Great Anonymously Written Story

[stormyautumn]

My Mysterious Mistress
I first met her when I was 10 years old.......She was older then I was and she was very exciting. She was always around my home as I was growing up. Although she was a real good friend of my parents, they, in their own way, warned me to have nothing to do with her. They told me that no good would come from our relationship.
But as an escape from my parents, brothers and sister and pressure in my home life, I started seeing her, using her and going with her whenever I could. As I grew older, 13-14, 15-16, I kept I kept meeting her on the sly. She was so sophisticated and wordly that it made me feel grown up by just being with her. It was Fun to take her to parties in those days. She was almost always the center of attraction. We began seeing more of each other as I went thru High School, Graduation, first job, and even Marriage. She was a frequent guest in my home after I was married, even though noone knew of our deep connection. As I went on thru jobs, marriage, and the birth of my 3 sons I continued to see more and more of her. She started to go every where with me, but I was not blind. I knew that she was un-faithful to me, but , what's worse, I did Not Care !!!! As long as she was there when I needed her (and she always was) it didn't matter. The longer I was around her the more I became attached to her. But, the feeling wasn't mutual. She began to delight in making me look foolish in front of my family and friends. But, I could Not give her up. She was there, in the front row of the court when my wife and 3 sons divorced me. Ours finally became a Love / Hate relationship. I figured out that her glamour was nothing more than a cheap mask to hide her spite and cynicism. I could no longer see her beauty after I came to know her true character. But, old habits are hard to break. I was Alone, Sad and hurt. I needed someone to lean on. We has invested many years and alot of money in each other. She followed me into the Army as I tried to run from my family, friends and yes even her. Even though my relationship with her made me loose my self respect she had become the center of my life. We didn't go anywher, we did not do anything, we didn't have friends over. It was just the two of us and I was starting to become afraid of her. I kept breaking up with her for days, weeks, months, but we kept going back together. I finally found someone I could love and she and I were married. She had 2 children and we had one of our own. But, it made no difference..........my secret love was right there with me, right from the very beginning. She again became the center of my life and I was to weak to tell her to leave. My second wife died from cancer before our marriage fell apart, but my involvement with my secret mistress caused me to loose my 2 step - children of this marriage also. Then things got bad for me and my 11 year old son. I was about to loose him so I quit the best job I ever had and he and I "escaped" to Uhrichsville , Ohio. Things were daily getting worse for my son and I, but I did not have the nerve to break it off with my Mistress. This caused me to loose him too. He went to live with my brother and when he turned 18 he went to live with his brother and sister ( my step-children) in Kansas. Then I met a wonderful lady and fell in love. Over the 4 years we have lived together my mistress butted in and I have treated this sweet and beautiful lady Terrible. My sweetheart has stood beside me for jail time and hospital time, when I went thru 2 operations and almost died from both of them. She was there for me for alot of reasons but I never realized the love she had for me or I had for her. I was becoming deeply depressed and know that the mistress was largely responsible for all my misery. Again I had enough......I finally told her that I was leaving her for Good. I had tried to leave before and at times it worked for days, weeks and months and with my new love I went for 1 year with out my mistress . But, she always come back and made my life worse. Today I am in county jail because of her. I am away from my mistress and I am determined to leave her forever this time. I know I am not too strong and need help to leave her. I am getting help from Mental Health and the Church. I want a beautiful life back for me and my lady friend. It is time in my life that I live happily without my mistress. I know that this leaving will take alot of guts and will power, but I do have help in leaving and forgetting her. Her and her family are all around, and not braging, but she would take me back at any time. But by the Brace of God I will never take up with her again. She has caused me Great pain and Suffering. She has caused the break - up of a marriage, the love of my children, and the loss of my sweethearts children and grandchildren, and the loss of my family, friends, great jobs, and self respect. She has also cost me $1000's of dollars and self pride. I am determined she will not cost me the love of myself and my sweetheart. She can do anything she wants to get me back. But, that is ok......I have the desire and help to stay away from her. Staying away from her I can keep what I have and earn back much of what I have lost. Life will never be like before , but it will be Great and Wonderful without her. If you see her give her my regards. I don't hate her. My problem was that I fell in love with her and I loved her too much to let go of her at any cost to me. I am sure you know her family or her........her name is "Alcohol".