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Josiol · 09-25-2006, 08:21 AM

I'm on day 100 today and I don't know what's happening, but I'm scared to death. I want a drink SO bad! Not just one drink... a whole bottle or more...I want to get drunk. I've had a few minor cravings before but nothing ever this intense or lasting this long. It's been hours!

Thankfully there is no booze in the house, but I have to get out of here..I've just been pacing from room to room. I think I'm going to head out and try to do some shopping to distract myself. I just feel like crying right now.......

***indigo*** · 09-25-2006, 08:37 AM

You could take a long bath with lots of fragrences in to help you relax, or some calming green tea, also excercise of any kind is a great stress beater. Tell yourself "you can do this" and believe with all your might you can. Hope that's of some use...the craving will go!!!
indigo

**BigSis** · 09-25-2006, 09:30 AM

Bumping this up.... now that more of the site is awake, perhaps someone else will be by to offer you some comfort and ESH.

Prayers going up for you ... right this minute for continued strength. (((hugs)))

**historyteach** · 09-25-2006, 09:46 AM

(((Josiol)))

Change what you are doing.
Seriously. When we change what we're doing, we change what we're thinking and feeling.

You say you are pacing around the house. Well, get to work on one of those closets that are a mess. Or paint a room you've been meaning to do. Or clean your blinds, curtains, windows. Anything to take your mind off booze by keeping it occupied on something else.

For me, when I quit smoking after 36 years, I knew enough to stay IN the house when I was going through a hard craving/urge. If I went out, I didn't trust myself not to buy. Staying in, but, changing my behavior made the difference for me. I'm almost 10 months quit now. Focusing on behavior -- long and short term -- helped me stay quit.

I'm wishing you only the best as you travel through this craving. Remember, as bad as it gets, it's only temporary. Unless you cave. Then, it gets worse until it gets better again. Do something different than what you are doing now. We're here for you, and hope to hear from you soon!

Shalom!

**CarolD** · 09-25-2006, 10:02 AM

My suggestions..
Pray
Cry
Pray
Go to an AA meeting
Pray

That is what I did in early sobriety

Congratulations on your progress!

Hope · 09-25-2006, 10:23 AM

Hang in there sweetie. You can get through this.
I'm praying for you!

**51anna** · 09-25-2006, 10:34 AM

Jos,

It's just your addict mind trying to get to you.

Don't let it, fight back with everything you have!

I'm sending prayers your way.

Josiol · 09-25-2006, 12:43 PM

Thank you all so much

I made it through. I called my husband at work and then I hopped in the car and went shopping for a couple of hours. The feelings I was having were so frightening. It's hard to explain....it was like my mind was telling my body, "Go get a bottle..drink! drink! drink!" But the whole time this was going on I was still thinking rationally and telling myself this is crazy and you know you are not about to give up 100 days of sobriety. I've been thanking my HP for hours now because I know 101 days ago I wouldn't have been able to say no.

Hope · 09-25-2006, 01:00 PM

Hi sweetie,

I'm so glad that you got through that! It made you stronger!

I'm so proud of you!!

Arura · 09-25-2006, 01:01 PM

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Kahlia · 09-30-2006, 04:46 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Josiol

Thank you all so much

I made it through. I called my husband at work and then I hopped in the car and went shopping for a couple of hours. The feelings I was having were so frightening. It's hard to explain....it was like my mind was telling my body, "Go get a bottle..drink! drink! drink!" But the whole time this was going on I was still thinking rationally and telling myself this is crazy and you know you are not about to give up 100 days of sobriety. I've been thanking my HP for hours now because I know 101 days ago I wouldn't have been able to say no.

Hi-Josiol....I have been reading your posts and thinking about something? Do you have any idea what is triggering you to want to drink at this particular point, I mean the 100th day? It is very strange to me...It is like me wanting to drink on my 5th birthday after being clean 4 years and 364 days and then going nuts right before that 5th birthday??? I am trying to figure it out...Maybe there is NO reason at all or maybe you are putting TOO much emphasis on the fact that it IS your 100th day??? For that, girl, you should be so proud of yourself, that takes a lot of hard work, and you, and ONLY you did it. Keep doing it and I am very glad to hear you are on day 101. It is so odd how we do things sometimes, we just all of a sudden go off the edge and WHACK out!!! I have over 6 years clean, quit smoking 4 years ago...lately EVERY freakin night, I wake up at 3:08am and want a cigarette??? I have no clue...I think about it and go NOPE, but the other INSANE side goes JUST one.....sound familiar??? I do NOTwant to start smoking again...BUT the dreams are so freakin real...I am with all these people that are all smokin, they say "Kahlia, here take a cigarette, That is when I wake up".....???? I have no cig's in my house and if I smoked one I probably would URP!!! I hate them now. It is just puzzling to me what the CRAZY mind can do, outta no place...I wish you luck...you have my prayers and please say one for me too, I need it....!!!!!! NUTS!!!! PEACE......Kahlia

aasharon90 · 09-30-2006, 05:25 PM

CUNNING, BAFFLING AND POWERFUL.....
That's what our diseases are...they
sneak up on us when we least expect
it to....but are u prepared....are u
armed with the tools of recovery...

