MLD51

Still running low on serenity. 60% today. Something has to change. Probably mostly my attitude.

Mountainmanbob

Hanging tight. Been having some good days. This thread helps me just as much as the serenity prayer, which I have said to myself thousands of times over the years

6:38 PM

Mountainman

Ken33xx

75% today.

Great thread and quite helpful in putting my day into proper perspective.


Have a stable/sober day.

Ken33xx

As was mentioned hang tight.

Tomorrow maybe you can get into the 70 range.

Ken33xx

I daydream constantly. Some good, some bad. Daydreams/old ideas are what they are.

How I react is my concern.

Restraint of pen/tongue: I'll give myself a 60 -65 average on the serenity/ stability scale for the past month.

As long I don't self-sabotage on a difficult day I consider that a score of 50 or minimum stability/serenity.

Below that and it definitely hasn't been a good day.

However, the bottom line is always did I pick up a drink? No? Then I have a chance to perhaps right the wrong of yesterday.

Again great thread. After 23 years in AA I need to keep things simple.

Thanks

Have a stable/sober day.

Mountainmanbob

7:41 AM -- been up since 6 -- Sat.

A pretty darn big day planned.
Some exterior house repairs.
Inspect an aggressive bee hive.
To our friends for dinner.

If I get too overwhelmed by my approaching day mixed with too much coffee my serenity level can drop very fast. Here lately I have been grateful that I have the skills to do what I need to do and this has given me a better way in which to look at some of the things that used to bring on some anxiety and stress thus tearing up my serenity.

Got a 99% going with most of the day ahead of me.

A nice sober day wished for all,
Bob

Ken33xx

Yes, sounds like you've got a lot going on today to be sure.

I'm rooting you find 80 - 90 % serenity/stability.

Mountainmanbob

Thanks Ken. Yes, if I can on an average day hit 80% I'm doing very good. Believe me, I hit some super lows at times. Haven't seen those since starting this thread -- thank God -- but -- knowing myself like I do -- I need to keep my serenity level on my mind at most all times of the day and night, especially if I feel anxiety coming on or else it's a fast fall to the oh poor me pit.

Have a nice day filled with much serenity,
Bob

Mountainmanbob

12:55 PM
Got a little frustrated looking for some misplaced bee equipment.

Lost a few points there.

Holding tight at 91% serenity so far for the day.

On the couch with the AC on chilling out.

Bob

Mountainmanbob

8:55 PM and I'll call it a day.
It was a big day.
Got lost going to a place that I have been to before.
I hate that and it showed a little.

Finishing the day with a 83%.
I'll take it and head to bed.

A nice sober evening wished for all,
MB

Ken33xx

Good job!!!

Ken33xx

Had a bit of a scare today. Noticed I incorrectly filed a legal document some 18 years ago.

When I found the mistake my stability/serenity immediately dropped to 50.

My mind was racing and I spent all morning researching the best way to correct this.

End result is not a disaster but I may owe money.

As I'm typing this I'll give myself 65.

Planning to go to the gym tonight or at least thinking about it.

Have a stable/sober day.

Mountainmanbob

Things like that really rock my boat Ken.
Holding tight during those times is what I'm working on.
With God's help and mercy -- oh how I need that !

5:37 AM Sunday morning
I was just outside having some coffee and getting ready for the sun rise.
Watching our many kitties running around and having a cigar.
Wife is asleep and I'm grateful to have some focus sober time here on site.
Church in a while -- missed last week.
It's all about what I do or don't do today.
A nice sober Sunday wished for all,
Bob


God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,

Courage to change the things I can,

And wisdom to know the difference.

Mountainmanbob

An excellent sober Sunday here today.

98 % serenity

Seems I lose 2 % by just being awake and thinking.

Not really but, I think you know what I mean.

A nice sober Sunday wished for all,
M-Bob

Mountainmanbob

Finishing up the day in the high ninetys.
Pretty amazing.
Even my wife reminds me of this thread throughout the day.
Curious to see how long this holds ?

M-Bob

Mountainmanbob

I know that this won't last forever
but
I'll take it with a grateful heart.

5:10 PM running 95% serenity level for the day.

M-Bob

Mountainmanbob

7:05 AM

Heading out to the beach for a bicycle ride around the Bay and then lunch at Denny's and then ride down the boardwalk.

Should be able to get some exercise and catch some serenity out there.

Running at 99% serenity at the moment.
I lose 1% just by thinking too much.
Enjoy the moment and relax -- my goal.

A nice sober day wished for all,
Bob

Mountainmanbob

Hope that things have picked up for you MLD51.
Believe me, I can get into some funk -- just ask my wife.


On the way out to the beach for my bike ride a guy cut me off.
To myself I called him a but o.
I gave up three points with that one.
Enjoying a beautiful day here today and got a 20 mile ride in at the beach.

Serenity reading at 2:55 PM -- 95% for the day -- so far that is.
In this body and mind things can change so very fast.
But, I seem to be gaining much more control over my emotions lately.

M-Bob

MLD51

Thanks, MMB. Better today, but not above 80. I have a situation going on that's ripping me up inside. I have a decision to make that's going to hurt someone I care about. I'm trying to just sit quietly and let the answers come to me, rather than trying to force it. That helps, but I can't completely let it go.

Mountainmanbob

I have been praying for your situation -- that it would ease up.

If I could keep a 80% average I would be much easier to live with.

Since starting this thread I have been having some unusually good days for me. I think the reason is keeping this thread on my mind and keeping serenity a priority throughout the day. Knowing that once all get's out of hand for me I can go to la la land in a brief moment and at times stay there throughout the day and sometimes carry it over for 2 or 3 days. As I have said before, just ask my wife and she can tell you all about me and my oh poor ME's.

6:40 AM here and the maids are coming this morning to clean our house. That means that I should hit the road. What better time than to hit my morning 9:15 Jump Start AA meeting. The next time while at a meeting and asked to lead you all know what my topic for the day will be -- SERENITY -- of course.

Keep it close today folks.

99 % -- lost 1% when I opened my eyes this morning.

A nice sober day wished for all,
M-Bob