It could be worse

[Debby]

I need to let everyone know the realization of quitting drugs and/or drinking, its not just the reasons of you could lose things, such as home, family, job, etc. There is another far more important reason, which is the reason I quit.
Unfortunately, the reason for my quitting is a sad but true story:

On December 13, 2005, a police officer came to my house to let me know they had just found my sister dead on her living room floor from a cocaine overdose. I just lost it and thought if she could die from an overdose then I could have just as well, because I did it just like she had. There was no difference between the 2 of us except that she died and I didn’t, But I knew I would be next.

To look at her you would never have thought she had a drug problem. She was a 35 year old gorgeous woman, but most importantly just as beautiful on the inside. She lived every day of her life to the fullest, and she was so very loved. At her funeral there were about 2000 people. Because of drugs my family and I are all suffering and will for the rest of our lives, the pain and emptiness will never go away. I don’t want to do that to anyone in my life, do you?

A few days after her funeral, my husband & family sat me down and gave me the intervention I was praying for. After the initial shock and anger of everyone around me, I finally got up and look at all of them and said “It’s about F _ _ _ _ _ _ time you guys did this. Which is sad, because I didn’t know how to go for help that was there all along. I want you to know that even the people you think will be mad at you are willing to help you, especially if it is to help yourself. Like I said above, it’s not as hard as you think, for me putting down the straw was the easy part, it was facing my problems head on that was hard, but I dealt with it and now I can live life so much easier.

I am a cocaine addict and have been sober over 6 months now and living a very happy and more importantly a NORMAL life. (Wow, I’m still amazed.) Before I got sober I just assumed that drugs would be the hardest thing I would ever have to do. After all, drugs were my very best friend in the beginning of it all and then it was my worst enemy, just like you I’m sure

Yeah, I admit I slip now and then but I wont give up and I wont beat myself up over it because the next day I will do what ever it takes to start all over again. It really is one day at a time or in some cases, 1 minute at a time. Take what you need, and begin to enjoy life.

Always here
Debby

[Peter]

Thanks for sharing Debbie.

[historyteach]

Debbie, You are truely an inspiration to us all.
I'm sorry for your loss.
But, what a beautiful tribute to your beloved sister. I'm so glad you found your way home and pray for your continued sucess...

Shalom!

[Done-With-It]

Thanks for sharing Debbie. My doc is meth, been clean right over 8 months. I know it's hard, but definately doable. Your doing great, and it's very admirable for you to share your story and continue this fight.

Thanks again!