Thank you!

[YaySartre]

When I found SR, I had just gotten my bearings after my umpteenth black-out and realized I'd been having a lot of those, lately. As in, every single time I drank. How often was I drinking? All day! Everyday I could! When did that happen? Well, it was happening.

When I was younger, I learned something that has served my alcoholism very badly, and that's the fine/dark art of not getting caught. Drinking alone meant not getting caught, until you start drinking so much that dry-out time bleeds into time itself.

Like:
My-boyfriend-is-coming-home-and-I-think-I-have-alcohol-poisoning time, why-do-these-blasted-incidents-keep-progressing-and-I-do-weirder-things-each-time time, or running-out-of-friends-to-tend-to-my-blacking-out-self time. Then, you have a new kind of time, time to get caught, time to think. Time to take stock and ask for help. (4-letter word.)

The first day I didn't drink, I found this site. It has helped more than I can say.