Please.......

[angelgirl]

Hey ,,

I am in need of some prayers please,, I am going to Urgent Care again tonight, and I think I have pnemonia, and if I do, this will be the 3rd time this winter. I haven't been real well. I am really afraid I have something else going on, and I don't know what it is. But I have this extreme fear of doctors.
I feel terrible, and my chest, and my back hurt..

I am afraid. It makes me sick that I am afraid. It makes me so angry at myself.

I have to go to my group now, then I am going in. (if I don't chicken out)..

Thanks so much.. I need all the prayers i can get..
We also have a bunch of things goign on in the family. But I have to go.
I'll write more later. Thanks..

Love ya all.
Becky

[Hope]

(((Becky)))

You are definitely in my thoughts and prayers!! I'm sorry that you are going through all of this. God is taking care of you! He is holding you close and will never let you go.

Go get that checked out. Take care of you!

Love and prayers,

Cheryl

[2stop]

{{{Becky}}}}

I am sorry you are going through so much. Am sending prayers out right now for you and your family....hope you get some answers about your health.

{{{{{{Healing Hugs}}}}}}}

We're here for you.............don't chicken out going to the doctors! if you do have pneumonia it needs treated!

[Bozo]

Always here for you. Lots of prayers for your health to return. Mike

[mendingheart]

Becky,
Oh girl, my heart goes out to you. I have been in your position when I was always so sick due to my addicts sickness before I found Naranon. I ended up at Mayo clinic.....and found the right plan for me.
Take care of you, and be good to yourself, you deserve the best........do not give up nor give in the the cycle. You can take care of the problem, your body needs your clear mind now.
Love and hugs to you. Let us know how you are doing.

[Time4Change]

God bless you, Sweetie. I'm sorry you're not feeling well. Glad to hear you're going to the doctor's office, though. I'll definitely pray for you. Thanks for sharing and for reaching out to us. We love you. Let us know how you're doing as soon as you can, k? Take care!

Love,

Kelly

[golf99]

Get checked out.

It is very important.

[Evanna]

((((Becky))))

[Maybe I can]

Hey ((((Beck)))), I too had much of the same symtoms , in my case I had bronchitus.
Don't be scared though girl, lots of us are praying for ya...OK ?
You must go in and get it checked though......no sence coughing and hacking, they'll probably just put you on a powerful anti-biotic and butta bing butta boom you be yourself real soon. Thinking of you ((Becky))...............Joe

[Peter]

Hey Becky. You are in my thoughts.

Three bouts of pneumonia in less than a year is too much. You are probably having these relapses because your body is not effectively fighting off the infections each time.You may need a change of medication and a longer period of convalescence.

Even though you might begin to feel well you might be pushing yourself too hard before your body has fully recovered.

I had a bout of pneumonia once and it took me weeks to get over it.

[woops]

Hello Becky - well - today is a new day and hopefully you will have good news to tell us?

Hope you got a diagnoscis yesterday? Possible bronchitis or pneumonia - but whatever it is you need to have it dealt with? But you know all that! You are a young woman and you will toss this off pretty quickly with any luck (and some intervention with appropriate treatment/drugs)! LOL

If family things get a bit "rough" - could you not leave them to deal with without having to get involved yourself - just for a few days for health reasons?

You are a wonderful positive giving person here in this forum - and you are so needed - so get well quick, kiddo??

Hope to hear from you later today.

woops

[PlanoTexican]

All the prayers in our house today are for you Becky.

Get well soon.

[Beachbabe]

Hun:

In my 3rd week of recovery, I contracted phemonia. I just thought it was withdrawal because I had never witdrawed before. By the time I got to the hospital, I was in critical condition.

Now, 2 months later. I am a shell of myself. It literally about killed me. Never forget being that god-awful weak.

Anyway, I wanted to hug you because as Peter said, 3 times in a yr is more than a body can take. I can imagine how weak and unlike yourself you feel but know people out here understand.

[daddysgirl29]

You're in my thoughts and prayers, Angelgirl. Please be good to yourself.

Hugs,
DG

[angelgirl]

Hi there everyone..

Thanks so much for all the prayers, and the wonderful kind words. I really do love you all very much. You mean so much to me. More than you could possibly know.. Thank you.

Do I have something to tell you..

I went to my meeting last night. I just seemed to get worse, the pain in my back and front (chest area) was just getting worse, and I just felt hotter and hotter. I am sooo afraid of doctors, (something I have been trying to work through for a while), but at that point, I just didn't even care what they did to me, I felt that sick. So we went to the ER, and I don't have pneumonia like I thought, they said I have bronchitis. I have never had this before, that I remember. I don't even know if I believe that I really do have bronchitis. The hospital here is known for making TONS of mistakes. I have very little cough. I thought when you have Bronchitis, you cough, and cough, and cough??

