad to be able to talk to people that can relate.

02-23-2007, 12:08 PM	#8 (permalink)
Hivemind Member Join Date: Feb 2007 Location: AZ Posts: 28	Sounds good, and you can never have too many Friends

02-23-2007, 12:23 PM	#10 (permalink)
rightroad4me Member Join Date: Feb 2007 Location: Up North Posts: 14	I am afraid to trip up. Its a long long time to say forever and I cant avoid all situations with alcohol. Did any of you lose friends when you stopped drinking? I am so happy that I found this website. This is off the question....how do you get the picture under your name?

02-24-2007, 01:40 PM	#12 (permalink)
TryingisDying Getting out of my own way! Join Date: Feb 2007 Location: Detroit ... but my heart is in Cali Posts: 209	Well my mom always says and she has been sober for 26 yrs....get on your hands and knees and humbley (SP) as God to help you!! __________________ **************************************** "Nothing changes..Nothing changes" ~Do Daily~ Am I meditating and getting closer to God? Am I eating and exercising correctly? Am I keeping up on my obligations and commitments? What am I doing for my pleasure?

02-24-2007, 01:46 PM	#13 (permalink)
rightroad4me Member Join Date: Feb 2007 Location: Up North Posts: 14	Makes perfect sense, my dad and mom say the same thing. Thank you for reminding me. Guess i will be doing a lot of that. __________________ Missy Taking one day at a time.

02-24-2007, 01:49 PM	#14 (permalink)
TryingisDying Getting out of my own way! Join Date: Feb 2007 Location: Detroit ... but my heart is in Cali Posts: 209	I think I do it 20 times a day lol...I also have an Ipod that i download alot of recovery things into..so when I am folding laundry or after the kids go to bed I focus on that...i also journal and read recovery things after they are in bed. __________________ **************************************** "Nothing changes..Nothing changes" ~Do Daily~ Am I meditating and getting closer to God? Am I eating and exercising correctly? Am I keeping up on my obligations and commitments? What am I doing for my pleasure?

02-24-2007, 03:49 PM	#15 (permalink)
rightroad4me Member Join Date: Feb 2007 Location: Up North Posts: 14	Why am I shaking. I feel so stressed. __________________ Missy Taking one day at a time.

02-24-2007, 08:04 PM	#16 (permalink)
Rowan Social Network Moderator Join Date: Dec 2003 Location: Ontario, Canada Posts: 8,911	Hi Missy, Just thought I would check in to see how you are doing - I know it's hard, but you can do this. Keep posting here and let us know - there is a lot of support to be found here, and I'm glad you found us. Rowan

02-25-2007, 07:22 AM	#18 (permalink)
rightroad4me Member Join Date: Feb 2007 Location: Up North Posts: 14	I just kept busy..very busy ariound the house. I found that having a can of diet soda in my hand was very helpful..Thank you for writing to me. Will the w/drawels stop eventually? __________________ Missy Taking one day at a time.

02-25-2007, 10:50 AM	#19 (permalink)
TryingisDying Getting out of my own way! Join Date: Feb 2007 Location: Detroit ... but my heart is in Cali Posts: 209	Im not sure how much you drank on a daily basis....Alcohol is the only drug that you can die from in detox. But yes they will go away...Hang in there! __________________ **************************************** "Nothing changes..Nothing changes" ~Do Daily~ Am I meditating and getting closer to God? Am I eating and exercising correctly? Am I keeping up on my obligations and commitments? What am I doing for my pleasure?

02-25-2007, 01:02 PM	#20 (permalink)
rightroad4me Member Join Date: Feb 2007 Location: Up North Posts: 14	I didnt drink on a daily basis. I drank about a 12 pack at a time once a week. I am more of a binge drinker and my urge comes from stress and boredom.. I am very much into watching live bands and I have friends in bands and they always play at bars. I get very social when I drink. I feel the urge to be around people. I stay at home with my kids so this was my release. But now I need to find a new realease. I think my liver is still ok. Hopefully it will repair itself in time. Maybe the urges will go away. __________________ Missy Taking one day at a time.

02-25-2007, 01:50 PM	#21 (permalink)
Rowan Social Network Moderator Join Date: Dec 2003 Location: Ontario, Canada Posts: 8,911	I was a binge drinker, too. The compulsion to drink eventually goes away, but for me, I had to find something to replace it - that's where AA came in for me. There I found people who understood me, and who helped me understand that I was an alcoholic. Today, I can't imagine going back to that life. Alcohol was a way for me to 'numb out', or not feel. Now I've got more feelings than I know what to do with, but I know that they won't kill me (it just feels that way sometimes). Glad you're taking it one day at a time, Missy. SO glad that you are here. Rowan

02-25-2007, 03:34 PM	#22 (permalink)
rightroad4me Member Join Date: Feb 2007 Location: Up North Posts: 14	Where I live there is a lot of people who do the same thing and a lot of them are my friends so, I have to figure a way to deal with that. I dont feel my relationship will last with some of them and I accept that tho its hard changing your whole life style. I used to aquate alcohol to fun. __________________ Missy Taking one day at a time.

02-25-2007, 04:37 PM	#23 (permalink)
Rowan Social Network Moderator Join Date: Dec 2003 Location: Ontario, Canada Posts: 8,911	Me too! But, for me, eventually it wasn't fun anymore and they didn't want me around much. I became depressed and teary when I drank, or I would be really manic - felt bulletproof, and took terrible risks - with my life, and others' too (drinking and driving etc). You may have to stop hanging with your drinking friends for now, but if they are real friends, they will respect your decision to make this important change in your life.

02-26-2007, 09:02 AM	#25 (permalink)
*indigo* Community Greeter Join Date: Nov 2003 Location: Mid-Life Express Posts: 9,133	Welcome and glad you found us hope I can be of help to you. indigo __________________ When you judge others, you do not define them, you define yourself." Namasté

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