OK I admit it

[DanaNicole29]

I have been out of treatment as of last thursday night. I have been avoiding discussing this issue but it's crippling me!! There are so many things that need to be done and taken care of but I am absolutely scared stiff to leave my house!! If you noticed, since I found this site two nights ago, I have barely left it!!! I just got ready and told myself that I was going to get out and get stuff done but yet here I am procrastinating!! I don't know what I am afraid of exactly, I just know I am extremely petrified!
Any ideas?

[Paulie]

I have been right where you are.

I was in treatment for 3 months, left treatment and stayed in bed terrified to leave my house. I ended up going back to treatment 3 days a week for another few months to slowly transition myself back into the world. I was terrified, I was going back to the same town I had used in for years.
So what I did, was immediatley got myself plugged into meetings in my area so that I had recovery around me. I went everyday that I was in town and not at the treatment center.

I realize that may not be a possiblity for you, the treatment I was in at the time was privatly owned by 1 man and I was not charged for going back like that, what a gift that was.

I know this is not the NA forum but since you said you just got out of treatment, I am assuming that you should be going to meetings. Walking into that first meeting alone is really really hard, but remember that everyone there is there for the same reason as you and that you are there to save your life.

You can do this, I know you can.

[FaeryQueen]

So what I did, was immediatley got myself plugged into meetings in my area so that I had recovery around me. I went everyday that I was in town and not at the treatment center.

me too, Paulie.


I was absolutely paralyzed with fear when I got out of treatment. I slept soooo much. If I had known about SR I probably would have been doing the same thing u are Dana.
I moved into a new apartment and slept in the middle of all my boxes, because I was afraid to even unpack. The only place I even felt somewhat comfortable was in a meeting. I started talking to some of the women there about my fear and they explained to me that it just takes time. I didn't want to hear that, but they were right.
Today, I am so happy and productive! It gets better. Don't beat yourself up....take it easy....keep reaching out.
tanya

[CAPTAINZING2000]

Darn

Dana,

you busted my bubble. I thought, you were just on here cause of me

Don't isolate with your thoughts get with people that have a good program. this will help you in your own recovery

[DanaNicole29]

why I'm here:
reason #2 CAPTAINZING

Thanks all for your words of encouragement!
I have to pack too cause I'm moving...so that's a weight on my shoulders, too. But you are ALL right. I need to get to meetings. I went to one on Sunday and I did an online one too but I will get to more...I have an appointment tomorrow that I ABSOLUTELY cannot miss so that will start me off getting outta here.
Thanks again

[hopealwayz]

Dana, the fear will diminish with time. Just take it slowly and be easy on yourself.
It's ok to take small steps because they are still leading to great things.

love,
cheryl

[CAPTAINZING2000]

# 2 huh!!!!!!

I'll have to work my boyish charm a little harder then won't I????

[FaeryQueen]

I went to one on Sunday and I did an online one too but I will get to more...

Get to one everyday if u can. It helps with the fear, but it also teaches us discipline and accountability.....traits which many addicts DO NOT POSSESS. 90 meetings in 90 days......and A SPONSOR.
Peace and Love

[DanaNicole29]

I REALLY NEED A SPONSOR BAD!! And ya I like that 90 in 90 idea, it would help a lot.

Oh and CAPTAIN,....tooooo funny

[hopealwayz]

LOL, Captain has all the charm.

[CAPTAINZING2000]

hmm, mostly all i hear i I've got all the b.s