Your sword, ur helmet, ur sheild to
guard u against the forces of evil...

The 12 Steps of Recovery and Big
Book in hand...The knowledge, Wisdom,
Faith, Courage to guide u and protect
u at all times.

Hi Im Sharon and Im an Alcoholic.
By the Grace of my HP and people
like u here in SR I havent had a
drink of Alcohol since 8-11-90.
For that Im truely grateful.

BEING CURED....ALCOHOL, DRUGS, CIGARETTES

It is easy for friends and associates to
see us as people who are super-sober,
super-clean. They often think that we
have the problem licked, that we're cured.
This is shown by their uneasiness when
we say, "I am an alcoholic, I am an
addict." They prefer us to say " I
was."

We would like to listen to them. But
in our hearts we know that it is not
possible to drink or use any longer. By
saying we are addicted, we are continual-
ly reminding ourselves who we are and
where we came from.

ARE YOU GRATEFUL FOR BEING CLEAN
AND SOBER, EVEN THOUGH U CAN
NEVER BE CURED?

goingsobermum · 10-01-2006, 01:43 PM

Thank you for sharing your craving with us.
It really helps to know that people do get cravings like that and get through it.
Well done
Suz

c'est la vie · 10-02-2006, 12:49 AM

I'm so glad I read this today. I've been really wanting a drink desperately lately. I think it's because I was inundated with alcohol for a week (seeing and smelling it, not drinking it). Before that I felt pretty good about sobriety. Now I'm back to taking every bit of strength and mental clarity to get me through parts of the day.

Josiol · 10-02-2006, 06:54 AM

Just a little update. I go to aftercare (group therapy) once a week and I brought up the subject of my cravings. My therapist said there is definitely something going on that I'm not dealing with. She told me to think about what's been going on in my life lately that's causing stress. It didn't take long....lol... The week I quit drinking I started taking Zoloft for my anxiety. That was the main reason I drank. The Zoloft has worked wonders for my anxiety, but one of the side effects is decreased sex drive, and in my case my sex drive is now non-exsistent! This has been causing quite a strain on my relationship with my DH. I plan on talking to my Dr about this, but I really do not want to stop taking the Zoloft.

09-25-2006, 08:21 AM	#1 (permalink)
Josiol Member Join Date: Jul 2006 Location: IL Posts: 60	Somebody talk me down! I'm on day 100 today and I don't know what's happening, but I'm scared to death. I want a drink SO bad! Not just one drink... a whole bottle or more...I want to get drunk. I've had a few minor cravings before but nothing ever this intense or lasting this long. It's been hours! Thankfully there is no booze in the house, but I have to get out of here..I've just been pacing from room to room. I think I'm going to head out and try to do some shopping to distract myself. I just feel like crying right now.......

09-25-2006, 08:37 AM	#2 (permalink)
*indigo* Community Greeter Join Date: Nov 2003 Location: Mid-Life Express Posts: 9,133	You could take a long bath with lots of fragrences in to help you relax, or some calming green tea, also excercise of any kind is a great stress beater. Tell yourself "you can do this" and believe with all your might you can. Hope that's of some use...the craving will go!!! indigo __________________ When you judge others, you do not define them, you define yourself." Namasté

09-25-2006, 09:30 AM	#3 (permalink)
BigSis On a tear Join Date: Jul 2003 Location: Volcano Country! Posts: 3,164	Bumping this up.... now that more of the site is awake, perhaps someone else will be by to offer you some comfort and ESH. Prayers going up for you ... right this minute for continued strength. (((hugs))) __________________ No matter how spoiled the past may be, our future is spotless.... BigSis

09-25-2006, 09:46 AM	#4 (permalink)
historyteach To Life! Join Date: Oct 2003 Location: centered again Posts: 7,999	(((Josiol))) Change what you are doing. Seriously. When we change what we're doing, we change what we're thinking and feeling. You say you are pacing around the house. Well, get to work on one of those closets that are a mess. Or paint a room you've been meaning to do. Or clean your blinds, curtains, windows. Anything to take your mind off booze by keeping it occupied on something else. For me, when I quit smoking after 36 years, I knew enough to stay IN the house when I was going through a hard craving/urge. If I went out, I didn't trust myself not to buy. Staying in, but, changing my behavior made the difference for me. I'm almost 10 months quit now. Focusing on behavior -- long and short term -- helped me stay quit. I'm wishing you only the best as you travel through this craving. Remember, as bad as it gets, it's only temporary. Unless you cave. Then, it gets worse until it gets better again. Do something different than what you are doing now. We're here for you, and hope to hear from you soon! Shalom! __________________

09-25-2006, 10:02 AM	#5 (permalink)
CarolD Forum Leader Join Date: Jun 2002 Location: Dallas, Ga. USA Posts: 15,171	My suggestions.. Pray Cry Pray Go to an AA meeting Pray That is what I did in early sobriety Congratulations on your progress! __________________ Each Day Sober Is A Victory!! Joy In AA Recovery!

