A letter from your addiction - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

Roxann · 02-06-2005, 06:44 AM

Someone gave this to me last night at the NA meeting, and all I can say is wow. Please let me know how this made you feel.

Quote:

Dear Friend,
I've come to visit once again. I love to see you suffer mentally physically spiritually and socially. I want to have you restless so you can never relax. I want you jumpy and nervous and anxious. I want to make you agitated and irritable so everything and everybody makes you uncomfortable. I want you to be depressed and confused so that you can't think clearly or positively. I want to make you hate everything and everybody-especially yourself. I want you to feel guilty and remorseful for the the things you have done in the past that you'll never be able to let go. I want to make you angry and hateful toward the world for the way it is and the way you are. I want you to feel sorry for yourself and blame everything but your addiction for the way things are. I want you to be deceitful and untrustworthy, and to manipulate and con as many people as possible. I want to make you fearful and paranoid for no reason at all and I want you to wake up during all hours of the night screaming for me. You know you can't sleep without me; I'm even in your dreams.

I want to be the first thing you wake up to every morning and the last thing you touch before you black out. I would rather kill you, but I'll be happy enough if I can put you back in the hospital, another institution or jail. But you know that I'll still be waiting for you when you come out. I love to watch you slowly going insane. I love to see all the physical damage that I'm causing you. I can't help but sneer and chuckly when you shiver and shake, when you freeze and sweat at the same time, when you wake up with your sheets and blankets soaking wet.

It's amazing how much destruction I can do to your internal organs while at the same time, work on your brain, destroying it bit by bit. I deeply appreciate how much you sacrifice for me.

The countless good jobs you have sacrificed for me. All the fine friends that you deeply cared for-you gave them up for me. And what's more, for the ones you turned against yourself because of your inexcusable actions-I am more than grateful.

And especially your loved ones, your family, and the most important people in the world to you. You even threw them away for me. I cannot express in words the gratitiude I have for the loayalty you have for me. You sacrificed all these beautiful things in your life just to devote yourself completely to me. But do not despair my friend, for on me you can always depend. For after you have lost all these things, you can still depend on me to take even more. You can depend on me to keep you in living hell, to keep your mind, body and soul. FOR I WILL NOT BE SATISFIED UNTIL YOU ARE DEAD, MY FRIEND.
Faithfully yours,
Your addiction and drug of choice

indigo · 02-06-2005, 07:45 AM

Thanks Roxann,
I am speechless....that is so true.

Love indigo

CleverDisguise · 02-06-2005, 08:12 AM

Awsome!!!!!! I am printing it out as we speak.....we must never forget our enemy!

Roxann · 02-08-2005, 06:26 AM

Has anyone written a letter to their addiction? I think I might do that later on today. I'd love to read anyone's letter to it if you would like to share it. :heart:

BOOZER · 02-08-2005, 09:48 AM

PASteelerFan,
Not a bad idea! I have to go do some things right now. If I can stay awake when I am done I will do it and post it.

BOOZER · 02-09-2005, 05:41 PM

PASteelerFan,

I had told you I would try to write the letter to my addiction. I have tried but can't come up with the words. At least not what I feel are the proper words for what it has done to me.

I'm sorry.

BOOZER · 02-09-2005, 06:17 PM

Okay I did it. I truly believe what I wrote.

Roxann · 02-09-2005, 08:40 PM

Thank you for sharing that Boozer. I hope it helped to get it all out.

Phinneas · 02-09-2005, 11:04 PM

Very powerful, thanks Boozer. Keep speaking your truth, ok?

phinny

Desiree827 · 05-27-2010, 09:28 PM

This is very true I am back from a relapse and I have 40 days clean my sponsor told me to read this every night bc of drug dreams I was having and for the last several days I have slept peacefully!!!!!!!

Desiree

Desiree827 · 05-27-2010, 09:32 PM

and next I am going to write a letter to my addiction this should be good for me bc I am very angry at my addiction!!!!!! lemmeo know what u think!!!!

mikefreak · 05-27-2010, 09:48 PM

Heavy

WakeUp · 05-28-2010, 08:53 AM

Wow! Thanks for bumping this one up, very powerful stuff. I think I'll share this at an AA meeting someday.

DrU2 · 10-16-2010, 11:23 AM

My girl read it to me in her psycho girlfriend voice. It's basically a letter from an EX I never wanna go back to. printed it out and will keep it close as a reminder.
Thanks!

divineangel1012 · 10-28-2010, 01:23 PM

True story right there. I would never let a man control me so why did I let a powder do it? F*ck that I say. I control me, nothing else does.

Awesome that you posted this.

Kmber2010 · 10-29-2010, 08:29 AM

Now ain't that the truth?? Thx for sharing.