Ok, soooo.. It took a couple of hours before the doctor came in. Finally when he was writing my scripts, and I had ALREADY told him what meds I was on, including Suboxone, and he did not know what that was for, so I told him, Drug addiction, and guess what he wanted to write me a script for?? A narcotic cough med!!!
1. I JUST told him I could not have narcotics.
2. I am on a medication FOR ADDICTION!!

My husband was SO angry.. THEN,, when I couldn't take what he was going to write, he asked if I could have CODIENE!! LOL.. I know it's not funny, but C'MON!! A DRUG PUSHER!!! By this point my husband was past angry, and said, NO!!! Absolutely NOT!! He wasn't real nice. I was just shocked. I mean, can you imagine, what if I was really sick, alone, and CRAVING, and a doctor was PUSHING meds like that... We all know what would have happened. Thank god I wasn't. Thank god I felt stronger, thank god I had my husband, thank god he was watching over me. That doctor is lucky my husband didn't punch him by that point.. He was already really frustrated from the wait, and we had a child in the same room, with a curtain dividing us, and the child had
"croup" and was just barking away, for 2 hours..

Ya know, the really strange part about this is, I am NOT even cough, THAT much. I am coughing, but not too much. I am having a harder time breathing, and more pain my my chest.

So, everyone, there is a lesson here. Be VERY careful, and it might be a good idea, when you are feeling really sick, and you have to go in to see a doctor, that maybe bring someone with you.. Someone that is in recovery, or that knows you well enough to know what you do, and do not need. Sometimes we think we know everything, or we think we will do just fine, or we may think we need a pain killer, or something like cough med with a narcotic in it, when it reality, we really just need a gentle reminder of were we are at in our life.

So, I didn't have the pneumonia I thought I had. I don't know for sure what is up with this. I do know that my family does have lung problems. I am ashamed to say that I have smoked for many years. I have bought the patch. I have made that step, now I just have to put it on..

As I said, I have alot going on in my family right now. I find my self quite depressed right now. My dad is sick, my husband's parents are sick. My husbands mom wants me to come and take care of his dad during the week, because she can not take care of him anymore. This is a huge issue for me. It has really got me down. I can not do it. I do feel really bad about it.
But, I can't.

My grandma is sick, and she is quite quickly now losing her memory. She isn't remembering much of anything.

Sorry o complain. I do know that I have alot of great things in life too, and it's spring. I am so glad winter is over!! That is also a lift for me, every year.
I just am having trouble getting through this right now..


Thank you so much for all the love and prayers,...

Love to all of you!!

Becky

[Buzz Kilowatt]

Angel,

Bronchitis is better than pneumonia, so that's good.

Bronchitis can last for weeks. Chest pain, lots of coughing, and all kinds of icky colored sputum are typical. A good antibiotic is essential. So is bed rest and LOTS of fluids to help cough up the mucus.

I used to get bronchitis until I quit smoking. Lungs are much happier now.

Opiates reduce the respiration rate which inncreases the chances of infection.

There are certainly non-narcotic anti-tussive meds (e.g. Tussibid) that can address the cough. But coughing has the benefit of dislodging the mucus, where the bacteria reside. The longer the bad stuff stays in your lungs, the longer you will be sick.

Any doctor worth their salt would note your medical history and prescribe accordingly (e.g. anti-tussive & expectorant).

Hope you are feeling better soon.

((((((Becky)))))) (but not too close ;-)

Buzz

[angelgirl]

Hey Buzz,

I really don't believe that I have bronchitis though. I don't really have much of a cough at all. Not much more than a normal smokers cough. But I have been having all kids of other strange symptoms.

Tonight after doing alright, I got very, very sick again. MY body began to ache really bad, and I ffelt extremely sick, and I had this strange feeling inside me, that was really hard to explain. Almost like a small adrenalin rush that wouldn't go away. But it wasn't anxiety, I had not been worrying about anything. Besides, I know what anxiety is, I do suffer from it, and I know just what that feels like, adn that wasn't it. Plus, there was to many other things going on, I was feeling so sick all of a sudden on top of it.,. Plus, I have this shortness of breath on and off. Aarghh!! Now I feel pretty good again, other than having a bit of trouble breathing.???? Like my chest is tight.

The doctors in this hospital are not very good. I really, truly do not believe have bronchitis. I am afraid of what I might have though. I am afraid it might be my heart?

My anxiety is a bit high now, but it wasn't until AFTER all of this started.

Thanks,,
Prayers to you,,
Becky

[angelgirl]

Hey Buzz,

I really don't believe that I have bronchitis though. I don't really have much of a cough at all. Not much more than a normal smokers cough. But I have been having all kids of other strange symptoms.

