Caved at 59 days! - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

bee62 · 04-23-2007, 01:16 PM

Well guys, hate to say it but I was hell-bent on getting trashed saturday. It was an awful week and I had been struggling, but I gave into my anger and tied one on. So, here it is, day#2 AGAIN. I am disappointed in myself but not beating myself up too badly. I am going to my homegroup meeting and make contact with my sponsor-which I should have done in the first place.
AAARRRGGHHH

melissa

Cynay · 04-23-2007, 01:57 PM

Congrads on day 2!!!

90 meetings in 90 days? and all you can do is get up, dust off and start again... welcome back.

***Anna*** · 04-23-2007, 02:42 PM

I'm glad you're here Melissa and you can get through this.

Do you have a plan on how to deal with your anger the next time?

bee62 · 04-23-2007, 02:44 PM

Anna, I know I could use some exercise to diffuse some of this stress. I also did not meditate for a few days and I got wiggy.
I should stop giving others "free rent" in my head huh??!!
M

SaTiT · 04-23-2007, 03:21 PM

ah yeah...no free rent...
and throw out some marbles too
put the the wip away..unless you like wip cream.lol
and no poor me, poor me, pour me a drink either.

oki doki....put the halo away

a halo is what angels wear over thier heads.
a halo is also a space riffle use in a vedio game Halo.lol

IO Storm · 04-24-2007, 12:31 AM

SaTiT hit it on the head..............

H=ungry
A=ngry
L=onley
T-ired

Watch out for the HALT's..

I'm proud of you for jumpting right back into your

meetings...don't ever let that phone get too heavy

to call the ol' sponsor..

Halo's.....none here.

Your friend,

Sherry

GrouchoTheCat · 04-30-2007, 07:50 PM

Welcome back,

((((hugs))))

Ted

**Dee74** · 04-30-2007, 08:34 PM

Hi Melissa,
dunno if we've 'met' before, but I've seen you around and enjoy your posts...great to see you're right back up on the horse...and yeah...no free rent...kick the bums out !

D

indigo · 05-01-2007, 04:04 AM

Don't look back, stay in the present you're sober now and that's what matters. Congratulations on your sober time, 2 days rock!

indigo

livefree · 05-02-2007, 04:44 PM

Hey, it's OK. You're doing the right things by coming here and posting, going to your homegroup, and getting in touch with your sponsor. That time you had sober is still yours. You are doing the right thing.

higherfi2 · 05-29-2007, 08:13 AM

No one can take away that 59 days' clean. Every period of sobriety gets you closer to freedom. 59 days out of 60 sober is nothing to be ashamed of. Kepep going!

parentrecovers · 05-29-2007, 08:50 AM

don't lose hope, bee. you can do this, k

ontrackagain · 05-30-2007, 03:25 PM

I agree with higherfi2. I had 76 days, 45 days, 35 days, etc. I just wish that I would have recognized it and acted on it so that I wouldn't have binged. 59 days clean, 1 screw up and then back on!!!

Either way, I'm on day 2 now as well. Good Luck.

indigo · 06-01-2007, 01:53 AM

How are you today? I wish you a happy sober day.

hugs indigo

04-23-2007, 01:16 PM	#1 (permalink)
bee62 Ha Ha, charade you are! Join Date: Feb 2007 Location: Tallahassee FL Posts: 164	Caved at 59 days! Well guys, hate to say it but I was hell-bent on getting trashed saturday. It was an awful week and I had been struggling, but I gave into my anger and tied one on. So, here it is, day#2 AGAIN. I am disappointed in myself but not beating myself up too badly. I am going to my homegroup meeting and make contact with my sponsor-which I should have done in the first place. AAARRRGGHHH melissa __________________ THINK, its not illegal yet.....