09-25-2006, 10:23 AM	#6 (permalink)
Hope Getting Better All The Time Join Date: Feb 2006 Location: Recovering Posts: 3,211	Hang in there sweetie. You can get through this. I'm praying for you!

09-25-2006, 10:34 AM	#7 (permalink)
51anna Forum Leader Join Date: Aug 2003 Location: Dancing in the Light Posts: 11,018	Jos, It's just your addict mind trying to get to you. Don't let it, fight back with everything you have! I'm sending prayers your way. __________________ Anna "I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel. Maya Angelou

09-25-2006, 12:43 PM	#8 (permalink)
Josiol Member Join Date: Jul 2006 Location: IL Posts: 60	Thank you all so much I made it through. I called my husband at work and then I hopped in the car and went shopping for a couple of hours. The feelings I was having were so frightening. It's hard to explain....it was like my mind was telling my body, "Go get a bottle..drink! drink! drink!" But the whole time this was going on I was still thinking rationally and telling myself this is crazy and you know you are not about to give up 100 days of sobriety. I've been thanking my HP for hours now because I know 101 days ago I wouldn't have been able to say no.

09-25-2006, 01:00 PM	#9 (permalink)
Hope Getting Better All The Time Join Date: Feb 2006 Location: Recovering Posts: 3,211	Hi sweetie, I'm so glad that you got through that! It made you stronger! I'm so proud of you!!

09-25-2006, 01:01 PM	#10 (permalink)
Arura Trying to do the right thing. Join Date: May 2006 Location: London Posts: 4,354	.... __________________ Weve come along way and were Changing day by day We DO Recover. We can Recover...!

09-30-2006, 05:25 PM	#12 (permalink)
aasharon90 Member Join Date: Dec 2005 Location: Baton Rouge, La. Posts: 2,726	CUNNING, BAFFLING AND POWERFUL..... That's what our diseases are...they sneak up on us when we least expect it to....but are u prepared....are u armed with the tools of recovery... Your sword, ur helmet, ur sheild to guard u against the forces of evil... The 12 Steps of Recovery and Big Book in hand...The knowledge, Wisdom, Faith, Courage to guide u and protect u at all times. Hi Im Sharon and Im an Alcoholic. By the Grace of my HP and people like u here in SR I havent had a drink of Alcohol since 8-11-90. For that Im truely grateful. BEING CURED....ALCOHOL, DRUGS, CIGARETTES It is easy for friends and associates to see us as people who are super-sober, super-clean. They often think that we have the problem licked, that we're cured. This is shown by their uneasiness when we say, "I am an alcoholic, I am an addict." They prefer us to say " I was." We would like to listen to them. But in our hearts we know that it is not possible to drink or use any longer. By saying we are addicted, we are continual- ly reminding ourselves who we are and where we came from. ARE YOU GRATEFUL FOR BEING CLEAN AND SOBER, EVEN THOUGH U CAN NEVER BE CURED? __________________ "A FRIEND IN NEED IS A FRIEND INDEED" SHARON M. Baton Rouge, La. 8-11-90 "Made A Decision To Turn My Will And Life Over To The Care Of God As I Understand Him."

10-01-2006, 01:43 PM	#13 (permalink)
goingsobermum Member Join Date: Aug 2006 Location: France, Europe Posts: 45	Thank you for sharing your craving with us. It really helps to know that people do get cravings like that and get through it. Well done Suz __________________ With love Suz

10-02-2006, 12:49 AM	#14 (permalink)
c'est la vie Member Join Date: Dec 2005 Location: in a better place Posts: 1,397	I'm so glad I read this today. I've been really wanting a drink desperately lately. I think it's because I was inundated with alcohol for a week (seeing and smelling it, not drinking it). Before that I felt pretty good about sobriety. Now I'm back to taking every bit of strength and mental clarity to get me through parts of the day.

10-02-2006, 06:54 AM	#15 (permalink)
Josiol Member Join Date: Jul 2006 Location: IL Posts: 60	Just a little update. I go to aftercare (group therapy) once a week and I brought up the subject of my cravings. My therapist said there is definitely something going on that I'm not dealing with. She told me to think about what's been going on in my life lately that's causing stress. It didn't take long....lol... The week I quit drinking I started taking Zoloft for my anxiety. That was the main reason I drank. The Zoloft has worked wonders for my anxiety, but one of the side effects is decreased sex drive, and in my case my sex drive is now non-exsistent! This has been causing quite a strain on my relationship with my DH. I plan on talking to my Dr about this, but I really do not want to stop taking the Zoloft.

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