Tonight after doing alright, I got very, very sick again. MY body began to ache really bad, and I ffelt extremely sick, and I had this strange feeling inside me, that was really hard to explain. Almost like a small adrenalin rush that wouldn't go away. But it wasn't anxiety, I had not been worrying about anything. Besides, I know what anxiety is, I do suffer from it, and I know just what that feels like, adn that wasn't it. Plus, there was to many other things going on, I was feeling so sick all of a sudden on top of it.,. Plus, I have this shortness of breath on and off. Aarghh!! Now I feel pretty good again, other than having a bit of trouble breathing.???? Like my chest is tight.

The doctors in this hospital are not very good. I really, truly do not believe have bronchitis. I am afraid of what I might have though. I am afraid it might be my heart?

My anxiety is a bit high now, but it wasn't until AFTER all of this started.

Thanks,,
Prayers to you,,
Becky

[Buzz Kilowatt]

Angel,

I'm sorry you feel anxious. Unfortunately, it's a normal reaction to having trouble breathing, or other physical symptoms.

Do you have a fever? That would indicate an infection. Did they do a sed rate test for you at the hospital? Give you antibiotics?

Asthma causes shortness of breath and anxiety, too. Bronchitis or pleurisy can cause chest and back pain - so can pneumonia.

Heart problems can cause similar symptoms. Is your pulse regular? Any swelling, especially in your feet?

If you have any concerns, you ought to go back for your own piece of mind. Sometimes an internist can help you more than E.R. docs . . . A lot of times anxiety just builds and just talking to a good doctor may be helpful by itself.

If you can slow down and deepen your breathing that may help with anxiety.

Wish I could be there to "talk you down" and give you a hug.

Hope you're feeling better soon!

Buzz

[best]

Becky

from what you have posted...You have bronchitis.
A Dr would say that you have cronic bronchitis.
I get it once a year and the Dr still says it is a cronic condition.

Not smoking, sitting up straight(so your lungs work better), exercise and proper diet will help prevent it from ever coming back. Once you do have it...penicilin and asprin work.
I had a Dr offer me pain pills. I said no so he offered me different ones...I said no. Looking at his glassed over eyes and tiny pupils, I am sure he was on something. Gee Drs are human too.

[angelgirl]

Hey Buzz,,

Thanks for being so kind. They did give me an antibiotic.

I think I have had a fever on and off. They did not do a sed rate test. I think you mean a blood test? I do have swelling in my legs and feet occasionally. My pulse is always very high, it runs normally around 95 - 105. This has been going on for a while, I thought it was a med I was on.

I do have asthma. Not severe, but it has bothered me in the past, a bit.

I know I need a good doctor. This has caused a few arguments in my family, because
my mom died young from cancer. I am afraid of doctors, and it has kept me from finding a decent one. A good one is pretty hard to find where I live too.

Alot of doctors hear that you suffer from anxiety, and they blame everything on anxiety. They don't take you seriously anymore. I have run into this, often. It's also why my mom was undiagnosed for cancer for a year, and died right away when they did finally take her serously. I am anxious now, but that is not how this started.

Thanks so much for being so kind and listening to me rant on. I needed that.

Love,
Becky

[angelgirl]

Hey best,,

Thanks darlin best. I am not coughing though, that is what makes me wonder about the bronchitis. I have not heard of a person having bronchitis, that isn't coughing. Ok, I mean I have very, little cough. Mostly when I do cough, it is because I am forcing a little cough, to get a little tiny bit of "junk" (sorry if it's gross) from my chest.
But only a tiny bit comes.

Ya'll might be right. Maybe it is just my anxiety, and I am just completely off here.
But, this seems just to strange. I also don't knwo why I have been sick, on and off.
Sometimes I feel fine, other times, I feel like I have been run over by a truck?

I love ya best. I know docs are human too. I don't give them much of a break.
It's my problem, I know that. I admit that defect, and I am trying. I did go in this time, and that is never, ever easy for me. I did say no to the pain killers, (and so did my husband, LOL) I brought it up here, because this happens, and not everyone is strong enough, or has someone with them. I thought it served as a good reminder. When your sick, you're not always in the best position. Sometimes we are weaker.

Thanks bud. I love ya..
Becky

[best]

No cough, just pain and yes anxiety as you think it must be everything else but a common chest cold.
Asprin work for me on taking the pain away but after a few days I find I need the antibiotics. Hurts like crazy and you feel that you must be dieing.
When the Dr says...Yup bronchitis again, my anxiety level drops back to zero.

[angelgirl]

Yes, maybe, and maybe I do just need to get this anxiety under control?

I know I have issues when I get sick. I fear illness, I fear doctors.
Both have taken what was very important in my life. Or so it felt that way.
Even if it isn't so,. I have been praying alot, and doctors and illness has been the
main focus of my therapy for a while now. Like a baby I am..

Thanks best..
Love ya,
Becky