04-23-2007, 01:57 PM	#2 (permalink)
Cynay Member Join Date: Apr 2005 Location: Phoenix, AZ Posts: 3,836	Congrads on day 2!!! 90 meetings in 90 days? and all you can do is get up, dust off and start again... welcome back. __________________ Cynay "Never be bullied into silence. Never allow yourself to be made a victim. Accept no one's definition of your life; define yourself." Harvey Fierstein

04-23-2007, 02:42 PM	#3 (permalink)
*Anna* Administrator Join Date: Aug 2003 Location: Dancing in the Light Posts: 22,832	I'm glad you're here Melissa and you can get through this. Do you have a plan on how to deal with your anger the next time? __________________ And I dont know what the future is holding in store I dont know where Im going, Im not sure where I've been There's a spirit that guides me, a light that shines for me My life is worth the living, I dont need to see the end. John Denver

04-23-2007, 02:44 PM	#4 (permalink)
bee62 Ha Ha, charade you are! Join Date: Feb 2007 Location: Tallahassee FL Posts: 164	Anna, I know I could use some exercise to diffuse some of this stress. I also did not meditate for a few days and I got wiggy. I should stop giving others "free rent" in my head huh??!! M __________________ THINK, its not illegal yet.....

04-24-2007, 12:31 AM	#6 (permalink)
IO Storm IO Storm Wheel Of Fortune Champion! Join Date: Mar 2007 Location: Southern California Posts: 18,184 Blog Entries: 2	SaTiT hit it on the head.............. H=ungry A=ngry L=onley T-ired Watch out for the HALT's.. I'm proud of you for jumpting right back into your meetings...don't ever let that phone get too heavy to call the ol' sponsor.. Halo's.....none here. Your friend, Sherry __________________ "God holds me still in the eye of the Storm"

04-23-2007, 03:21 PM	#5 (permalink)
SaTiT Member Join Date: Mar 2006 Location: anomaly Posts: 2,181	ah yeah...no free rent... and throw out some marbles too put the the wip away..unless you like wip cream.lol and no poor me, poor me, pour me a drink either. oki doki....put the halo away a halo is what angels wear over thier heads. a halo is also a space riffle use in a vedio game Halo.lol

04-30-2007, 07:50 PM	#7 (permalink)
GrouchoTheCat Coffee Drinker Join Date: Jan 2007 Location: Lobstah Land Posts: 1,121 Blog Entries: 1	Welcome back, ((((hugs)))) Ted __________________ (Not inebriated (Amethystos) since:12/15/11)

04-30-2007, 08:34 PM	#8 (permalink)
Dee74 SR Moderator Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: South Seas Posts: 42,542	Hi Melissa, dunno if we've 'met' before, but I've seen you around and enjoy your posts...great to see you're right back up on the horse...and yeah...no free rent...kick the bums out ! D __________________ “When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be”Lao Tzu

05-01-2007, 04:04 AM	#9 (permalink)
indigo Community Greeter Join Date: Nov 2003 Location: Mid-Life Express Posts: 9,928	Don't look back, stay in the present you're sober now and that's what matters. Congratulations on your sober time, 2 days rock! indigo __________________ When you judge others, you do not define them, you define yourself." Namasté

05-02-2007, 04:44 PM	#10 (permalink)
livefree Member Join Date: Apr 2007 Posts: 294	Hey, it's OK. You're doing the right things by coming here and posting, going to your homegroup, and getting in touch with your sponsor. That time you had sober is still yours. You are doing the right thing.

05-29-2007, 08:13 AM	#11 (permalink)
higherfi2 Member Join Date: May 2007 Posts: 1	Good start No one can take away that 59 days' clean. Every period of sobriety gets you closer to freedom. 59 days out of 60 sober is nothing to be ashamed of. Kepep going!

05-29-2007, 08:50 AM	#12 (permalink)
parentrecovers let it grow! Join Date: Oct 2006 Location: USA Posts: 15,536	don't lose hope, bee. you can do this, k

05-30-2007, 03:25 PM	#13 (permalink)
ontrackagain Member Join Date: May 2007 Location: GA Posts: 53	I agree with higherfi2. I had 76 days, 45 days, 35 days, etc. I just wish that I would have recognized it and acted on it so that I wouldn't have binged. 59 days clean, 1 screw up and then back on!!! Either way, I'm on day 2 now as well. Good Luck.

06-01-2007, 01:53 AM	#14 (permalink)
indigo Community Greeter Join Date: Nov 2003 Location: Mid-Life Express Posts: 9,928	How are you today? I wish you a happy sober day. hugs indigo __________________ When you judge others, you do not define them, you define yourself." Namasté

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