Dealing with Resentments -- Resentment Level

Old 08-03-2016, 02:47 AM
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Dealing with Resentments -- Resentment Level

So we often hear in recovery that resentments were the number 1 offender. I would not argue that point. For sure a lot of us drank even more when we were wissed off.

Oh - yes, we have heard of many suggestions in regards to dealing with resentments.
# 1 seems to be praying for the one I'm holding a resentment towards.

Obviously being sober has improved the ways in which we handle resentments today and helps us to overcome without doing something that we may later regret. Plenty of those back in my drinking days.

My resentment level today on a 1 to 10 scale I would put at 2.
For me it seems almost impossible to be at 0.
But, some here may ride there often ?

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Old 08-03-2016, 03:59 PM
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It's 3:55 PM and the average resentment level for the day -- 1.

That's a pretty good day for me.

Resentments, killer of the soul.

Holding them down is a good thing.
Getting rid of them is even better.

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7 in the evening.

I'd say for now about a 3.
One heavy duty resentment I work and pray on every day popped
up this afternoon.
I recognize my part and redirect the voices in my mind.

The Serenity Prayer gives me hope and strength.
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I recognize my part and redirect the voices in my mind.

The Serenity Prayer gives me hope and strength.
Yes, for what I'm thinking can for sure lead me down a path.
Think good -- good path.
Think bad regarding something or somebody -- bad path.
The Serenity Prayer is so simple -- yet it works wonders.
If I take it to heart -- easier said than done at times.

My resentment level today has been a very low for me one -- 1.

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My resentments level is about a 4 now. It started off at a 10 2days ago and slowly made its way down. I completely owe it to the program I'm in and using the tools I've learned.

What helped me was praying, the serenity prayer, reaching out to another alcoholic on the phone, calling my sponsor, meditation and breathing and lots of sleep.

Also I had to tell myself over and over that these emotions being stirred up.because of unresolved resentments are normal and to be recognized and to know they will pass. The world won't end because our emotions are running high. It took my 2days to realize that I would be OK!
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Resentment? I'll go with 1 today.

Frustration is generally a bigger issue for me.
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Actually, I do have one resentment. Against another AA member. I enjoy the social aspects of AA and all that but feel I've been lied to. Nothing which affects me but I still find it annoying. What I resent is his attempts to drag me into AA or non-AA related drama. Enough is enough. Tell it to your therapist, sponsor or whomever but leave me out of it.
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This morning some resentment from like 25 years ago popped up. What the heck? Can't even remember now what it was concerning?

On a 1 to 10 --- 2

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Early Saturday morning resentment level -- 0




"Resentments"



Kill that cancer

that is running through your heart

it is not Gods will

let it be rinsed

let them depart.



Takes some years to realize

as time makes us a little older

carrying resentments like cancer

Stronger even bolder.



If we carry it within

cancer of the heart

it will wear us thin

no chance of a new start.



What's it really matter

things that happened

so many years ago

just blessed to be here

I have let them all go.


Bob B 06-24-05



Well, truly I can't say that I have let them all go today. Sounds good but, that wouldn't be true. But, the burden of heavy resentments has lightened greatly.
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Today? Right THIS moment and day? Honestly, zero.

For whatever reason, I truly got it on Wednesday- which also happened to be my 40th birthday- that living in ONE day is amazing. I'd kinda done it before, at least most of a day, but emotionally this felt different. Sure, a lot of good things have happened this week. And, on the other hand, I've had to accept some things I didn't "like" - but I did them without resentment.

I just did my 4th step inventories, so thanks for the reminder about looking honestly at this part of my recovery, on an ongoing basis.
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Got a --- 0 --- going.
Amazing for me.
Of course it's 5AM in the morning and I just woke up.
If I could just hold this throughout my day.
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0 resentments at the moment.
But, it's still early 7:30 Sunday morning.
A long day ahead.

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Resentment level running at a 1 today, it sure ain't 0.

Better than most days -- I think.

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Resentment level at 4:39 PM -- 2 on a 1 to 10 scale.

Earlier in the day I dug up a little disease over someone from the past.
I tried to let it go quickly knowing it's a form of heart cancer.
Funny I guess, now I don't ever remember who it was?
Those resentments got to love them -- not really.

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It can happen so very early in the morning.

Reading a 6 at 5:04 AM.

Not a great way to start the day.

Best to let all resentments go.

The more we dwell on them the sicker we get.

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Actually, I do have one resentment. Against another AA member. I enjoy the social aspects of AA and all that but feel I've been lied to. Nothing which affects me but I still find it annoying. What I resent is his attempts to drag me into AA or non-AA related drama. Enough is enough. Tell it to your therapist, sponsor or whomever but leave me out of it.
I am now hardcore about this kind of BS. I have a zero tolerance policy about drama in my life, and there have been two instances where I have ended or completely reframed a relationship within AA. One person is blocked in my cell and his number is under spam; I have no need to ever do more than nod politely when I run into him. The other, I limit conversation to small chat if we happen to be near each other in the smaller meeting I go to MWF.

Re resentment level....right now, carrying over from last night, zero. I have 6 mo tomorrow and it is my day off, and it is one for the books in terms of the simple but joyful stuff I have planned. Here's to maintaining that level throughout!
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I have a 10 going there for a moment a while ago had to let that go quickly back down to a 1.

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It's been at a 1 for me past three days which is unusual and of course I'm thinking something is wrong because I get resentful easily and tend to hold on to them.

Been lowering my expectations, and building personal relationship with a God of my understanding and I'm finding new levels of freedom and serenity through that.

There is a situation where I caused harm in which I need to write about that I'm ignoring. I don't want to go through the feelings or tackle it alone. I've gotten some suggestions, and people are encouraging me, but I still feel like I have to look at the part I played before it turns into a resentment. It has to do with my sponsor, who cut off communications with me, and I don't have a Homegroup currently. I even went 5 days without a meeting or using the phone after it happened. I have a year clean and a lot of free time. I feel like I need to jump back into the program.
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Started off this Sunday morning early with a 6.
In most of these cases, I'm powerless.
Yes, people can rub us the wrong way.
Got rid of it quickly and now at around a 2.
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Running between a 0-1 today.
Good resentmentless day up top the mountain.

Carrying resentments can cause hardening of the heart.

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