In Pain

[firedogg]

I Just Lost My Mom To A Stroke And With All The Drinking She Did It All Got To Her I Dont Know What To Think Theres So Much Going Though My Mind Right Now I Just Dont Know What To Do I Feel Like Crying But I Cant I Dont Know What To Feel Right Now She Hurt Me Alot And I Dont Know Really What To Do Some People Say I Sould Go To Her Funeral But Theres Part Of Me That Dosent Wanna Go But I Gotta Do It She Did Give Birth To Me She Did Put A Roof Over My Head For 16 Years She Did Feed Me She Took Care Of Me But She Also Hurt Me Alot Over The Years But Deep Down I Love Her Im In Alot Of Pain Right Now I Feel Like Drinking But I Know I Wont Im Going To A Meeting In A Few Minutes And To Talk To My Sponcer

God Bless
Brian

[Dan]

Bless you Brian.
And your mom.
I hope you have it in you to share with your fellows at the meeting.
A burden shared is that much lighter to carry.
Thanks for posting.

[brainwarp]

oh brian
youve been through so much and im very proud of you for heading to a meeting. Dont do what i did and drink again, it could send you back to where you dont want to be.
counseling would be good too. Forgiving and forgetting are two different things. Perhaps you can put hre to rest with forgiveness, it will help you heal. youll never forget but perhaps youll find strength in healing and closure through forgiveness.
I dont know the extent of your hurt, i can only relate to my own hurt from an alcoholic parent. Once i forgave, I felt a huge cloud lifted. Let yourself cry, rage, anything to get it out. It helped me to write everything i felt down, then i burned it so i could feel like it was destroying that hurt.
may god hold you and bless you in this time of grief.

[In memory of miracle]

((((((((((((( Brian ))))))))))))))