thankful for where i am today

[oncewaslost]

i went on a 12 step call this evening...the first one i have ever been to...the lady i went to see was a former co-worker of mine who has gotten herself into some trouble...after talking to her for awhile i realized there was nothing i could say or do to help her at that moment...she is still unwilling to admit that there is a problem with alcohol and drugs...everything is someone elses fault...she has bad luck...etc...we have all been there right?? Going to a meeting was out of the question...her opinion being that those are for people who have serious problems...and here she sits her life a mess and in some pretty serious trouble...i can relate to that way of thinking...i didnt think i had a serious problem either back in the day...by the end of our conversation i was feeling discouraged, wondering if i had said the right things...after i left and started driving home i started thinking of just how bad off this lady really is...the mess she's made of things...and it occured to me that i shouldn't feel discouraged at all...i cant fix her or her problems...and even if she got nothing out of anything i shared with her tonight...it certainly wasn't a waste...if nothing else it really reminded me of just how far i've come...and after seeing the shape she was in i was just so grateful for all i have today...i wouldnt trade my sobriety for anything in the world...it truely is wonderful not to have to be miserable and sick anymore