Lost it again, but not destroyed... - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

ChrisMan · 03-04-2005, 04:44 AM

It's never easy posting something like this, but I need to do so.

I lost my sobriety again last night. I've been in sort of a rut lately, spinning my wheels. I took too many chances last night -- I knew I was going down a slippery slope and had opportunities to make good decisions, but didn't.

I feel peaceful and confident now. Just one day at a time. I really don't want to give into despair -- what good would that do me? There are people on this forum with one or two years of sobriety or more, so I know I am not aiming for a pipe dream. I am working towards something that is real and that is attainable. It can be done. I just have to believe.

I feel so much support on this forum. I know I am not alone. I am sad today, but not devastated.

ChrisMan

Roxann · 03-04-2005, 05:52 AM

Oh ChrisMan, You are right to feel sad but not devastated. You can take that first step again. Got to a meeting today, read your literature and keep posting. Learn why you made the choices you made this time, so that you can avoid making them again.

You are very strong, and you can do this.

and prayers to you today my friend.

cj. · 03-04-2005, 06:12 AM

Chris

You are right not to beat yourself up! It serves no purpose but to keep you feeling like a failure. I'm sure you feel bad enough about the decisions you made already. Hopefully, the next time you are faced with temptation, you will be better able to think it through and make a healthy choice for yourself.

Peace
cj

***Time2Surrender*** · 03-04-2005, 06:37 AM

Chris,you are not alone we are all here for you.Today is a new day.Hang in there.Have you been going to meetings? Do you have a sponsor?

wantneeda · 03-04-2005, 09:59 AM

Hang in there Chrisman, sounds like you know what your mistakes were. I can so relate to being in those shoes where i know what I'm doing isn't right but I just simply do it anyway. Thats what has made me the person I am today. I can look back on those decisions and learn from them. Our disease will forever speak to us, (dang) but will I choose to listen? Today is a brand new day. Hats off to you for looking your disease straight in the eye today and saying No!! Yesterday is gone, tomorrow is a mystery, today is a gift, thats why its called the present. Keep fighting!!!

erino134 · 03-04-2005, 10:46 AM

Good News!! You get another chance!!! Hurray!!

You are still here - trying again. So - THAT is very cool.

I know - you will be okay. Try not to beat yourself up too hard. Maybe you should write yourself a note about how you feel today. So next time you consider picking up again, maybe you can read the note and remember how you feel today.

Relax and enjoy the first day of your new found sobriety!

Val-light · 03-04-2005, 12:03 PM

Hang in there!

ChrisMan · 03-04-2005, 02:09 PM

Thanks everyone for the encouragement and advice.

I am going to meetings and will keep up my recovery readings every day, and also visiting here of course.

Had a great talk with who I call my spiritual guide this morning. He works a lot with addicts and talks the talk.

Onward we go, one day at a time.

03-04-2005, 04:44 AM	#1 (permalink)
ChrisMan Member Join Date: Aug 2004 Location: Boston, MA Posts: 398	Lost it again, but not destroyed... It's never easy posting something like this, but I need to do so. I lost my sobriety again last night. I've been in sort of a rut lately, spinning my wheels. I took too many chances last night -- I knew I was going down a slippery slope and had opportunities to make good decisions, but didn't. I feel peaceful and confident now. Just one day at a time. I really don't want to give into despair -- what good would that do me? There are people on this forum with one or two years of sobriety or more, so I know I am not aiming for a pipe dream. I am working towards something that is real and that is attainable. It can be done. I just have to believe. I feel so much support on this forum. I know I am not alone. I am sad today, but not devastated. ChrisMan __________________ "Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle." -- Philo

03-04-2005, 05:52 AM	#2 (permalink)
Roxann Learning to love me. Join Date: Jan 2005 Location: on my way Posts: 628	Oh ChrisMan, You are right to feel sad but not devastated. You can take that first step again. Got to a meeting today, read your literature and keep posting. Learn why you made the choices you made this time, so that you can avoid making them again. You are very strong, and you can do this. and prayers to you today my friend. __________________ Roxann I'm struggling!!! roxstetzer@yahoo.com

03-04-2005, 06:37 AM	#4 (permalink)
*Time2Surrender* Community Greeter Join Date: Oct 2004 Location: Hillsboro,Oregon Soon to be Washington State Posts: 6,335 Blog Entries: 3	Chris,you are not alone we are all here for you.Today is a new day.Hang in there.Have you been going to meetings? Do you have a sponsor? __________________ "Jack and Diane" painted a picture of my life and my dreams, Suddenly this crazy world made more sense to me Well I heard it today and I couldn't help but sing along Cause everytime I hear that song...

03-04-2005, 09:59 AM	#5 (permalink)
wantneeda Miss Behavin' Join Date: Jan 2005 Location: regina,saskatchewan Posts: 976	Hang in there Chrisman, sounds like you know what your mistakes were. I can so relate to being in those shoes where i know what I'm doing isn't right but I just simply do it anyway. Thats what has made me the person I am today. I can look back on those decisions and learn from them. Our disease will forever speak to us, (dang) but will I choose to listen? Today is a brand new day. Hats off to you for looking your disease straight in the eye today and saying No!! Yesterday is gone, tomorrow is a mystery, today is a gift, thats why its called the present. Keep fighting!!! __________________ nothin' changes if nothin' changes

03-04-2005, 02:09 PM	#8 (permalink)
ChrisMan Member Join Date: Aug 2004 Location: Boston, MA Posts: 398	Thanks everyone for the encouragement and advice. I am going to meetings and will keep up my recovery readings every day, and also visiting here of course. Had a great talk with who I call my spiritual guide this morning. He works a lot with addicts and talks the talk. Onward we go, one day at a time. __________________ "Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle." -- Philo

03-04-2005, 06:12 AM	#3 (permalink)
cj. Mending Join Date: Sep 2004 Location: Atlantic Canada Posts: 300	Chris You are right not to beat yourself up! It serves no purpose but to keep you feeling like a failure. I'm sure you feel bad enough about the decisions you made already. Hopefully, the next time you are faced with temptation, you will be better able to think it through and make a healthy choice for yourself. Peace cj

03-04-2005, 10:46 AM	#6 (permalink)
erino134 still moment by moment Join Date: Feb 2005 Location: on my way back to me Posts: 83	Good News!! You get another chance!!! Hurray!! You are still here - trying again. So - THAT is very cool. I know - you will be okay. Try not to beat yourself up too hard. Maybe you should write yourself a note about how you feel today. So next time you consider picking up again, maybe you can read the note and remember how you feel today. Relax and enjoy the first day of your new found sobriety!

03-04-2005, 12:03 PM	#7 (permalink)
Val-light Member Join Date: Feb 2005 Location: Houston, Texas Posts: 629	Hang in there!

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