Spawn · 10-29-2010, 11:49 AM

Kjell · 10-29-2010, 12:16 PM

Good stuff right there! Thanks for that.

MaryAnn100 · 10-29-2010, 05:10 PM

So true. Thank you for this. Just what I needed.

Annette

GreenAces · 10-31-2010, 09:29 PM

I really love this letter. It is so powerful and so true! I posted it to my group I made for the young and sober on facebook...

joey8262 · 10-31-2010, 10:31 PM

can't open boozer's letter-but i've just put windows 7 on my laptop-the sticky note thing is great-just copied and pasted the letter at the top of the thread to it-now every time i start my laptop up it's going to be the first thing i see-i start my detox in 5 hours-it's 4.30 a.m here in uk and i can't sleep-absolutely bricking it-BUT i know before i can swim i have to stick my toe in the water-talking crap i know but thats how i'm looking at it-i've hit my bottom-i did last week-and today-IT ALL CHANGES-I TAKE CONTROL OF MY LIFE.

Amethyst2424 · 11-09-2010, 10:03 PM

That letter is amazingly true. I never looked at it like that. I've lost most of my friends because I pushed them away. I have severe anxiety and feel depressed all the time. I'm in pain all day and night. Can barely sleep. Every time I feel the need to use, I will pull this letter out and read it. It will remind me that it's the addiction driving me to use and not me. I want to be me again. Not this drug addicted, depressed, broke, lonely, dependent on drugs, negative person. I miss me. I'm new to this sight and already you've all inspired me.

Thank You.

Amethyst2424 · 11-09-2010, 10:05 PM

Thank you so much for taking the time to share that with us. I've printed it out and save it to my desktop. This is my first step. Thank you so so much.

stellaloella · 11-10-2010, 05:09 PM

This has a lot of impact. Thanks for sharing it.

justjo · 11-10-2010, 05:25 PM

When I first read this letter I thought - This is disgusting!! I cried and cried some more.
The whole thing is true - I lost my precious sister to this 'creep' one year ago. The addiction won - how sad and I can only hope that this letter saves someone elses life too.JJ

02-06-2005, 07:45 AM	#2 (permalink)
indigo Community Greeter Join Date: Nov 2003 Location: Mid-Life Express Posts: 9,928	Thanks Roxann, I am speechless....that is so true. Love indigo __________________ When you judge others, you do not define them, you define yourself." Namasté

02-08-2005, 06:26 AM	#4 (permalink)
Roxann Learning to love me. Join Date: Jan 2005 Location: on my way Posts: 621	Has anyone written a letter to their addiction? I think I might do that later on today. I'd love to read anyone's letter to it if you would like to share it. :heart: __________________ Roxann I'm struggling!!!

05-28-2010, 08:53 AM	#13 (permalink)
WakeUp Awakening... Join Date: Oct 2009 Location: in the present Posts: 1,022	Wow! Thanks for bumping this one up, very powerful stuff. I think I'll share this at an AA meeting someday. __________________ I am not who I think I am. All quotes from the 1st Edition of Alcoholics Anonymous (aka The Big Book)

10-29-2010, 08:29 AM	#16 (permalink)
Kmber2010 Member Join Date: Jan 2010 Location: Germany Posts: 2,059 Blog Entries: 3	Now ain't that the truth?? Thx for sharing. __________________ Kim “Our greatest glory is not in never failing, but in rising up every time we fail.” - Ralph Waldo Emerson

10-29-2010, 12:16 PM	#18 (permalink)
Kjell i've done my almost Join Date: Aug 2009 Location: Atlanta, GA Posts: 1,919 Blog Entries: 1	Good stuff right there! Thanks for that. __________________ B/c alcohol did for me what I could not do for myself.

02-06-2005, 08:12 AM	#3 (permalink)
CleverDisguise Member Join Date: Feb 2005 Location: Grass Valley CA Posts: 4	Awsome!!!!!! I am printing it out as we speak.....we must never forget our enemy!

02-08-2005, 09:48 AM	#5 (permalink)
BOOZER Member Join Date: Jan 2005 Location: San Jose, CA Posts: 77	PASteelerFan, Not a bad idea! I have to go do some things right now. If I can stay awake when I am done I will do it and post it.

02-09-2005, 05:41 PM	#6 (permalink)
BOOZER Member Join Date: Jan 2005 Location: San Jose, CA Posts: 77	PASteelerFan, I had told you I would try to write the letter to my addiction. I have tried but can't come up with the words. At least not what I feel are the proper words for what it has done to me. I'm sorry.

02-09-2005, 08:40 PM	#8 (permalink)
Roxann Learning to love me. Join Date: Jan 2005 Location: on my way Posts: 621	Thank you for sharing that Boozer. I hope it helped to get it all out.

