New and young

[M_K]

Hi, I'm new to this sight and new to all this.

I was denying that I was an alcoholic because I wasn't always drunk. But I was drinking everyday. The amount would change, some months it would be up to 2 bottles of wine a night or one bottle of liquor.

All my friends drank just as much as me and for a while it was like an inside joke. Look we're functional alcoholics! We drink all we want and still have jobs/go to school!

But recently after another fight with my boyfriend while I was drunk I realised that it was out of control. I was drinking way too much and when I was drunk I wasn't having fun, I was getting angry and being mean. This had happened before in relationships too.

I came to the conclusion that I don't want to be that mean drunk anymore and that I care enough for this person that I want to show him that this is not me. That I really am a nice, caring person.

So, there's my introduction. What I am looking for here is support from anyone, but especially people my own age. I don't know anyone my age who is ready to admit they have a problem. Most of them just say, we're young and this is what young people do. But I don't want to wake up in 20 years and realise I am an alcoholic still.

Thanks for reading.

-MK.

[CarolD]

Welcome to SR!

My drinking friends and I used to joke
"We put the FUN into functional alcoholics"

We had careers and apartments and money..
and then some of us did not.

I choose to quit while I did.
I'm glad to see you are doing the same.

I'm not sure how old you are...but you
are never too young or old to recover.

Glad to see a new member..very

[51anna]

Hi M K,

Welcome and I'm glad you found us.

It sounds like you're ready to make a decision to live a sober life. There is lots of support here and information too, so I hope you keep visiting and posting.

[Hope]

Welcome! I can relate to your post.

I'm in my 20s and a college student who thought that I was just living the normal life of the typical college student. I was only kidding myself. I realized that alcoholism and addiction are progressive and it gets worse.

When I stopped and really took a good look at myself, I realized that my drinking/using was not normal. While I had not lost everything yet, I realized that it could happen to me unless I got into recovery.

There have been times when I looked around at others and kind of felt jealous that they were still out drinking... but then I stopped and realized how blessed and fortunate I am that I am sober and living the life of sobriety. People who are caught up in drinking and that lifestyle can many times overlook how wonderful a life truly can be without being in a constant haze. There is so much more to do in life besides drinking.... it just takes putting down the booze to realize it.

I'm glad that you are here and I hope that you will continue to reach out. Be proud of yourself that you are asking questions and looking at your options.

[indigo]

Welcome to the women's forum it's good to meet you, you made the first step when you aknowledged you have a problem. I hope you keep on posting.

indigo

[parentrecovers]

Hello MK,

I am the mother of a 22 year old recovering alcoholic. She is finding that there are a lot of young people in AA. Please go to the adults in your life that you trust, and ask for the help you need - you deserve it.

Blessings, K

[Latte]

Welcome, I love it here.

It's like a big comfy chair with an extra squeak at the appropriate time.

One day at a time.