Where I Was - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

NewDayNow · 09-17-2008, 08:05 PM

I was at the end of a two week accelerated drinking program. I am self employed. I had been drinking so much for so long I kinda neglected the duties that brought in the money. So I decided that as I could not afford both the alcohol and the food. I would eliminate the food.

I don’t know if it was the canned spaghetti, The Jack Daniels or the beer that kept me alive (Maybe the beer). It wasn’t pleasant. This past Saturday (Sept 13), After 2 Millers in the morning (that’s the beer that stands clear). I decided what the heck. Think I’ll stop all of this. It can’t be that haaaaaaaaaaaard. The shakes got really bad late in the evening and by midnight I was in a terrible panic. Don’t know why I grabbed the lap top and don’t remember how I found SR. I do remember frantically reading the forum posts looking for information on withdrawal. All of the information I found said I should not do this. It was too late. The next day I’m NewDayNow and feeling just a little better. Now I’m on the forums every chance I get (mostly lurking).

This wasn’t the first time I’ve been through the withdrawal. It is the first time I’ve stopped drinking for more than one day. Today is day 4 for me. I’ve spent the day gorging myself on stuff I haven’t eaten in a long time and man is it goooood!

I know this is not going to be easy. I’ve already felt the temptation.

I am looking forward to my first sober visit with the AA. I feel hope this time. I've spent most of my life building up a tolerance for alcohol . I don’t want to be a drunk anymore.

Thanks to all of you.

Ed

**CarolD** · 09-19-2008, 12:38 AM

Quote:

I don’t want to be a drunk anymore.

One early essential key for me....
I had to want to quit
more than I wanted to drink

Yes! you too can win over alcohol

sunshine321 · 10-01-2008, 10:02 AM

Maybe you are on day 18 now? I hope you are doing well. If you fell off, hop back on.

Jen

genetrix · 10-01-2008, 07:06 PM

I hope you be fine ..

NewDayNow · 10-03-2008, 07:02 PM

Thanks Carol,

I still want to quit and I'm winning today

Thank you Gene and Jen,

I'm doing pretty good, I've been sober now for 20 days

Hope your doing well,

Ed

09-17-2008, 08:05 PM	#1 (permalink)
NewDayNow Member Join Date: Sep 2008 Location: USA Posts: 632 Blog Entries: 1	Where I Was I was at the end of a two week accelerated drinking program. I am self employed. I had been drinking so much for so long I kinda neglected the duties that brought in the money. So I decided that as I could not afford both the alcohol and the food. I would eliminate the food. I don’t know if it was the canned spaghetti, The Jack Daniels or the beer that kept me alive (Maybe the beer). It wasn’t pleasant. This past Saturday (Sept 13), After 2 Millers in the morning (that’s the beer that stands clear). I decided what the heck. Think I’ll stop all of this. It can’t be that haaaaaaaaaaaard. The shakes got really bad late in the evening and by midnight I was in a terrible panic. Don’t know why I grabbed the lap top and don’t remember how I found SR. I do remember frantically reading the forum posts looking for information on withdrawal. All of the information I found said I should not do this. It was too late. The next day I’m NewDayNow and feeling just a little better. Now I’m on the forums every chance I get (mostly lurking). This wasn’t the first time I’ve been through the withdrawal. It is the first time I’ve stopped drinking for more than one day. Today is day 4 for me. I’ve spent the day gorging myself on stuff I haven’t eaten in a long time and man is it goooood! I know this is not going to be easy. I’ve already felt the temptation. I am looking forward to my first sober visit with the AA. I feel hope this time. I've spent most of my life building up a tolerance for alcohol . I don’t want to be a drunk anymore. Thanks to all of you. Ed

10-03-2008, 07:02 PM	#5 (permalink)
NewDayNow Member Join Date: Sep 2008 Location: USA Posts: 632 Blog Entries: 1	Thanks Carol, I still want to quit and I'm winning today Thank you Gene and Jen, I'm doing pretty good, I've been sober now for 20 days Hope your doing well, Ed __________________ *9-14-08 The rest of my day starts right now*

Thread Tools
Show Printable Version Email this Page
Display Modes
Linear Mode Switch to Hybrid Mode Switch to Threaded Mode

10-01-2008, 10:02 AM	#3 (permalink)
sunshine321 It is what it is Join Date: Jul 2007 Location: NJ Posts: 274	Maybe you are on day 18 now? I hope you are doing well. If you fell off, hop back on. Jen

10-01-2008, 07:06 PM	#4 (permalink)
genetrix Member Join Date: Oct 2008 Posts: 3	I hope you be fine ..

Currently Active Users Viewing this Thread: 1 (0 members and 1 guests)