02-09-2005, 11:04 PM	#9 (permalink)
Phinneas Member Join Date: Oct 2004 Location: fumbling towards ecstasy Posts: 2,614	Very powerful, thanks Boozer. Keep speaking your truth, ok? phinny

05-27-2010, 09:28 PM	#10 (permalink)
Desiree827 Member Join Date: Jun 2009 Location: Scranton, PA Posts: 31	This is very true I am back from a relapse and I have 40 days clean my sponsor told me to read this every night bc of drug dreams I was having and for the last several days I have slept peacefully!!!!!!! Desiree

05-27-2010, 09:32 PM	#11 (permalink)
Desiree827 Member Join Date: Jun 2009 Location: Scranton, PA Posts: 31	and next I am going to write a letter to my addiction this should be good for me bc I am very angry at my addiction!!!!!! lemmeo know what u think!!!!

05-27-2010, 09:48 PM	#12 (permalink)
mikefreak Member Join Date: Apr 2008 Location: New Mexico Posts: 610 Blog Entries: 5	Heavy

10-16-2010, 11:23 AM	#14 (permalink)
DrU2 Member Join Date: Oct 2010 Location: New York Posts: 3	My girl read it to me in her psycho girlfriend voice. It's basically a letter from an EX I never wanna go back to. printed it out and will keep it close as a reminder. Thanks!

10-28-2010, 01:23 PM	#15 (permalink)
divineangel1012 Member Join Date: Aug 2010 Posts: 75 Blog Entries: 4	True story right there. I would never let a man control me so why did I let a powder do it? F*ck that I say. I control me, nothing else does. Awesome that you posted this.

10-29-2010, 11:49 AM	#17 (permalink)
Spawn Member Join Date: Feb 2010 Location: Ontario Posts: 604

10-29-2010, 05:10 PM	#19 (permalink)
MaryAnn100 Member Join Date: Apr 2010 Location: AA Rooms Posts: 267	So true. Thank you for this. Just what I needed. Annette __________________ *If I walked on water, my family would say I couldn't swim!!!!* *We've all done dangerous and wreckless things because of our alcoholism. Me,I got married!!!* Annette O. I'm getting divorced, it should have been a very happy marriage, we were both madly in love with him.

10-31-2010, 09:29 PM	#20 (permalink)
GreenAces One moment at a time. Join Date: Oct 2010 Location: Norfolk, VA Posts: 213	I really love this letter. It is so powerful and so true! I posted it to my group I made for the young and sober on facebook... __________________ "What's the point?" The point is that we are willing to grow along spiritual lines. The principles we have set down are guides to progress. We claim spiritual progress rather than spiritual perfection. Alcoholics Anonymous-1st. Edition

10-31-2010, 10:31 PM	#21 (permalink)
joey8262 Member Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: liverpool uk Posts: 136	can't open boozer's letter-but i've just put windows 7 on my laptop-the sticky note thing is great-just copied and pasted the letter at the top of the thread to it-now every time i start my laptop up it's going to be the first thing i see-i start my detox in 5 hours-it's 4.30 a.m here in uk and i can't sleep-absolutely bricking it-BUT i know before i can swim i have to stick my toe in the water-talking crap i know but thats how i'm looking at it-i've hit my bottom-i did last week-and today-IT ALL CHANGES-I TAKE CONTROL OF MY LIFE.

11-09-2010, 10:03 PM	#22 (permalink)
Amethyst2424 Member Join Date: Nov 2010 Location: Portland, OR Posts: 2	That letter is amazingly true. I never looked at it like that. I've lost most of my friends because I pushed them away. I have severe anxiety and feel depressed all the time. I'm in pain all day and night. Can barely sleep. Every time I feel the need to use, I will pull this letter out and read it. It will remind me that it's the addiction driving me to use and not me. I want to be me again. Not this drug addicted, depressed, broke, lonely, dependent on drugs, negative person. I miss me. I'm new to this sight and already you've all inspired me. Thank You.

11-09-2010, 10:05 PM	#23 (permalink)
Amethyst2424 Member Join Date: Nov 2010 Location: Portland, OR Posts: 2	Thank you so much for taking the time to share that with us. I've printed it out and save it to my desktop. This is my first step. Thank you so so much.

11-10-2010, 05:09 PM	#24 (permalink)
stellaloella Member Join Date: Nov 2007 Location: Washington State Posts: 150 Blog Entries: 1	This has a lot of impact. Thanks for sharing it.

11-10-2010, 05:25 PM	#25 (permalink)
justjo Sunny Side Up Join Date: Mar 2007 Location: Sth Australia Posts: 3,787	When I first read this letter I thought - This is disgusting!! I cried and cried some more. The whole thing is true - I lost my precious sister to this 'creep' one year ago. The addiction won - how sad and I can only hope that this letter saves someone elses life too.JJ

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