Just got out of detox

[Maybe I can]

Just got out of detox and I'm not doing to well ...........major depression.
In the last two months I beat the benzos also a codeine addiction (cold turkey)and went of 300mg effexor daily (C/T ) that I had been on for 7 or 8 years. I have been crying and want to use so badly. This is my first clean day.

[Blake]

COngrats on the first day clean, it gets better, I promise, just don't use and it gets better.

Have you ever been to NA? It is the reason I'm still clean today and it has helped many many addicts get and stay clean, it can work for you too. Here is a link to the NA website, there is a meeting location tool that lets you search for meetings in your area...www.na.org

[splendra]

((((MIC)))

Hang in there honey it gets better....

[Maybe I can]

Yes I go to N.A. 3 day a week. I just phoned a local recovery house and I'm going to try to get in.

[Beachbabe]

Congrats. Hang in there. I just acheived 90 days yesterday and it isnt easy but it is so worth it.

Your life changes. Hard to explain, its like you miss all the bad in the world and notice all the good.

We wrecked our brains. Its going to take some time to get it together mentally. Please dont make that a trigger. The emotional roller coaster is the worse but I PROMISE it is the beginning of feeling normal and clean.

After that we tend to sink into a state of just being comfortable in the skin we're in. Thats my experience.

[angelgirl]

Yes I go to N.A. 3 day a week. I just phoned a local recovery house and I'm going to try to get in.

Congrats!! You are doing ALL of the RIGHT things to help yourself!! That's exactly what it takes. I am SO excited for you. I know things seem tough right now, but they WILL get easier as clean days add up. Just keep on, keepin on. Those meetings WILL help you alot. Just remember, everyday that you remain clean, you just get feeling better and better. Don't go backwards.

I believe we hit the point that we are just so tired of the process of going back, and starting over. Keep going darlin.. You are doing great, even when it doesn't feel that way. You are..

Prayers my friend in RECOVERY!!
It's such a GREAT NEW LIFE!!
Love,
Becky

[Peter]

The depression will pass. Just keep on doing the "right things" and you will be on the other side before you know it....

[Ava29]

Hello there! I'm sort of new around here, and am struggling myself. I have terrible anxiety, and I'm dying to self-medicate. Something else that is really tough for me, is my significant other just relapsed last night, and she's pretty messed up right now..I too, suffer from benzo and opiate addiction--and boy is it tough!! I used to rationalize the pills because I figured my only real downfall was my thirteen year addiction to alchohol...which because of the Pancreatitis I've developed due to drinking--I no longer can even stomach alchohol. I was "functional" on the pills, and they became the center of my world. It is a frigan nightmare some days.

I've heard about a medicine for opiate addiction that's supposed to help...Suboxone..perhaps that's an avenue that can be explored. Hang in there, you can do it! :wink2:

[Hope]

You are doing the right things! Early sobriety has many ups and downs. Buckle up and hang on. It will get better. You will appreciate the normal feelings again. These rough days will help you appreciate the good even more when those days come. One day at a time you can feel great knowing that you are betting your life!

[Maybe I can]

Boy am I sick . My vision is pulsating, if that makes any sense. And I'm super hot...sweating and stuff. I am so fudged up. I'm going to NA now. I can't say enough how I appreciate the support you guys are giving me .

[Maybe I can]

I left NA a little early....I felt like I was going to die. I don't feel as bad as when I was withdrawing from klonopin.But I still feel awful, and I mean awful !! I hope I can get into a recovery house. I'll know tommorrow. I think (drug and alchohol) can get me in.
If they can't, I can't afford it $ wise we don't have the money.

[angelgirl]

I know that you don't feel the best as soon as you leave detox, but it will get better. Just keep telling yourself, you are doing the right things, and just keep doing them.
It might sound easy for me to say, but I have been there, many times, and so has the others, and we ALL know just how GREAT you are doing.

I am saying a prayer for you tonight, that you can get into a recovery house. That would be great. If you can't, then keep doing meetings, as many as you can. They really help alot. Everyone in those meetings understands just what you are going through.

Hang in there hun, you are doing great..
Remember, WE CARE!!

Prayers my friend,
Becky