in my bed

[ralphie]

and rehashing the previous night's embarassment. This is when I realized that although I don't drink every day, hell, even every month, the only time I am ashamed of my behaviour is when I'd been drinking. The only time I ever have regrets is after doing or saying something after a night of drinking.

A friend of mine asked me once about how many men I had slept with, and I replied 3 sober. He laughed, and I suppose it's funny as an answer but once again I realized, every person, even the 3 all started when I was drunk.

I'm tired of being ashamed, I'm tired of worrying about what people are saying or might say, I'm tired of being miserable.

[capergirl770]

I feel the exact same way..I feel so ashamed of myself and worried about what people are saying, today is day one for me..But this time my heart is into it..I am in a lot of pain that the booze is just making it worse...I lost it yesterday and now I am suffering the embarressment