do you mis getting loaded?

[onthewagon]

I miss getting drunk, but when I saw what happened to my mind and body when I stopped, I think the trade off of not drinking is worth the long term benefits.

[Latte]

Nope. My husband and children trust me. I wouldn't go back for anything.

[TTOSBT]

No, I really don't. I am grateful that since my last drunk, I have not allowed myself to think about drinking without playing the WHOLE tape. That includes sitting up all night in that jail cell as I was sobering up. Do I miss it? Nope, I love the respect I see in my husband's eyes TOO MUCH.

[scoob]

I think I can finally say NO, I don't and won't miss it ever again.

That always held me back from even trying to quit in the past. Now I feel really good that I can wake up without worry and face the day with a clear head.

[paulmh]

Lol, great question!

I can honestly say that I drank long enough and hard enough so that now, every day without alcohol is a blessed relief!

[Peter]

Miss it?

I miss it about as much as I miss a skewer through the brain.

[alcoholfree]

I don't miss "getting loaded" at all, my life was totally crap when I was drinking, I have nothing but bad memories of the time. I quit after an unsuccessful suicide attempt over two years ago. I'd never want to return to that.

My life is so much better without alcohol and I am happy and productive now.

So no, I don't miss drinking at all

[Elamentri]

I'm still in two minds - the crazy alcoholic in me hates the fact that I have decided never to drink again, it's like that song... cold war kids? "I promised to my wife and children, I'd never touch another drink as long as I live. But even then it sounds so soothing, to mix a gin and sink into oblivion" But oblivion is just what it is, or what it was. It obliterated the qualities in me that my friends admired, my fiancee adored, and my daughter looked up to. to sink into oblivion would be like tumbling down that black hole again. I don't miss that black hole. I love feeling good first thing in the morning!

[maloneshawn32]

I don't miss it and never will. I wasted so much time and so many opportunities. I hurt a lot of family and friends and decieved most people that know me. I feel great right now and never want to feel like the selfish loser I became. I love being sober and hope that I can set a great example for others. I am not perfect but I am a completely different person now and will never go back to my old ways of the lying, decietful alcoholic a!@hole I allowed myself to become. Now if I could only spell, that would be great.

[soupdragon1973]

Sorry,being an Englander I am not familiar with American slang....is hopped up getting high on pot or drunk or both?Anyhow,in answer,yes I do miss getting drunk right now to be perfectly honest,I would be a liar to state otherwise.But I know it would be too many steps backwards now to go back on the booze and I am not considering all the negative implications and impact on life,health,relationships and mental health(not to mention pocket) when all I can think about is getting drunk again.Its like I always did before,I mentally block out all the negatives in my mind,just consider the first 2 hours of being drunk as a good thing and not the rest of the bullshit i.e hangover,anxiety next day,dehydration,impact on body,tiredness,increased depression,guilt,shame,feeling nasuseous etc etc etc.Then I have to think,is it really worth it all,do I really miss all that that comes with it?

[Lush]

I'm getting loaded right now as I type, but I don't want to be this way anymore. I feel like a failure. But I'll enjoy my beers tonight.

[juliwuli]

i dont miss it, i hate booze now with a passion, i nearly drank myself to death, i cant believe i was going to leave my four kids without a mother for alcohol,

[Ostara]

From the time I was very young, I felt that there was something different with me. The first taste gave me the chance to feel whole, complete, as if I was someone else. It provided that escape from my skin, that feeling that totally disgusts me at times. It gave me that chance to not be present when the rest of me was scared that I might be killed, allowed for a temporary peace, even if it was not real. It is then that I hear those whispers of 'yesss,' when I ask myself if one more medicated and peacefull moment is worth it.
The other parts of my mind scream, 'No!', that my life is worth so much more, that I deserve a better future, that my son deserves to have me around and have a mommy who is all there.
And sometimes it is those whispers of 'yessss,' that deafen.

[Puddy]

Right now I do, I'm 21 days sober after a harrowing precription pill addiction (in sobriety no less).

My body is screaming out to get loaded, chuck the sobriety thing, just be a controlled beer drinker, etc

[spudida]

Nope..That stuff was killing me and while I don't mind dying someday...putting poison down my own throat seems like a bad idea

[madd11matt]

I still have not had a single "dope moment"...althogh I have had to stop myself from acting .....or should i say re-acting...like a dope fiend.I have about 3 and half hours till my 60th day(yea me!)this time has been pretty easy by comparison. I believe that going to a meeting every day....and I realy mean every day....for the last 60 days.....and forums like this ....and to me making a consious effert every day to learn and EVOLVE (man...I love that word!)I realize that this is much more than just not using.....but also reprograming...using for 27 years almost every day....addiction wove its way into the verry fabric of my bieng.taking the dope away left me RAW!!!!!. But ready for change.....love this forum.....peace.......me

[fulminouscherub]

No. Not really.

What I DO miss are all the opportunities I passed up and all the life's blessings I squandered because getting lit was number one.

While I do sometimes briefly miss the comfort of oblivion as I survey the wasteland of my life, I realize it was my practice of daily oblivion that created and maintained that desert.

One day my life might bloom again. Maybe. If I'm good and I'm lucky. And the only way to get that skilled is to never pick up again. Ever.

[Bamboozle]

I love getting loaded.

...but I don't like the long term consequences (and there are a ton...physical, mental, personal, and social.)

If getting loaded is all I do (and that's been my history for a few years), there's nothing else left. Depressing...

There are other ways I can have fun (and enrich my life).

[SlvrMag]

....sometimes.

[krati]

are we being honest here?
hell YES !!!!1
i have a pill staring at me right this second
if i took it i could get my laundry done, i could get my art finished for the flea market this weekend....
i could get my house cleaned...walk my puppy and play with him
i could eat....quit pooping until my butthole bleeds

but it's onoly been 5 days....and i'm going to just keep praying and give it to God
each day is better than the last

[LuvinMe]

Nope! I love my life today! It aint perfect but it sure beats getting high, killing myself! When I see people still suffering I thank god for snatching me up and pray that those people come too......

[Lily]

In 4 days I will have 9 months clean and be picking up my yellow keytag. I can honestly say I do miss getting high at times.

However, looking at all I have accomplished being clean w/out the use of drugs, I really like the changes I have seen. I am looking forward to employment, I have taken over helping out with the finances, I have continued with my daily running of the house and keeping us above water w/out too much chaos... I have met clean and sober ppl and reached to help others as well. I also do not buy endless selfish purchases of feel good things I don't need. I also keep my appointments now without rescheduling numerous times. LOL I am way more dependable in many ways, and my attitude has changed. I am easier to get along with and am outgoing again w/out the use of false friendly opitates.

Yes, a lot of positive changes and more to come I am sure! It is worth it!

blessings, Sheila

[beach101]

I don’t miss getting wasted and blacking out; I do miss drinking a glass of wine though. I can feel it when I smell it and see it. Is it worth it? No – if I could have one glass and move on (you know ‘normal’), but I can’t, so I don’t. My bad night(s) was 6 months ago and it is far too vivid (well, blurry – but vividly blurry) to go back and chance it. I don’t miss hangovers, lying, wasted weekends, deciphering the night before….. I do get validation for my decision when I witness others and their drunken behavior and their deciphering of the night before – then I’m very happy and grateful I was able to hold strong!