Help me stop

[curia540]

I need help to stop drinking. I have tried to stop on my own and there is always some excuse to drink. It is pathetic. I am tired of being useless for the first four hours after I wake up every morning. I'm tired of paranoia, guilt, and anxiety -- wondering if every person I pass in the store or on the street can tell I am a "drunk," wondering how much my family knows even though I try to hide it... I'm tired of being tired and unhealthy. You know?? It is stupid. I don't even LIKE to drink anymore. I just get so bored. I never drink before 7 or 8 PM, but those five hours or so from 8 until whenever I am able to fall asleep at night just seem endless when I am not drinking. I know it is an illness, somehow. Why else would I do something that I don't even enjoy and has had such terrible repercussions in my life (it was a factor in me dropping out of school, it has caused problems with my parents, etc.) anyway, I am sure this is the same old story to a lot of people?? The good news is that I am young -- 22. I haven't done anything really terrible yet. No DUIs, no ruined relationships... Just little things ... that add up ... and after one and a half years of this, a shattered sense of self that I guess is not visible to anyone but me. I really, really want this to stop. I want to feel good again physically and emotionally.

One of the worst things about alcoholism for me is the isolation. Trying to hide it, you know?? I think having people to confide in would help. Someone to come to every night and say "Hey, I didn't drink tonight." Thanks for listening.

[Chy]

Hi and welcome!
I sure can identify with most of your story. Please know your not alone. Though I continued 20 + years beyond your age, I found a solution in AA much later in life, and so far so good. Don't wait as long as I did, the isolation only gets worse, the misery, the hangovers, the loss of self, I don't have much time right now, but I'll be back tomorrow to see how your doing, and maybe you can tell me the good news of how you managed to get through just one day without the drink. We're here for you and glad your here with us, we gettcha kiddo! Be tough k? *hugs*

[shoe_gal]

My Mom had a drinking problem, the best thing she did was went away to rehab, away from home for 4 weeks, when she came back she never drank again, and she liked it there, it was easier for her b/c everyone there had the same problem.. I know it sounds scary going away but its worth it, it changed her life... Good Luck*

[shoe_gal]

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I am here for you to say "hey, I didnt have one tonight!!!"

Hey there....I know I may not be much help..for I am only 12. But let me tell you something...My mom drinks. I know how you feel about waking up every morning like that, wondering what people think of you. In fact I know what people think of my family. But, I have faith that it will all stop. Do what Cynthia says. Cynthia is a good friend of mine and I really appreciate her help. She's a good person to listen too ;-)...and no what...I have faith in you. A lot. I'm sure that if you go to AA that you'll turn into the most happiest person in your life. Set ties with your family again...become a whole. Talk to them, ask them for help you know? I'm sure they'd be very happy to help. I know my family wants to help my mom but she denies she's an alcoholic. Cling to that...cling to family, and love...and don't say you don't have any. Everyone has someone that loves them...they just don't wanna try hard enough to find that person. Good luck and keep strong. Work on it, push yourself hard okay? Just not too hard...*hugs you* Good luck Curia...just remember...love and faith...and that we all believe in you.

[indigo]

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[misskris76]

i know where you are coming from. i am 31 and have been drinking mostly daily and rather heavily for the past 8 years or so. it's good that you are realizing this now because alcoholism is a progressive disorder, it gets worse, and before you know it you will be 30 and although your life may not be out of control and you may have a job, a home, a family, etc, think of all the things you can do with all of the time and energy invested in drinking/getting drunk. maybe you should consider a 28 day rehab and meetings. if you know you don't drink 'normally' at your young age, it will most likely only get worse so please address it ASAP and have it be a non issue. i wish i had, but at your age i was still in denial, even though i knew i had a problem.

[Katecan]

Originally Posted by HeatherD

Hey there....I know I may not be much help..for I am only 12. But let me tell you something...My mom drinks. I know how you feel about waking up every morning like that, wondering what people think of you. In fact I know what people think of my family. But, I have faith that it will all stop. Do what Cynthia says. Cynthia is a good friend of mine and I really appreciate her help. She's a good person to listen too ;-)...and no what...I have faith in you. A lot. I'm sure that if you go to AA that you'll turn into the most happiest person in your life. Set ties with your family again...become a whole. Talk to them, ask them for help you know? I'm sure they'd be very happy to help. I know my family wants to help my mom but she denies she's an alcoholic. Cling to that...cling to family, and love...and don't say you don't have any. Everyone has someone that loves them...they just don't wanna try hard enough to find that person. Good luck and keep strong. Work on it, push yourself hard okay? Just not too hard...*hugs you* Good luck Curia...just remember...love and faith...and that we all believe in you.

Wow! This post had a profound affect on me. Only 12! So wise.