Good Days

[Heartinpieces]

Hi Ladies,

I usually only post when I'm feeling sad and blue, so I wanted to share about good stuff because its good to hear the good stuff sometimes!

Today was a good day! I realized that I have no drama in my life (which I really like to create and thrive on), I'm cleaning up my finances FINALLY, my shoulder is recovering quickly and the pain is diminishing daily. I'm working really hard on my steps, along with my relationship with my family. I go back to work in a few weeks, which always creates a LOT of anxiety for me but today I have turned it over and know that my HP will guide me thru the fear.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that I finally finally finally feel like the program is working. I feel that when the **** is flying around me, its not affecting me like it used too. 10 months ago when I started the recovery process I had no soul. I was extremely cynical about the 12 steps, HP's, sponsors...basically all of it. I am happy today and I've never said that before and meant it. Today I mean it.

I am recovering..... and that feels really good!

xo
heart

[Anna]

Hi Heart,

I understand how you feel. I think though, that you did have a soul when you started recovery, as did I. You just couldn't connect with it. It makes a world of difference when you can reach the soul.

[hope3]

Hi, I am Hop3, alias sharon L. I am glad you
are feeling so good, I am feeling great today too!
The lyrics to this song I share with you, do you know
the song.

The 59th Street Bridge Song
Simon & Garfunkel
Words and Music By: Paul Simon

Slow down, you move too fast.
You got to make the morning last.
Just kicking down the cobble stones.
Looking for fun and feelin' groovy.
Hello lamppost, What cha knowing?
I've come to watch your flowers growing.
Ain't cha got no rhymes for me?
Doot-in' doo-doo, Feelin' groovy.
Got no deeds to do, No promises to keep.
I'm dappled and drowsy and ready to sleep.
Let the morning time drop all its petals on me.
Life, I love you, All is groovy.

Best wishes,

[sugarbuger]

heartinpieces, I'll have 10 months on the 22 of December, God willing. I'm beginning to understand the difference between happiness and joy. Happiness is an external thing and joy comes from within (in my opinion). I still have the "drama" of my custody hearing for my daughter tomorrow. I have spent the day in prayer and meditation, opening myself to my HPs plan for my future and that of my daughter. I love sobriety and go to bed at night excited about waking up.

It was nice to read your post.

[CarolD]

for you heart!!

[TamTam]

(((heart)))
xoxo T

[TheGirlInside]

HIP,

Thanks for the post!! What you said was very close to what I said at my most recent AA meeting; that even though there is still "crap" going on all around me in my life, I am good. Life may kind of suck, but I can still feel happy and good (is that faith or hope or something?)

I, like you, have gone through periods of being very cynical about the program, and all associated with it, almost throwing away some very cherished friendships, due to my reverting to "baby with the bathwater" thinking.

But, those moments have recently been much less dramatic, and fewer and farther between...

Thanks for sharing!!